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Old 10-05-2009, 02:26 PM   #1 (permalink)
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It took DH and I 3 years to get pregnant and make it to a prenatal visit. We've had pos pregy tests before, but never made it to the dr b4 miscarrying. This time was difrent.

I found out i was pregnant Sept 6. We were both shocked and very excited. Since I am not working, we had to sign up for Medicaid and go through that whole process. We finally got our first prenatal visit ever on Sept 22nd.

It was the most amazing thing ever being able to see your baby on an ultrasound. Unfortunatly the ultrasound also revealed that I had a double uterus. Wich scared me. The dr wasnt too worried about it. It just meant that I needed an ultrasound the fallowing week. On Sept 22nd i was 6wks and 1day along.

Just 2 days later after DH and I took a walk I started spotting. I layed on the couchand cried. The spotting stopped after about an hour so i went to bed feeling relieved. The next morning the spotting was back, only worse.

I went into the Dr for an emergency ultrasound, and was devistated. The ultrasound looked nothing like it did just days before. Instead of a nicely rounded, it looked like a sqished ping pong ball.

The Dr couldnt tell if it was in fact a double uterus or an ectopic. So i ha to have surgery the next day. Turns out I did have a double uterus. The two uteruses were connected, but completely blocked between the two. The uterus was (with the pregnancy) the size of a dime.

DH and I decided to name the baby (even tho we didnt know what gender it was). Altho I'm pretty sure it was a baby girl. It takes a nice strong swimmer to have caused this pregnancy. The Dr said that the only way for it to happen was for the swimmers to go out the right falopian tube and over to the left ovary and then down the left falopian tube. This really was my little miracle baby. Her name is Kloe Ann. I miss her so much.

It's been almost 12 days since I lost my little one. And the days seem to just drag. I hurt SOOOO much. I just cry all the time. I feel like I got my heart ripped out and I have no idea how to put things back together. I want nothing in the world more than be a mommy When will it stop hurting?
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I'm so sorry for your loss.

Please go to a high-risk fertility specialist before you consider getting pregnant again. The doctor may be able to repair the problem with your uterus so this type of thing won't happen again.

I had a bicornuate uterus, and my septum was so severe that my uterus was nearly cut into two (with a thin layer of tissue towards the end). I had it repaired and was able to carry two babies to term (although they were complicated pregnancies with IC, I had a fighting chance with a regular shaped uterus).
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My Dr. removed the second uterus. I didnt really lose anything since no matter what the outcome would have been the same. The second uterus was attached by just a flap of tissue.

I love my Dr. He was recommended to me by my close friend who also suffers from infertility. I trust he knows what he is doing and that he will be able to get me through all of this. I just wish it didn't hurt so much, and that this never happened. God forbid something normal happen to me!
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I understand the normal thing not happening. I feel the exact same way! I am so sorry for you loss, it doesn't matter how far along you were, she was real and did exist. May Baby Kloe fly along Heaven with the angels!
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