Angela18

Wow, I thought that this day would get easier as time passed. My eyes just tear up thinking of the date. October 3, 2004 was my due date. I had an ectopic pregnancy that ruptured on Valentines day. I remember DH and I were very nervous and both thought that miscarriage was a possibility. I think he was more nervous that I was. Two days proir to my rupture, I remember him walking out of the room and kissing my belly. Then I thought okay we are going to make it through this. We never in a million years, who would've, expected an ectopic?? Everything happened so fast. It didn't even hit me until we left the hospital. I remember them taking me out in a wheelchair, and I had the cart with all the balloons, flowers and cards, but no baby. That was when reality set it in, we weren't going to have a baby. I remember being in the hospital and the chaplain coming to talk to me, she asked if I needed to talk to her, and I asked her why would I need to talk to her?
I know that DH doesn't remember this day. I don't know if b/c the pregnancy was so early that he doesn't. He never got to hear our baby's heartbeat and I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I did, I always hear about how that is the most wonderful sound in the world. Hearing my baby's heartbeat made me sad, b/c I knew that would be the last time I would ever hear that. So this day I mourn alone, it's our special day. My baby would be 2 years. All the thoughts of what would've been.

Happy Birthday to my angel.

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Robert(28) Married 3/16/02 ~
~Diagnosed w/ PCOS 5/02~
~5 years of failed treatments from clomid to gonal-f~
~1 ectopic pregnancy ~ Lost right tube~
~Lost our angel baby Feb 14th 2004~
~In the process of adopting a little girl!!~
~Giving accupuncture and herbal therapy a try~

mom2amy

I am so sorry. (((HUGS)))
I too would have had a 2 yr old this yr. My angel's b-day was yesterday, my little angel Isaiah.

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myrtle4

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. My due date was October 4th, so I can feel what you are going through.

lovepotato

I remember feeling sort of out of it when I'd lost our baby too. I'm so sorry about your baby.

SheriKCMO

I'm so sorry. Due dates are all about should-have-been, and I wish you weren't alone remembering this special day. ((hugs))

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Metformin 1500mg since 10/02, Yasmin since 4/06, managing IR/pcos with lower carbs

First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.

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Mary Catherine will be in our hearts forever, November 28, 2003.
Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks

Third pregnancy, Cerclage 8/13-1/19

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kerr

Angela-I am so sorry about your baby. You would be suprised men mourn in different ways. Your hubby could be remebering this day in his own way or he might be to afraid to talk about it because he does not want to make you sad.

I am not sure if you read this or not, a few weeks ago I posted a poem on ectopic pregnancy (on this forum it is probably on page 2 or 3 now, it was not to popular of a post.) This poem put a lot of my feelings into words and it gives me great comfort. I hope this helps. I read it every day.

You can always PM me, I am here for you.

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6 IUI's. m/c 4/06 (4w2d).
4-5/06 IVF #1- 6/4/06 Ectopic preg 5w5d 2 methotrexate inj's
10/16/06-IVF #2 11/22 2 blasts trans BFP!

8/07 Elizabeth 7lb,6oz 19in by c-section

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ssaunders1187

Sorry for the pain you have to go through. Youre not mourning alone, as you have all of your cysters to mourn with you. Happy birthday to your angel.

VivC

I'm so sorry. This is a sad week around here. Please let your hubby know what you need from him right now.

Tomorrow's Rivi's birthday, and my hubby hasn't said anything yet. I don't think he remembers now, but I know he'll feel the grief with me tomorrow, when he does.

Besides, this is a man who can't remember our anniversary or ANY birthdays other than his own. I can't really expect him to remember this date, no matter how sad.

Viv