jenniek41908

I've always found guidance and inspiration in reading what everyone else is going through so I figured it's time to post! It definately makes me feel like I am not alone in my struggles. So thank you in advance to everyone for sharing!
My DH and I have been TTC since 7/2008. I was diagnosed with PCOS at the time we started TTC. I was insulin resistant, high testosterone, no ovulation and high cholesterol. Depsite the fact that I was devistated by my infertility, it was nice to finally understand why I gained 45 pounds. I was always thin and athletic all my life and was depressed how I was gaining weight despite my good diet. So on the positive side atleast I knew I wasn't crazy after all these years of blood work!!!

My GYN put me on 1000MG of metformin. Which after three months brought my insulin and testosterone back in to normal ranges. But My cycles became more irregular ranging 25 to 52 days. Which has made it even harder to ovulation test....

I did my first round of Clomid the first week of February which was unsuccessful. No "O". My dr just did blood work to double check my progesterone and testosterone.. still waiting for those results. The DR insists we do three cycles (the last a double dose of clomid if it comes to that) before he sends me to the RE. I'm just having a really hard time emotionally, always getting a BFN every month. So I am impatient to get to the RE. I almost feel like he is wasting my time on the clomid. I'm trying to stay positive... but these days I am feeling like a failure to my DH. He's been supportive and I'm truely grateful, I just want to be able to give him the baby he wants so badly too....

On a positive note...today I got my period... this time it was only 33 days!! LOL. So I can start the clomid on thursday... wish me luck on round two...

Honestly I've been having such an extra had time with my IF. Since my and DH have been TCC, three of my co-workers (which i am really close to) and my sister have gotten pregnant. My co-workers had thier babies and my sister is due April 11th. I can't help but almost be jelous. Although I don't envy my sisters situation... (the dad is a dead beat and decided he "can't be a dad" so he's not in the picture). It has been sooo hard to be supportive for her like she needs, with out loosing my mind. We are really close so I am her birthing coach, the godmother.. you name it. As much as I want to be there for her and my soon to be beautiful niece everyones pregnancies makes it almost unbearable. After my last clomid cycle was a failure I took the afternoon for a "mental breakdown" and cried to my DH. I have been trying to be strong for both of us but I find it harder each month to handle the disappointment...
I am sure so many other women are going through the same thing... any advice on how to cope??? or how to stay positive? I am truely excited to be an aunt... but I'm sure you all understand...

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Eva37

welcome to sc . congrats on getting your period there is a link to the newbie roadmap in my siggie for you
eva

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PCOS, LOCAH, Endo, Lichen Planus, IBS, HS,alopecia - raised bp/ cholesteral. Wheat and dairy intollerance Meds: Spiro, Bendrofluazide, Amlodopine, Simvastatin, Met, Prednisolone, Colefac, multi vits,

Me - 42, hubby 37 son 12. Married 15 years

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