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Those who aren't Pagan might think this weird....


I think I am hexed or cursed. As most of you know, my mother passed away, however she doesn't have anything to do with this. It seems if negative energy is around me I react. My skin breaks out in sores and the like. I think I just broke my finger and I can't find a center or I can't seem to connect with things around me. If you all can, pray for me or send some white light my way to give me a spiritual booster shot so to say. TIA, Brightest Blessings..

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silverhawk

sending positive energy!

I'm sorry about your mom.... all I can suggest would be to find an amethyst to make into a neutralizing pendant. that way it takes the negative energy instead of you.

also if you're not diabetic try fasting and meditating to try and find your center again.

bb

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CelticSpirit

Hey sweetie,

I know that I'm not a Pagan, but can I pray for you? I would love to offer any prayers that might help you.

Big hugs to you...

PS Thanks for sharing the meanings of the ribbons...God bless your dad for donating your mom's tissue. I know that isn't an easy decision to make but he did a great thing!

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LaurAnnHere

Ditto. We are all searching for lifes answers. I'm not pagan and I don't think what you're asking is weird. Sometimes it seems that life deals you a bad lot. There is a point in most people's lives when they feel cursed. When I kept losing babies I wondered if God was punishing me for my sins or something. If nothing else my thoughts are with you and I truely hope brighter days for you soon. Again, I am very sorry to hear of your mothers passing.

Loreo123

I thnk alot of the negativity you are feeling right now has alot to do with the fact that you have just been through one of the most horrible experiences of your life. Losing someone so close can put your whole mind, body, and spirit into a tailspin. what you are feeling is normal. Some things that you can do to help, try to find time to be alone and connect with your feelings. Try to imagine yourself covered with positive energy and when your realy feeling down, talk to your mom. She can hear you. You may not be able to hear her but trust me, sooner or later you will feel her and know that she is with you. I know the pain is horrible and it's hard to see past it right now. I can tell you that the pain will get better with time. I will send my positive thoughts and prayers your way.
Lori

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AlyBlu

Tara - Bright blessings to you.

Have you taken some quite time since your Mom's passing to connect with her energy in the Summer Land? A few moments reveling in her new freedom with her may help to move some of the stagnation. If you do any candle work, a small black votive and a large white taper may help to move some of the heaviness around you, also some salt on the doorway and window seals can draw the stagnation away also. I am here for you, in thought and prayer - if I can do anything please do not hesitate to ask.

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PollySis

You must be in such pain right now, emotionally, and the feeling of negativity you're describing is perfectly normal. One way to to think of it is to feel that your mum is protecting you now, and no harm can come to you, in fact - as time goes on, she will always be with you and can make you stronger.

Try lighting a white candle. My mother died very many years ago, when I was a child, so I know where you are at, right now. All these years on, she still comes to me in dreams sometimes, and I miss her with every passing day - it doesn't go away, that feeling, but it mellows and changes with time. But I always think with a mother on the other side, there's a certain level of protection we can access that others can't - if that makes sense?

The way you feel now is a natural result of the awful tragedy that's only just happened. No-one and nothing can hurt you psychically, now.

I don't know what path you're on, whether you cast a circle or not, but you can always cast your usual circle, and meditate and work within that (maybe wait til a waxing moon when things generally feel more positive?) From within your circle - or even without one, you can visualise a globe of pure, blue light protecting you, like a bubble, at all times. If you can visualise either a pentqcle or some other symbol of protection on the ground beneath your circle, or maybe like a shield, in front of it - that can help you. Also, I don't know what you think of spirit guides but if you haven't already, it may be worth finding out more online or via books to find how to contact your's. They will come forward, if asked, and they can protect you, too.

Hexes/curses/negativity can only really work on non pagans, I always think as we have the means of protecting ourselves, psychically. Another one someone (a hereditary witch here in the UK) taught me was to imagine yourself surrounded by mirrors, the reflective sides facing outwards, reflecting away anything negative or bad. I tried it when I was losing blood daily, for months, during a pregnancy. (I'd not long before had a miscarriage). Within minutes, the bleeding that had gone on for months stopped. Never to return. You can also reflect it back out at whoever's sending it your way. But as I say, I think the others here are right - that it's more a part of your bereavement, a natural process you can work through.

PM me if you ever need to, I'll always be here for you, or anyone.

Polly (Druid Ovate)

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