Dear Cysters:
It seems that at night, I fall into a deep depression. No matter how well I take the day, at night I feel hopeless. I cry uncontrollably, to the point I feel like I am going to throw up.
I have tried medications, but this seems to be more of a hormonal pattern. I just feel terrible.
I am afraid my boyfriend will begin to hate me. I feel terribly alone. I am in New York for Law School, and I hate being here away from everyone I love.
I lay in bed, tears streaming down my face, chest heaving from such emotional pain. I can't catch my breath, because the crying is so uncontrollable. I feel like dying, although I know I would never do it.
I don't get this way when I am with my family, visiting. It's just when I am back here in New York.
I guess I just wanted to know if anyone else ever feels more depressed at night. I feel freakish. I feel ashamed. And...in the morning I feel more tired than ever.
__________________ DX: May 2000
RX: SSRI 40 MG (which I never remember to take)
Graduate Law School: 5/2003
Wedding date: 8/23/03 (YEAH!)
I turned 25, and unfortunately lost my health insurance....and well, the school's doctor refuses to treat me for PCOS. I have to wait until I graduate and get a real job before I can seek medical care again.
But, I am trying to incorporate some alternative remedies
Congratulations on your wedding!
__________________ DX: May 2000
RX: SSRI 40 MG (which I never remember to take)
Graduate Law School: 5/2003
Wedding date: 8/23/03 (YEAH!)
I just wanted to say that I hope things get better for you soon... I know how you feel though,,, most of the time , my depression does hit me more at nite time as well... and I know it would be worse if I was away from my family and friends....I wish you the best.............
TERRA
__________________ me 30 hubby 34
PCOS, IR
Metformin 2000mg
Cheer up, things will get better soon. At least thats what i always tell myself. so think about happy thougts.. nothing sad or depressing and if you ever need to talk im here for you. just like we all are.
Yup, night time is definitely the worse for me most of the time. That and weekends. I think, because I don't stay as busy and can dwell on things more. And, being homesick would definitely make it worse. Jen may very well be right, too. You may be having anxiety attacks. They're the worse. I just think about trivial things and blow them way out of proportion and guess what? It doesn't do any good at all. Hang in there and congrats on your wedding. Maybe you can use messenger and "talk" with your friends and family in the evening. Hugs, Lendi
__________________ It's ok to cry if you're sad. Tears are God's little safety valve.
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Sorry you're going through the stress of depression. Hope you're feeling better soon- you've got a lot to look forward to!
*Aimee*
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Nighttime Depression 
