Soooo... *embarrased* I know this is silly and childish, but I'm really freaking out here. I'm thinking of cancelling the whole thing....
I have my first gyn. apt on monday. I'm not looking forward to it. The bloodtests said I had PCO or PCOS, so they make me come back for the vaginal ultrasound. I never went to any kind of "intimate examination" before. Can someone please tell me something about it?
1. The hair. The excess hair. I wonder if I shall shave it of to not make the dr look at me like a freak(I do feel like one), or leave it on so the dr can see how bad it is and give me something for it. They can give you meds for it, right?
2. Nudity in general. I have body issues. Ever since... always! And... in a bright room, with someone peeking into your legs? It gives me nightmares!
3. I have serious issues about sex. So I've never actually had sex, and therefore I'm afraid this will hurt. I really don't like pain....
4. My uni suddenly gave us one bonus lecture, going through exam problems, that i really, really want to attend, and it's just when my dr. apt is! I can't be both places at the same time
Sorry for sounding so silly about this, but this problem is very real to me, and I could use some calming down. Thank you.
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my nurse said they didn't do the internal ultrasound on virgins...check this! but the thing is really small...doesn't hurt...only hurts al ittle bit when they lush against the walls...but it's completley bearable...and blood tests r much worse lol!
and i bet your ovaries don't hide like mine did! i have sex issues...and body issues.. im 17 and weigh 259 pounds...and my first boyfriend tried to rape me...and i was nervous..but they were really kind..put extra gel onto the scanning unit and everything was fine!
*hugs* look up my thread in here 'argh...scared' and you'll see...you will be fine! and i got home and i still can't fit a tampon in myself....but she got the scanning unit in and it didnt hurt!
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Okay, the exam is not that bad. I've had about forty million of them. They use a probe that looks like a dildo. It's pretty skinny, though, so it's not painful. Sometimes there is a little pressure from them searching.
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1. The hair. The excess hair. I wonder if I shall shave it of to not make the dr look at me like a freak(I do feel like one), or leave it on so the dr can see how bad it is and give me something for it. They can give you meds for it, right?
If you feel more comfortable removing the hair that is fine. It is important that you let your Dr. know about the hair b/c they can treat you for it. Just explain that you have to remove it. It is okay not to remove it, too. Your Dr. is not going to find it freakish in any way.
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2. Nudity in general. I have body issues. Ever since... always! And... in a bright room, with someone peeking into your legs? It gives me nightmares!
This will not be as intrusive as you are afraid of. Granted, he will be looking between your legs, but your body will be covered with a sheet. You will not be totally exposed. Every time I have ever had an u/s they have dimmed the lights so they can see the monitor better.
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3. I have serious issues about sex. So I've never actually had sex, and therefore I'm afraid this will hurt. I really don't like pain....
I'm sure your doctor will be very gentle. The procedure has never been painful to me in anyway. Perhaps a little uncomfortable when they kind of push a little to get a good view of something. You need not worry.
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4. My uni suddenly gave us one bonus lecture, going through exam problems, that i really, really want to attend, and it's just when my dr. apt is! I can't be both places at the same time
Don't use this as an excuse not to go. If you feel you should attend then you need to reschedule the Dr. appointment for the earliest date available. You need to be proactive about your health care and that means facing your fear and gettig this done. You should not cancel.
i'll go thru my scan today...so you have a better idea. i walked in and the radiographer asked my address and date of birth.
then she laid sheet on the ocuch and asked me to pull my trousers to my hips and raise my top slightly then lie back on the couch. then she tucked a sheet into my trousers so no gel would go on them...squeezed a little gel (cold) onto my abdomen then lowered the lights. it's like a massage almost on your belly with the scanner...quite relaxing...and she showed me the screen and showed me where my different body parts were.
then she helped me rub the gel off with the sheet she had tucked into my jeans. i went and emptied my bladder...and at the same time changed into a gown...i didn't even bother doing it up...figured i'd be out of it before long! i came back in and another nurse came in and locked the door to make sure noone walked in. then she helped me lay on the end of the couch and they put a pillow for my head and my legs on a footstool. she told me to take some deep breaths pushed the tip inside me then dimmed the lights again...and it's so different to anything i have ever felt...not 'good', but not 'bad'...just wierd! i almost giggled!
if my ovary had decided to show up for the appointment then it wouldn't have hurt...i gave her permission to push harder to try to find it...but as i say..getting a blood test done is more painful than anything that they do at a scan. and i'm a little sore afterwards...but it's not really anything..just a little tender when crossing my legs and sitting down suddenly...but that's practically gone now.
if it hurts too much...tell them and they'll stop. i promise...you are in control at all times...if you're uncomforatble with anything then tell them...it' their job to make you comfortable.
