 needing to vent
Oh goodness....all I have wanted to do for days is cry my eyes out. I know that life isn't all that bad but sometimes I wish there was someone around me I could talk to that would really understand me. I love my best friend to pieces and she has been there for me so many times and coped with my moods but there are some things that she can't understand. One of those things is that having a significant other is so important to me. I've never had a boyfriend and the only person that actually showed any interest in me was in 6th grade. And there are many days when I regret not taking him up on his offer to date me.
I told my best friend back in February before my birthday that all I wanted for my birthday was a date....to just go out with someone who might be remotely interested. Well I didn't and still haven't gotten my wish. I have to give her credit she did try twice. Sometimes it's hard for me because she gets so much attention from males....and I tell her that if you put us together and a male had to choose he'd pick her. She thinks that's just silly of me and encourages me. But most of the time I feel so invisible and/or ugly. I just want some attention and love and I don't think that it's too much to ask for. | 
