New here--diagnosed w/depression

annem84 · 09-19-2005, 11:51 AM

Hi everybody~
I'm so glad that I was able to find this website; I feel that nobody understands me or the problem in real life. I was diagnosed with PCOS in February of this year and was diagnosed with moderate/severe depression at the end of July. I suffered a m/c on July 9th of this year and that, I suppose is what triggered the depression the most. It took me by suprise cause I believed I was fine but everybody else could see a difference. Right now, I'm not on any medications (new job, new town = new doctor) but feel like I should be on something and soon. I am seeing a therapist once a week but sometimes I do have to break down and see her twice. I'm sure PCOS is a base but there had a been a lot of other medium-high stressors before I was diagnosed and they all came to a roaring peak....so anyways. I go once a week on Wednesday's and is it wrong to look forward to it or not? I did have a suicide plan thought about but that has currently left my mind. I have learned that there are things to live for; even on the darkest and cloudiest days out there.

enits · 09-19-2005, 12:31 PM

I looked forward to seeing my therapist or attending my group therapy a couple of years ago. It gave me a sense of "I'm working my way to becoming happy and okay" again. It's wonderful that you have learned that there are things to live for even on the darkiest days. It's so true.

I'm sorry to hear about your miscarriage in July. Miscarriages forever changes a person. Your perspective in life all of a sudden takes on a different spin. You're also going through so many changes in your life right now with your new job, new town, and new doctor. You're a thinking and feeling human being. It's only natural to feel stressed out and depressed at this time. But those, too, will pass. You're working on it. So, be gentle with yourself, okay? Feel free to PM me if you like!

oaktreegirl · 09-19-2005, 04:36 PM

Anne, I'm so sorry to hear about your miscarriage.

Therapy can be very useful. It's good that you're enjoying it because that suggests it's having a positive effect on you. And if it helps to go twice a week sometimes, you should definitely do so. I'm glad to hear you're no longer thinking of suicide. It sounds like you're on a healthy path right now.

yesimln · 09-19-2005, 06:27 PM

Anne,
Sorry to hear about your miscarriage. Very sad news - I'll keep a good thought for you.

I think a lot of us have been through traumatic instances which have kicked in a major depression - in my case my first (diagnosed) one was triggered by the death of my only sister. I was functional for a while but it was masking - and for what it's worth, I was the most surprised by the diagnosis when it came through. Everyone else, except my mom who was in her own little world on this one not surprisingly, simply said, "Yeah that makes sense" when I 'fessed up. But I don't get to the point fast enough here - I think it's likely a combination of hormonal issues (pregnancy hormones do give a lift to most women, and losing them with the miscarriage can definitely cause sudden shifts), trauma, and PCOS.

As for therapy, enjoy it. I know that sounds weird but there are so few times that women in particular get to talk to someone about themselves, about what they are feeling with no judgments attached, about what's on their minds. When I first started therapy it was just amazing not to have to think about someone else for an hour a week. I'm now at 2-3 weeks and I still love going to talk about me and what's in my head... I just don't need to do it quite so often anymore. It ebbs and flows.

You'll do great. Just keep on talking and processing and I know you'll be in a better place before too long.

TickledPink · 09-24-2005, 02:19 PM

I am so sorry!

(((((hugs)))))

Eva37 · 09-24-2005, 06:46 PM

Eva