Hi
I'm new here, I'm 20 years old and from Denmark.... just found the site a few days ago, and I have lurked a bit, but not so much yet, but I intend to have a good look around and read all the advices and stories...I think it's really nice with a forum for all the girls and women with this problem... because personally I don't find it easy to talk about... not even with the people closet to me ... and not my doctor either, I'm just way to shy and sensitive to talk about such things... so, although I the previous week finally went to see a doctor... I'm not really getting all the things said I would like to...
Anyway, I haven't gotten a diagnose for PCOS yet, but if I don't have that, then I don't know what on earth it can be! I told my doctor I thought I might have it... and she took some blood sample, to which I'll get an answer tomorrow morning! I'm quite "excited" to know what they say!
Well... as I said, if it isn't PCOS I did be very suprised... because all the sympthons, at least the ones I can check on my own, fits!
I have a very irregular cycles... sometimes it does come two months in a row, sometimes there's half a year without! Until last week, I hadn't had it since late july... and before that, I can't remember when!
I have a bit excess facial hair, not much, just some darker hair above the lips that makes it look like a shade. But on the rest of the body, the hair is darkish... and grows extremely fast if I shave it off! And it annoys me insanely, makes me feel very unfeminine and... insure about myself :S
I don't really have acne... not in the face anyway, although I sometimes have a pimple or two, but... on my thighs and rear I have pimples and awful skin... not so delicious...
I don't have
sudden or unexplained weight gain... but, I have an extremely tough time not gaining weight! I've been overweight since I was 10 or something... when I was 17 I lost weight for the first time ever... about 13 kg and got down to a normal size... but then I gained it all again... this year I've then lost about 8-9 kg... but my wieght keeps going a bit up and down... I just got down to 60 kg... but then I have had extreme binge eatings issues this past week and been quite depressive... and... not done any sports... and then of course I gain weight again... it's just so difficult losing weight and to keep it a place where you feel good about it... because of the uncontrollable binge eating and never feeling full... but always hungry.. or hunger for something anyway
I don't have any concentration.... can't pull myself to get anything done... or to get a job... I'm just treading water here... so the depression and anxiety fits in all too well too! Put in very low self-esteem... and it's all just... very frustrating! I never met new people, afraid of getting to close to people, afraid of new situations... and I feel so awful about myself than I don't allow myself love...
I'm difinitely a sugar addict... and I'm at the point where I know this all to well... have tried to quit eating a lot of sugar and fast carbs... and succeded.... but then keeps falling back, but because I have been away from it and have become aware of the problem... I now am very away of how awful I get it when I eat all that stuff... and yet, I can't stop :S
Oh and also... I've got small and tuberous breast
so that's definitely not helping either! I would really like to get something done about that, because that even more than all the rest keeps me from allowing myself love and boys... but... I can't stand the thought of having somebody cut in me, having something fake inside of me... or even the thought of having the conversation with somebody about getting something done... :S
oh, that was a long post! Sorry... I didn't mean to bother you all with my story here and I'm not sure what my point in writing it is ... but, well, I guess I just needed to get it all out! Write it out "loud"... because when it's first out in the open, I can't keep dening it...
Thanks for reading (hehe if you made it this far)
New member and my story :) 
