Hi everyone. Newbie here. I was diagnosed with pcos in November of 08. I got pregnant in July without even trying. I never really had normal periods but I was always on bcp so I never really paid any attention at all. Ironically, I got pregnant the ONE DAY in July that we had sex. We actually were going through a dry spell. I guess the odds of that happening having pcos were like winning the lottery. I was actually on the fence about kids until this happened and then a light went off in head and my heart and I was overjoyed at the prospect of hearing the pitter patter of little feet in the house. Unfortunately, I had a missed miscarriage at 8 weeks. The baby's heart started to beat, but never really picked up and eventually it just stopped. The develepment stopped at 6 weeks. I was and still am devastated. I opted for a d n c because I just felt wrong about it being in there and not being alive. I didn't know how long it would take my body to naturally let the baby go. In November I changed drs and he diagnosed me with pcos and gave me provera. I am still taking it and it does give me a withdrawal bleed, but that isn't really a period, right? I feel like I am chasing my own tail. I have an appt with an RE in may, so in the meantime, I am just trying to take care of myself and lose some weight. I am about 35 pounds overweight. When I did get pregnant I had just lost 20 pounds so I definitely believe there is a correlation between the weight and conception.
Anyway, I think i am going a little crazy. The provera always gives me very predictable periods. This month it wasn't right, it was only maybe 2-3 days and it was just a little spotting here and there. I thoughtI had really bad pms, you know, the sore boobs, backache, moodiness, which i usually don't get with the provera. Now it's been two weeks and my boobs are still horribly sore. They get worse by the day and wake me up at night. All of my first pregnancy symptoms are back, and just as bad as before, but you guessed it, all the test are BFNs! I don't get it. Part of me just knows that i am, but everything is telling me no. What do i do? Do I ask the dr for a blood test or an u/s? I have heard of hysterical pregnancy before, but I really hope that isn't what is going on. The funny part is, I just decided that I would give all this a break for a few months and just get healthy, and now this! What do I make of it? I am so sorry this is so long but I don't know who to talk to. I think my friends and sisters think I might be losing it and I don't want to tell them about this.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Newbie here, I think I might be a little cuckoo! 
im sure someone will be able to help
