Ok,,, I have a question,, what does a nervous breakdown feel like?? I have been hiding from my emotions lately,, I tried to ignore the way that people treat me,, including DH. You know,, I honestly believe that Dh and my parents could care less about my feelings. The only thing they care about is that I do everything for them. I swear if DH doesn't change then I am gonna leave him!! He has PTSD from being in the Gulf War, and he refuses to take his meds. Mom and dad well they are about as disfunctional as you can get,, my whole family is. I have had an addiction lately,, and I am sinking further into it. I have never admitted that to anyone before. This message board is all I have. I know thats very sad. I take my Zoloft everyday, and I put my rose color glasses on everyday thinking that one day they all will realize!! I constantly take abuse from all of them. Its sad that I don't have enough strenght in me to walk away from all of this. Why do I feel that I have to do something for others to get them to appreciate me. To love me,,,,,,,,,,,I cling to my brothers death, and can't get past it. My grief change me for the worse. A psychic once told me that my brother was always around me,, but I have wrapped myself in this grief,, and I can't feel him with me anymore.. She was a very good friend, and I believe in her abilities!! She said he doesn't want me to do this to myself. I give all I have,, why can't they do it for me. OK ,, I am gonna wrap the post up here. I am emotionally exhausted....... Thanks for listening!!
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I am so sorry! Can you possibly talk to a professional who can give you the skills, tools and strength to live the life you want to?
(((((hugs&prayers)))))
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It would help if I knew what kind of life I wanted to lead. ((((HUGS)))) thanks Pink,, when I got the e-mail i had a reply,, I knew it was you!!
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But if you get some help I promise you things will get more clearer and you will have hopes and dreams for yourself!
I know how it feels to be in that fog of nothingness!
I am going to make my first psychologist appointment tomorrow so you CAN do it too!!
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I know you can't I know how icky the feeling is! Don't be afraid to reach out! Do it for you! You'll be happy you did!
Can I ask what your addiction is? you can pm me!
You are an amazing stong woman! And anything I can do to help I will!
Things I like to do to try and clear my head are listen to music(not the sappy stuff) or take a walk etc......
(((((hugs)))))
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Please, Please, Please go see a therapist, psychologist, someone!!!!! I've been there before - been in the darkness, the despair. But there is light out there. Just please go talk to someone!!!!
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I agree with the others... go see someone!! The more you leave it... the more you will mentally go round in circles in your head, the worse you will feel... the more entrenched in your thought pattern you will become. Having someone to help you see things clearer, who you can confide in and won't judge you... am sure this would help somewhat.
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That is depression, not a nervous breakdown. I had a nervous breakdown at age 17 and was then diagnosed bipolar. My mother is also bipolar and she has had 3. Lets just say that if you were in the midst of a nervous breakdown you wouldn't be on these boards. When you have a nervous breakdown you are completely incapable of daily functioning. You can't eat, talk to people, get up and get dressed or do anything at all really. I had a nervous breakdown after a very traumatic experience. I was at home and just started to scream (not yelling, just screams) for about half an hour and then I collapsed. I was hospitalized because I tried to commit suicide. It tooks months to recover. I was a healthy weight at that point (size 5-7) and by the end my clothes were falling off me. I didn't talk to anyone or move off the couch (once I was home) for weeks. I just stared at the wall. I also spent a lot of time just sitting there rocking back and forth. My mother's last nervous breakdown was when I was 12 and I remember basically the same things. So you sound like you have depressiong and definately need to talk to someone but you don't need to call it a nervous breakdown, trust me, that is not something you want to go through.
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I know exactly what you mean, though I did not try to commit suicide. In January 2004 I got to the point where I could not do a thing... it was as if my mind had just left me. One day I woke up and I couldn't even wash myself or feed myself or do a thing... it had been getting progressively worse, but it was as if something inside me just snapped and shut down. I had to be cared for and all my affairs had to be taken care of by my mother. It was a very scary time and I don't wish to repeat it again. My grandmother also had a nervous breakdown when she was in her early 20s.
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PLEASE come back and talk when your ready! i'm worried about you!
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PLEASE come back and talk when your ready! i'm worried about you!
Sorry Pink,, I have been at the hospital,, my dad had to have emergency surgery. They had to put a stint in one of his kidneys. They can't remove the stones yet, the machine only is avaliable every 2 wks. His lungs collapsed at the bottom. He had to have a blood transfusion. SOOO thats where I have been. ((((HUGS))))
"but you don't need to call it a nervous breakdown, trust me, that is not something you want to go through."
I never called it a nervous breakdown,, I asked how it felt. I have been through enough,, I am on this board for support not for someone to tell me what I can and cant say... I also have tried to commit suicide before I have been dealing with depression for over ten years,,, I know what it feels like!! My brother died when I was a senior in HS. I was molested as a child,, I was beaten,, I don't need to comment on this anymore,,,, I just spent all day in the hospital dealing with my dad being sick, mind you he just had surgery a month ago for a hernia,, and is remission from cancer.
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I am on this board for support not for someone to tell me what I can and cant say...
Exactly!! This is not a place to come and be condemned.
Am sorry to hear all the sh!t you are going through. I am not surprised that you are feeling so bad right now,especially piling all that on top of depression. Remember, you need to take some time out for yourself, for your mental and physical wellbeing... when you are trying to support loved ones who are going through severe health problems, it's easy to end up neglecting yourself.
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Thanks Vicky!! No one has ever been rude to me on here! I support every sister on here,, I post like crazy,, LOL,,, This thread is about me and no one else!!! Please cysters don't turn this into something more,, I do not tolerate meanness,, Read all of my post before you judge me... ((((HUGS))))
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I am so mad right now,, I am flirting with the idea of leaving,,, ahhhhhh
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Nervous Breakdown 
I know how icky the feeling is! Don't be afraid to reach out! Do it for you! You'll be happy you did!