*hugs*....you'll be fine...the probe is really skinny...and if you're worried about the length remember that the radiographer holds most of it to control it...ask them to show you how much will be inside you. i was out in under 10 mins....and i had difficulties (such as certain left ovary deciding to hide away...she didn't like the look of the radiographer!!) any unpleasantness such as selfconsciousness...remember 10 mins...i CAN adn WILL deal with it for 10 minsand you'll sail through it! sorry for the long post...if you put up with my typos this long...ur gonna be absolutley fine! hehe!
mand x
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I too was a virgin when I started my journey with PCOS. I initially went in when I hadn't had a period in over six months, and was having all sorts of problems... well it turns out my doc happened to be a GYN as well and she told me that from the sounds of things I had PCOS. I had all the symptoms and the looks of it. So right then and there she tells me I'm about to get my first ever pap smear. I was 20 years old. And for whatever reason I dont think she quite believed me when I told her I was a virgin. None the less, she was really nice and told me exactly what she would be doing, and why, and how. She got a nurse to come help me get ready, asked for the smallest opening thingy they had and even warmed it up with water for me. That part hurt, and I cramped really bad afterwards. I still remember "oh, I guess you really are a virgin".
Anyways she also decided I needed a transvaginal ultrasound done. She told me exactly what the ultrasound techs would do. She told me that she doesn't normally have them done on virgins but that the images ect, and the "proof" of PCOS were more important than the consequences (IE losing my virginity to a tool). I was given the option to back out of it, but she did say she felt it was very important.
I was very embarassed about the whole idea of it all. What if it was a guy? What about how hairy I am? My weight? Will it hurt? All sorts of stuff... so heres my experience.
Yup, you guessed it, the ultrasound tech was a guy. He walked me back, and told me that when we were ready to begin he'd have a female nurse back there with him. He asked me to strip below the waist, and gave me a blue towel thing to place over my waist. So I did, he comes back in with the nurse, and pulls out this huge looked (at the time) 3 feet long thing to stick in me and I'm thinking no freaking way. Well it's only about a foot long I would say with a little tulip shaped head. He put some type of cover on it and put alot of lube on it. I told him I was a virgin and that my doc said it was very important to tell him that. He told me he would be very gentle and that if at any point it got to be more than I could take to let him know, or if I needed a break.
He hands me the thingy and tells me that I get to insert it in. So I do. I hand it back to him and he tells me he's going to start moving it around and he does. Well, at first it was no big deal, other than how embarassed I was. Then he warned me it was liable to start hurting. Well, he was pushing up against the lining or something with it, and it did start to get uncomfortable. Then it started to really hurt, turns out he was pushing against my hymen (I think) because the longer he pushed where he was the worse it hurt, then a really sharp pain and it was all over. Then, just pain when he pushed against the outside. It lasted about 20 minutes for me.
My personal pain was afterwards. I started cramping really bad, and my mom had to come pick me up and take me home and I spent 2 days in hot water or with a heating pad on my tummy. So you may want to have someone there with you. Also, it's quite messy to get all that ky jelly off you.. and gross.
It's worth getting the info you need I swear!
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Is there someone you trust that can attend with you? Doctors are very gracious about having a "buddy" in the room.
When I had to get a vaginal u/s done to confirm the PCOS dx, I did not have to get undressed. I laid down on the table, pulled my pants down past my belly button and lifted my shirt to underneath my bra. The lights were greatly dimmed, if not completely turned off, just can't quite remember... and the technician was very kind. I found that asking a lot of questions not only took my mind of what was happening, but helped me tremendously research-wise.
I understand your fears, but honestly GYN's, like most doctors, have really seen it all.
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i had a lot more pain than i expected....the technician thinks i may have vaginismus and has put that on my sheet for my gyn to check out. but think to yourself...what the worst it's gonna be like period pain? and tihnk that when u get diagnosed and put on the right meds the cycles you'll go through without the cramps....it's worth it..really it is.
now the probe that TDoern mentioned...that's the old style. the one i had is really tiny...doesnt have a cover and is no thicker than a tampon in any place...hopefully when you go for your u/s they will have the new type. *hugs* tell yourself you got to do it..for your helath's sake...it's what got me through.
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I went to the doctor, and I said honestly that I was nervous as sh*t about it. The doctor was very understanding and just talked for a while, asking me loads of questions about periods and such. Then, when I thought there was no way of delaying it anymore, my doc said that the bloodtests wasn't that crazy, so the need for an ultrasound wasn't very urgent. She sent me off for new bloodtests and said i would have to get back in and do the ultrasound within six months.
I know I'm just deøaying the problem, but i was so happy about not having to do it I just grinned like an idot at the doctor and said bye bye and left.
So... I'll probably come back and need you to calm me down in a couple of months ;(
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~HIM~
English is NOT my first language. Please bear with me.
It is so worth just getting it over with. I was 20 when I went in. I was going in for a pap and to talk to my doctor about the possibility of having pcos. After just a few questions he was able to determine that I most likely did have it and that he would do an ultrasound just to see. We got the pap over with and after that the ultrasound wasn't all that bad. It was actually kinda cool to see it all and to have an image of what it was. Can't say I want to do it again...but...its worth the peace of mind. Good luck!
Okay, silly question... 
