Hey there
My name is Leonie,am 27yo & i have been diagnosed with PCOS for about 5yrs now.It feels like only yesterday though that i found out & started doing the horrible tests to confirm it.
PCOS makes me feel defeated but then i have moments of "i'll beat this & hopefully make it go away"...
I had my first pregnancy at age 19yo.I had been having unprotected sex the entire relatinship & just figured that i just wasnt able to fall pregnant.
At 19yo i wasnt really bothered though.I was more interested in partying & having fun with my friends.The thought of having a child definitely did NOT interest me! lol
I fell pregnant but didnt find out until i was about 13weeks along.I chose to terminate the pregnancy as i definitely was not ready for a child & also i was no longer with my boyfriend.
The second time i fell pregnant,i was again not using protection with my boyfriend.Again i just figured that i was one of those females that cant have children.I was 20yo by this stage & by the time i realised i could be pregnant,i had broken up with my boyfriend.He had to move away for work (Army) and i didnt want to follow him.
I kept my pregnancy hidden for months & even planned to terminate again but had left it too late.In the first 2-3months of this pregnancy i continued going out,drinking alcohol & occasionally smoking cigarettes...not knowing that i could indeed be pregnant...
I told my family i was pregnant when i was about 5 months along.I carried small but then popped a big belly around the 7 month mark!
I had an incredibly easy pregnancy & a very easy & quick birth.My little girl,Ava was born perfectly healthy & still is today at age 6.
I met my next serious boyfriend in 2003 when my lil girl was about 6months old.We have been together ever since.We're engaged & happier then ever!
In our first year together we thought i was pregnant a few times but each time the test was negative.I just figured it was just my body doing its usual thing of falling pregnant whenever the hell it wanted to lol
As i always did every month,i read my fave magazines.I cant remember now whether it was Cleo or Cosmo but there was an article about fertility and this PCOS i had never heard about.The more i read the more i realised i may have it.I made an appointment at my docs & took my magazine with me.I told my doc my symptoms & he was about to fob it all off until i showed him the article...just goes to show they dont know everything.
He booked me in for an ultrasound which turned out to be an internal ultrasound...very eww but am used to it now as are most women with PCOS!
Sure enough right there on my scan was lots of little dark spots on my ovaries.So disappointing but happy to know what was going on after all these years.My partner was the most understanding person ever & still is.He read everything he could on PCOS & comforted me all the way.
Im guessing most women with PCOS feel very defeated & you feel like a failure because your body isnt doing what it's supposed to do as a female.
My doc wanted me to go on the pill to regulate my periods but i refused.I know that the pill brings on a fake period,not a natural period.I wanted my body to do it itself.I tried Metformin & being my usual forgetful self,i hardly ever took the tablet.
My sister at the time (who is very fertile! grr) was taking a medication called Reductil to lose weight.
I gave it a try,only took a months worth as the course was just over $100.
I think i may have lost a kilo or two (im overweight for my height so could definitely afford to lose at least 15-20 kilos)...im glad i only took Reductil for a month because i hated the way it made me feel.The weight loss was good but the increased heart-rate wasnt worth it lol
After i finished a month of Reductil,my period kicked in! It had been sooo long since i had had a period.This was back in 2005 & my periods have not disappeared since.Sometimes they may skip a month but at least they were back & they were back on the own...minus the pill that im glad i refused.
My partner and i still continued to have unprotected sex off & on for the next few years...still no pregnancy.My weight was still much higher then it should be...i am terrible at sticking to eating right lol
In May 2007 i realised i was pregnant,i took a home test & it was a faint positive.I had all the symptoms but knew not to get my hopes up as i had read all about the higher risk of miscarriage with PCOS.
I went to the docs & he confirmed that yes i was pregnant.He sent me to get a blood test to that he could check my levels.
He called back & said according to the blood tests that i'd be around 8-10wks preg.I went back for another blood test a day or so later & my doc called me & said that the levels were not climbing,they were staying the same.
He was very worried and had already booked me an ultrasound app & to get there asap.
Sure enough,they couldnt find a heartbeat & it absolutely broke my heart.Even though i pretty much expected it,it still hurt ALOT...
I went straight to the hospital for a D&C on the 15th May...my partners birthday.He sat with me in Emergency for like 8hours on his birthday.I still hadnt bled or miscarried naturally.
I was told i could go home & wait for it to happen but the thought of that freaked me out.So i stayed & waited longer...with a growing migraine to boot!
All done & finally home after a night in the hospital.I've never felt such horrid pain in my life! omg felt like my uterus was being pulled through my belly-button! Definitely scared us off having unprotected sex for a long time!
I know this story is long but it feels soooo good to get it all off my chest!
I guess the point of this story is frustration! I feel like im paying for my ignorance towards pregnancies when i was pregnant those first two times.
I looked it all so laardy-da back then & now that im actually trying to get preg,it just doesnt happen.
Anyway...its now the 9th March 2009 & took a preg test yesterday.I did so because i have been feeling 'preg' for over a week now.My last period was about a month or so ago (im bad at keeping track!)...i have strange symptoms that may or may not be a pregnancy.I'll list them... lol
*slight weight gain,more noticable in my lower belly.
*nipples are slightly sore & breasts feel/look a little bigger (im a DD anyway!) lol so its hard to tell...
*lower back pain every now & then...like sciatic nerve pain.
*twinges in my pelvic area
*frequent bowel movements,very rarely a normal solid (TMI sorry!)
*urinating a little more often then usual,especially at night
*slight cramping throughout the day in pelvic area
*not sick/vom feeling but more of a belly ache throughout the day but mostly of a morning before i've eaten.Most of the day the belly ache is one of those ones that you think "ooh i need to ___" lol
*a little more tired then usual & eating more junkfood
Its confusing coz it almost feels like a period coming but nothing yet! And the test i did yesterday was negative.I took it around midday sooo...
I've been taking a womens Multi Vitamin for a few weeks now so not sure if that is what is giving me these feelings...i know its what causes my fluro yellow urine! lol sorry,again TMI!
I just dont know what to think...i've booked in to see a doc 2moro & im hoping i dont get the news of a missed miscarriage.I would rather not be preg then go through that ever again!
I've been reading everything i can get on peoples preg stories.Like how people say that you get constipated when preg but thats not always true.Alot of women are the opposite.Also that preg women can get neg test results every time but theyre 100% preg...
i am totally going crazy thinking about it lol...hope 2moro goes well...
i'll finish my story now...hope i didnt bore you but thankyou so much for reading
Leonie xoxox
My PCOS story so far... 
