Not Fitting In

Suval · 10-04-2005, 09:34 AM

To my own surprise, I've actually come to accept my depression as part of who I am. In my depression, a not-so-major thing can occur and it can seem like the end of the world. I know everyone has been through that at times... PCOS or not.

I've been desiring support in my depression very much. I guess I have the hope that if I had support when my next 'crisis' occured, that maybe I wouldn't have a med increase. The thing is, I don't feel like I would fit in with other support groups.

I've looked at what other people have been saying on this site and it seems like PCOS depression is almost distinctive. The icing on the cake for me is that I work as a community worker with people who have mental health problems. They don't know my little secret though (heh heh). It's an interesting field to be in because, as I've said, other people's depressions don't quite sound like mine.

I guess I could throw out a question just out of pure interest:
do you feel your depression is hormonal, genetic, or caused by your environment (the way people have been treating you)?

I used to think I knew but lately I've been changing my mind like I've been changing my underwear

TickledPink · 10-04-2005, 01:16 PM

I think my depression is caused by all 3!

Pcos because it's hormonal, family cause my mom is depressed and because I don't like the city I live in.

I don't feel people treat me differently, the people who know try to help me the best they know how.

but I have been batteling depression for aprox 13 years now, and depending on how my life is going it can be good, or bad.

(((((hugs)))))

TickledPink · 10-04-2005, 01:17 PM

I am in canada also! I live in yellowknife northwest territories! The place is nice, but so far away from my family.

oaktreegirl · 10-05-2005, 02:44 AM

I think it's a combination. It's hard to say. I think everybody's case is completely unique. I find connections in my moods to the weather, to events in my life, and to random hormones. Journalling helps a lot.
Recently I've become more aware of my moods. Yesterday I was feeling horrible. No reason in particular, just a general feeling of unhappinesss. I was perfectly fine, even cheery the day before. It helped that I could look at what I was feeling and label it as "depression" and know that it would pass. Today I'm better. Yesterday I hardly saw the sun at all, and I'm starting to realise that Seasonal Affected Disorder (is that the proper term?) affects me a LOT more strongly than I had realised before. It helps a lot to be able to analyse it, even though analysing will not cure it.

Suval · 10-05-2005, 09:36 AM

My doctor suggested the possibility of me having SAD as well.

The only reason I am unsure is because I DO go through depressions the rest of the year. It's just WORSE in the winter.

donna1976 · 10-07-2005, 01:40 PM

I was having a really bad day yesterday. Its been along time since I was depressed enough to cry. Or let myself cry. I was so upset because of my facial hair becaue no matter what i do it wont go away for good. I sometimes wonder what is actually causing my depression weather as you said its the pcos, enviroment or whatever. I think in my case its all 3. I know that when i was on metformin i felt tremendously better. and while i was pregnant i felt better than i had in along time. But ever since my daughter was born (shes 15 months now) i have been on an emotional rollercoaster. I blame her dad because he wasnt around very much while i was pregnant ( he is an over the road truck driver) And he isnt around very much now even though he got a local job and he is home long enough to sleep and go back to work. I know now im rambeling off subject.

donna1976 · 10-07-2005, 01:44 PM

I sent you a gift. I am here if you want to talk.