I've spent the past four years being angry about my PCOS. Would I be able to conceive when the time was right, would my baby be OK. Then the most unbearbale thing happened this week. My best friend went in to the hospital for a routine check up at 36 weeks and the doctor couldn't find the baby's heart beat. She had to deliver a beautiful little baby girl knowing she would never take a breath of air.
My friend was healthy as a horse for most of her pregnancy and started to have some minor problems at the end. She had a gut feeling that something was wrong, but her doctor didn't listen. There is nothing worse than holding your own dead child. So I am happy that my pregnancy will be considered high risk and that I will be closely monitored and that I've learned through PCOS to trust my body and fire doctors if something doesn't seem right. This is 2008. No mother should have to hold her dead baby in her arms.
Oh my goodness I am so very sorry. That is one of the worst things I could ever think of to happen. I work in the maternity ward and it's heartbreaking to watch the parents. I cry with them.
I can't even imagine what she's going through. I think that is the deepest, worst fear I had when I was pregnant-- that something would go wrong right at the end of the pregnancy, after I had gotten to trust that it was real, felt the baby grow and move...
My heart is breaking for your friend. I will keep her and her family in my thoughts and prayers.
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4 angel babies - 3 m/c's, 1 vanishing twin
My mother had a still born in 1983. She named her, a little girl called ann, and my sister's middle name is Ann in honor of her. And we have a little rocking horse ornament that we put on the Christmas tree with her name on it and her DOB. But thats about it when it comes to what I know about it. I think it changed her forever. She cant talk about it. One day I'll have the strength to ask her what happened. She also had multiple miscarriages. So even before I was dx I just felt like I was going to have some difficulty having kids.
But i really do relate when your thankful. I wouldn't get special attention or been closely monitored if I didn't have PCOS and I'm thankful for that.
I'm really sorry for your friends loss
Madeleine
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Cheech..... Just wanted to express my sorrows for you and your friend. I could not even being to imagine the feeling she is going through, the best thing to do is listen and love her. If she doesn't want to talk let her grieve in her own way, as we all do...
I also wanted to express that I am preparing to TTC#1 and That is a huge fear for myself.... I don't want to focus on the fear, but I know it will be there at all times....
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2-10-09, Our Angel baby has gone to heaven. 8.5 weeks. (No heartbeat) To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 0 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
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Thank you all again. Her funeral is at 1 pm today. I don't know how my friend is going to make it through. If you would be so kind, please say a prayer for Penelope and her mommy around 1 pm today. A lullaby, or reading a children's book would also send some healing thoughts her way.
No longer angry about PCOS 
I am so very sorry. That is one of the worst things I could ever think of to happen. I work in the maternity ward and it's heartbreaking to watch the parents. I cry with them.
