V. long - I'm sorry......
Hi Tera,
please don't think you're alone in this! I'm like the antichrist at the moment, my hormones are so crazy! I've realised that I take a lot of my upset out on my boyfriend - his patience is amazing.
I literally went from fantastic humour to hysteria in about two minutes the other day. We'd had a lovely Sunday - late stay in bed, fab breakfast, down to the beach for fresh air (and a 5km walk - how pleased am I?), went to see The Incredibles at the cinema (not just for kids by the way). Marvellous.
Then when we left the cinema, I drove because DB received a phonecall. I don't normally drive because I only recently passed my test. Not a big fan of driving just yet, especially in the dark and when I'm not really sure of the roads and all. (I've only lived here for two years, but I still haven't a clue of the environs outside of walking distance of my flat!) But anyway!!! Getting to the point eventually...
We came to a roundabout and I had no idea which road out of five I was aiming for. The ensuing raving on my part made DB hang up on his phonecall and pander to me (in a frightened way, not a nice way) for several hours afterwards.
I'm so unhappy about it that I'm determined to go on the meds.
I've been adamant for about four years now that I would not tamper with myself with drugs unnecessarily any more - but sometimes you just have to admit defeat I think! Anything I can do to improve my hormones, and thereby my mental health; is a good thing. I'm certain that it's damaging my relationships (family and boyfriend, and has been for some time) due to my reluctance to submit to Tx.
I'm so sorry about this huge post - it's kind of gone off the point, as you can tell, but I just wanted you to know that we've all taken it out on DH/DB/DF on more than one occasion. And generally, because they're great; they've ignored it.
But we shouldn't take them for granted either.
Feel free to PM me if you want to chat. Don't let yourself feel guilty about it either (that may sound a bit selfish, but that's another new resolution of mine - be nice to yourself too...)
Yours in hormonal frenzy also,
K. |