The other night at work, I asked a lady about her weight...by asking if she was always heavy as a child and she told me about a disorder she had. Gave me the link to this site and I'm reading all the "symptoms" and I'm a bit taking back from it all.
Right now, I'm 19, but I believe this might have occurred when I was in when I was a freshman in high school..which was when I was about 14 years old.
For starters, When kicking into the New Year celebration 2001 style, I had my period like any other woman, but this time..it didn't stop. I was too shy to say anything to my mom and I thought I had done something wrong to create this turn of events. So basically, throughout the month of January, I bleed ...and into parts of February. It wasn't until I couldn't handle the embarassment that I finally said something to my mother. As you can imagine, not being very open to my mother about such information from the get-go...can only make a person feel hurt for not trusting them with such information.
Next step was to the Gyn..which was a lady who could barely speak a good amount of english and her solution to my problem was "birth control". She put me on the weakest dose of birth control known..but that still didn't regulate me. She had to "upgrade" me and that helped for a few months until my body become ummune to it. I was yet again "upgrade" ...and that worked for sure, but she warned that she only gave that type of birth control to pregnant woman that had severe blood lose.
Since being a virgin, having a papsmear at that age, wasn't exactly very idle. I had heard soo many stories that go on....that I finally got to the point of being paranoid..that I wouldn't stay still. So, my GYN decided it was best for me to have a sonogram (sp?) done..and when the results came back, she said nothing was wrong. It was probably that my body was going through "a phase." I was still on birth control for another couple months, until I started to gain quite a bit of weight and have really intense headaches. I took myself off the pills without anyone having knowledge about it. My mother finally found out during the end of my senior year, only because I was in a car accident that led to her having to fill out a "medical" history about me.
Anyways- that's how I think it all started..or rather how I think it might have become a bit more "noticable" for myself. She (GYN) did however tell me that I was "pre-cancerious" and the luckliness that I'll ever have children isn't very great. Imagine being 14 years old and having a GYN telling you that? Telling you that You don't have cancer now, but eventually you will. I have yet to be to another GYN..nevermind seeing her again.
Next symptom I saw was - excess of facial hair- I've noticed for sometime now..something that started not too long ago..was that my facial hair was getting a bit darker. I was starting to get a bit of a mustache...and looks like my sideburns are doing further and further down my face. I tried not to panic when seeing this..so I'd start to tweeze what I could and "trim" other areas.
I haven't seen any baldness yet, and I really hope that I don't
Acne- I have good weeks..where I have nothing...and weeks where I just break out ..and it's there for a while. I never know what really causes it, but I always assumed it was that whole "being a teenager" thing.
All my life I've always been a heavy child, always. It wasn't until recently that I've decided that I wanted to get on the track the right way about my weight and try to actually keep it off. I'm not on any diets ..I just go to the gym very often and run on machines and have the help of my trainer with me. Since this summer, I've almost lost 50 pounds. I still have quite a bit more to go. It's really pathetic when I think about how I let my body get at such a young age...One day, I really wouldn't mind feeling "desirable" instead of being looked upon as "ugly" or "dirty" for the excess amount of weight.
Depression...yep. From the heaviness, I've had loads of depression. Always trying to cover it up..never being quite open about it in front of people. I never know what to really say or who to really talk to. I feel as though no one can truly understand where I'm coming from and ....I guess that's why this "first" post of mine is very lengthy. I'm a person who "puts her cards out on the table for all to see" People can choose to accept that hand or reject it. That's how I've always felt all my life. This past year was hard on me with recent events in my family life...but I've got to overcome that and do better for myself.
Not everything is horrible. I am in a committed relationship with a very charming, good looking gentleman. I often wonder what is he doing with me when he can do soo much better than me. I have no confidence in myself and..well yea.
In my family, cancer runs far. My mother had cervical cancer and miscarried. The same with my grandmother, but back then..they didn't know the reasons for why she miscarried..only that she "miscarried". Most of the women in my family are heavy sets, but I always figured it was because of my background (Irish, German, Czech, Polish, and Italian)....heavier bone women.
After seeing this site and my boyfriend giving me encourage to find more about this "syndrome"..I'm starting to second guess and actually believe that I might be one of the many women that suffer from this, but sadly at a young age. It makes me never really want to get too close to him, for the lack of the possibility of never having children of my own.
Alrighty...that's enough about me. Sorry for this being too lenghty, but I'm a known rambler.
hey there you sound like you've had a tough time. i'm fairly new here too but thought i'd say welcome all the same. congratulations on the weight loss, you've done really well. you should probably go back to the doctor and ask for blood tests and scans to diagnose pcos, thats what i did and eventually was diagnosed. i'm discovering from this site that some drugs help, and i've found eating a low carb diet really useful.
anyhow hi there, from 1 rambler to another
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First off, many people belive PCOS is inherited and that Cysters are born with it, but symptoms show up later.
I would definitly ask the doc why you are precancerous. You need a Pap too, if this doc does belive you are precancerous. There is no exucse for her just saying that and not following up.
I would also read up on SC about the tests that need to be run, what meds you should be put on, etc. Many women don't go no birth control to control their periods. For many, there are other options.
I also would recomend cutting back on processed carbs such as flour, pasta, breads, etc.
thank you for the information, I'm going to keep that in mind..while I try to find a doctor that I'm going to be comfortable with.
Cancer runs in my family..so I'm going to assume that when I was younger..that's where she got that I was "precancerous"... but all in all- it's on me; I stopped going to see her..I stopped taking the pills.. my call. I guess this is what you call denial..or severe depression
Where I'm from....it's sorta like the "boom docks" not many special doctors or what I'd like to say that they're C rated... they're probably the ones that did "alright" and anyone is willing to go to. I just don't trust them on some level.
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