Wasn't going to post, b/c I hate asking for help. It feels like I didn't take my Lexapro today. I have not one ounce of strength left to carry on today. I was having a deep talk w/my mom and my brother just walks right up and totally interrupts us, and says, "sorry mom need to show you something", he has no respect for anyone and he is very selfish-but no usepointing out his faults. So I went in, I was crying anyway, went and cried some more, my brother says, as I got up to walk in the house, "You don't have to leave" w/a stern look on his face. I am so sick of allowing my brother to treat me like a doormat. I am trying very hard to be grateful and see the positive, but if you were here you wouldn't be able to handle it either much longer. It is literally killing me, at least my therapist says that and I agree 100%. I just felt like saying to my brother, "Oh thanks BOSS, you're the one who is a felon, who should be treating us a bit more kind lad", but of course I go and pouted in my room. The tears needed to come out and that's ok. There is No way out of this situation, I have so many people rooting for me, praise God. There is no way out right now, and my strength is decreasing. Still taking the Lexapro, Xanax, Seroquel, and one Vicodin when the pain gets bad w/the cramps, back, and stomach. I have little energy left to go see an endo, and tell someone, I don't feel right, not going to my obgyn appt tomorrow for fear I'll crap all over his table, my surgical area is still very raw even after two months. it's like the doc gives me an antidepressant, but I'm still feeling sick and having the same symtoms. Hope I'm making sense, needed to post. I am open to anything else anyone has to say--BUT I know it's ultimately up to me to change me. Ijust have NO strength left. Gotta go tears again. Y'all have helped me out so much w/your individual experiences and suggestions and for that I am very grateful, and I do heed them, guess I need to learn that things just aren't going to be perfect or even good all the time.
I hope tomorrow is a better day. I really am slipping.
I am so sorry that you are having such a bad time, I do wish there were some magic pills, words, or something to fix your problems; however, it seems you are very intelligent, getting the help you need, so all I can say is to trust your instincts, keep the lines of communication open with your docs, and hey, prayer and/or meditation certainly helps sometimes...Good luck to you..
Yeah I think it's time to go to the doctor! I really do! Do it for yourself.
I really think a GOOD therapist would really help you as you are dealing with so many things at once!
(((((hugs)))))
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You are in my thoughts and prayers and I pray to the Goddess (or God if you like), that she will lift you up and help you trust your instincts and know that going to the doctor is right. I do hope that you can go to see a therapist an awesome one that is helpful and supportive.
I do hope and prayer that tomorrow will be better for you!
Thanks ladies, its been up and down, just trying to forget myself and my stuff, and just deal with it, that's all we can all do. In pain from PT tonight but that is no big deal!! Still trying to quit the cigs, walked again today, all is and will be ok.
Thanks for being here
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