I found this site a couple of months ago and have gained a lot of knowledge and inspiration from reading the different posts. I have isolated myself regarding my PCOS. I’m a very shy and private person. I don’t talk about it with anyone, none of my friends know, my husband knows (he’s the only one that gets details) my mom and sister know I have PCOS. Because I don’t talk about it I feel very alone, I keep so much to myself . I’ve been married for almost 10 years. I’m always being asked “When are you going to have kids?” I have spent so many years telling people “I’m just not ready to have kids, it’s a big responsibility” that I started to believe it myself. I told people this excuse because I didn’t want to say, “We're not trying but we’re not preventing either”, then I would have had to deal with the questions. I felt/feel like such a failure because I watch what seems to be everyone around me getting pregnant and I never do, it makes me feel like less than a woman (excess facial hair doesn’t help either, thank goodness for laser hair removal!). I knew something was wrong with me, doctors would mention PCOS but I wasn’t “officially” diagnosed until 2008. When I think back It seems like my PCOS came out of “hiding” after I had a miscarriage at 9 weeks, a long time ago (my husband and I were very young, I was 16). Before the miscarriage my periods were normal and I was thin. After the miscarriage I had a pain on the lower right side at times (a nurse said it as a cyst and it would go away), my periods became very irregular and far apart and I started to gain weight. My cravings for carbs were out of control and I’m not sure if I was eating for comfort because of the miscarriage.
My husband has really been wanting children and I kept putting it off with excuse after excuse; I need to lose weight, I want to go back to school, It’s a big responsibility, and I’m sure I had more. In my heart I have always wanted children but I had put such a wall up to protect myself from let down. Seeing all of those BIG FAT NEGATIVES crushed me. I finally made the decision a few months ago to stand up, knock that wall down and face PCOS head on! My husband and I really want to have a child. We have huge hearts and plenty of space in our life and our home. My previous doctor was a condescending jerk, he made me feel like a failure. It’s like he couldn’t get past my weight “you really need to loose some weight”, well duh if it was that easy I would have done it a long time ago. It’s so hard to loose weight. I found a new doctor who looked past my extra 30 pounds and treated me with respect and compassion. My doctor prescribed medication to start my period and prescribed Clomid (50mg, CD 5-9). I’m so excited! I’m also trying very hard to eat “mini” healthy meals through out the day, I’ve lost 5 pounds in the past few weeks. I hope someday I can write about my BFP and success story. I’m going to try and stay positive and remember that I have so much in life to be happy about and I’m very blessed.
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Me (28) - DH (30)
Married for 9 Years
*Officially* Diagnosed with PCOS in 2008
Not IR
Vitamin D
B Vitamins
Prenatal
Clomid 50mg (5-9)
BBT Charting (1st cycle charting)
Round #1 - Started Clomid on 5/15/09 (CD 5); O'd on CD 17...YAY!
Welcome to Sc Im sorry for all the struggles you have encountered in the past. Good for you in taking control and Im glad you found a doctor that prescribed you meds to help you!! If you have any questions feel free to ask Congrats on your weight loss, this is a problem i struggle with
Rachel
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Dx: Jan. 2009
Meds: Taken off Met!!Doc. wants to see my levels off to make sure I even need it(WooHOO).Put on Spironolactone.Taken off NuvaRing until ready to TTC.
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Other Dx: Hashimoto's Disease and possible IBS/IC/ENDO.
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glad you have a good dr now, and congrats on the weight loss. there is a link to the newbie roadmap in my siggie for you
Congrats on your weight loss, this is a problem i struggle with 
