I was diagnosed with PCOS over a year ago. I do not know the exact date because when I was told I thought my world was over. I went through 4 cycles of Clomid, several pelvic sonograms and had my tubes tested to see if they were open. My doctor kept acting like it was my fault because I was not getting pg. He has since retired thank God! I switched to another doctor who prescribed Metformin. I have been on it since July and have had periods each month since starting on them. He told me I could also take Clomid but I declined for now because I thought that I would just take it easy and see what happens. Well I am still not pregnant. I tried not to think about it and relax like everyone says to do...that helped me mentally and emotionally for awhile but now it is getting rough again.
Everyone around me is getting pregnant. Every time I turn on the radio or tv it has something to do about babies. My heart is broken and it is getting harder and harder to struggle with this. I am a Christian and believe and trust in God. Everyone keeps telling me that babies are a blessing sent from God. I even had someone tell me the other day (who just found out she is pg with her fourth child) that God must really trust her to give her so many babies. One question is...does God not trust me? My other question is, if God sends babies to us how come people get pg constantly and throw their babies in dumpsters or do other terrible things? Our pastor said in one of his sermons that we are not suppose to question God. I am only human and cannot help it. I want to know if I am doing something wrong as a person and as a Christian. My pastor and his wife struggled with infertility. They were told they could never have children. After they adopted their second child she got pg and delivered her daughter. They just adoped their fourth a week ago. If I had the money to adopt a child, I would not question this so much because I would believe that God wants us to bring an "unwanted" child into our home.
I'm sorry this is so long. I just joined yesterday and have found the message board extremely supportive so far. I was so glad to see religious threads.
I'm sorry people are being insensitive around you. When Job who suffered much questioned God, but didn't turn his back on God, then God said Job did nothing wrong. God expects us to have questions, but He doesn't always supply the answers on our timetable. Job's friends were insensitive to him, too. They claimed God was punishing him for wrongdoing, but God said He wasn't punishing Job.
I believe it is true that babies are a blessing from God, but do not believe that not having babies is a curse from God or a punishment for anything.
Jashobeam-Thanks for your post! I truly believe babies are a blessing from God, I just don't understand why so many people who do not treat them as a blessing have them and those of us who would love them do not. I know that all hope is not gone for me, as I said I am just struggling for some reason lately. I know I need to lean on God more instead of having questions. I am just sick of dealing with PCOS. I have never been a mother and I can't wait to become one!
I think my cousin had PCOS since it took her years to get PG. She now has two handsome sons. I think only one lady with PCOS in my family ever didn't get PG (some had to go for fertility treatments/testing), but MOST didn't get PG till they were over 30 (my Mom, my niece, my cousins, etc.) and some after years of trying.
I know, it also makes me so mad when people take their children as annoying problems, not blessings in their lives.
I'm so sorry you are dealing with people like that. I know how you feel. I have been TTC for almost 8 yrs. I don't know why I haven't got PG yet. Only God knows the reason. You haven't done anything wrong to make God not give you a baby. After so many yr I'm finally moving on to Clomid and people have said some horrible things to me.
I will be praying for you.
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I am so sorry for your pain {{}} To be honest, I think its ok to question God as long as you are ready to trust Him in whatever He decides (which I know is very very very very hard!! ). So I say go ahead and rant and rave at God then be prepared for His unfailing love! {{{}}}
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Our pastor said in one of his sermons that we are not suppose to question God. I am only human and cannot help it. I want to know if I am doing something wrong as a person and as a Christian.
Unfortunately if this was true, I would be in big trouble because I generally question everything. I would like to know why/or in what context your pastor said this statement. I would also ask where this is found in the Bible - not to question God.
I ask God the same questions you do. I have always heard that when we pray we get one of three answers 1) yes 2) no 3) wait. So remember what it says in Isaiah "They that wait upon the Lord will renew their strength.........."
I will have to look through my sermon notes and see where he got that context. I am almost certain that it did say not to question him. Our pastor said even though the Bible states that he finds himself questioning God at times. He and his wife have faced infertility and he has been real understanding. He askes me pretty regular how I am handling things and that he is praying for me. He is a great pastor. I should go to him and ask him allot of this myself, but I am the type of person that keeps everything bottled in until I explode. I hate that about myself but I have felt that no one understands what I am going through. I felt really alone until I found this website and realized that so many women have the same exact frustrations and wants as me. It has really been helpful.
I ordered a book from Amazon.com last week that is about dealing with infertility and questioning God. I hope it will shed some light.
Need Christian support and answers... 
