SeesAWE

Hi I'm Alicia. I'm 17.
So, I'm not sure how long ago it was when I got diagnosed with this stupid thing, I've usually been doing okay. But in the past couple months it's been ridiculous and I don't really have people who understand to talk to, so here I am.
I've been really depressed. More so when I go off my pill. and then in the past 2 months, I've gotten my period for 2 weeks while on the pill and then I got it twice in one month. I feel like a total basketcase, I can't help but push people away from me and then try and reel them back when I realize how stupid I'm acting. I guess I just need to know there's people in the same boat I am, or people who were, and had a way to help it? I don't know..
My girlfriend tells me it's my emotions, and my brain and I can control them, But I don't feel like I can anymore.

There's my.. depressing introduction I guess.

Bumble~Bee

Hi Alicia!

I might not be the best person to advise you but all I can do is tell you I do understand where you're coming from and what better place to come on and have a little moan that here, where everone understands just how bad things can get at times....

Last weekend I had no will (whatsoever) to even brush my hair/teeth or get dressed. (I know - disgusting, but I just didn't want to do anythin except go back to bed for the day and hide from the world) ON top of feeling so horrible, I had to deal with horrific guilt because I was putting my daughter through a very very boring time just because I was feeling so low. I was making her suffer because of my suffering. Sh's only 5 and doesn't deserve that. Then, there's the feeling like I'm not out doing what all my friends are doing so I'm somewhat inadequate, not the same, boring etc....so it's a vicious circle....oh and course then there's the chocolate, hot chocolate with marshmallows and delicious cakes that make me feel SO MUCH better (for about 10 seconds hehe) and then there's more guilt because I want to lose weight but I've just ate a truckload of sweet things. My mother passed away quite suddenly (and in horrific unexplained pain) about 6 months ago so I'm now trying to have my happy face on for my father and my daughter, who both live with me and who both miss her terribly....as well as dealing with my raging hormones AND whatever sort of grief I'm feeling myself....it all kinda gets on top of me and I hit rock bottom......quite a bit lately.

OK, so I now I've just turned your thread into something about about myself, and I apologise. I suppose, I'm just feeling very down and low lately so I wanted to let you know that you are, by no means alone. I've just recently found this forum and I think it's great. Who better to talk to about these things, than the peopl who actually totally and fully understand how bad you can be feeling at times

No offence to your girlfriend, but I'd imagine she has absolutely no idea what she is talking about as she doesn't suffer the same things as you, and so she can only talk about her own experiences really.

I'm hopeful that both you and I have happy times very soon....when out hormones might decide to behave and let us have a little bit more fun with life again!!

Emawee13

Hi Alicia, I know how you feel, I started having periods every other week for 3 months and that is what prompted me to get the situation checked out. So you are not alone. The support is most definately here. Don't worry about if people think you are pushing them away, unless they ask you, they will never understand, my husband is not as as supportive as I would like him to be, he just says I am a moaning woman moaning about periods like all women do apparently *rolls eyes* I am sorry I can't offer more than that for now, but always here for support!!

SeesAWE

Thanks you guys.
It makes me feel a bit better knowing I'm not alone, even though I think that's mean sometimes cuz I wouldn't want anyone to go through this stuff. But yeah. I'm sorry for your loss Bumble~bee. And I totally get the whole chocolate thing, what with Halloween just passing by and I trick-or-treated for my last time and I have a HUGE bag of chocolate. Now it's all I want to eat.
But yes, hopefully our hormones smarten up!