Paranoia? Or right to be terrified? (TMI)

eww · 10-16-2007, 02:51 PM

Hey all. I'm having a bit of a freak out and thought, hey, why not post it?!

SO here it is. Periods came back almost a year ago. They've been strange, but consistent in their strangeness. And now.... noooooo. My last period was two days of brownishness. And light light brownishness. Not even enough to spill onto a pad. And it broke the 21-32-43 day cycle thing, clocking in a 30 days when it was supposed to be a 21. And I'm now zitty. And downright terrified that my weight is going to shoot up to 200 again for no goddamned reason! I had gotten down to 152. I'm now back at 158. And I had cramps all week during my non-existent period. I'm now trying desperately to watch what I eat, and include yogurt for the spots. Not to mention my stupid supplements. So I'm just feeling yucky. And I've even spotted more hair on the chinychinchin. Which dear god I WILL exterminate before anyone comes over... in like 1/2 hour.

I just feel so down about the whole thing. I'd been doing so well. This sort of happened when I first got diagnosed. My body went to hell. When I (finally) got to see a good doctor, he took one look at me and said "Stein-Leventhal". And I had gotten so that PCOS wouldn't have crossed their minds. I am happy and healthy and a SIZE EIGHT DAMNIT! I really don't want to go back to my 16's. In fact I don't own my 16s anymore. I tossed them.

I know there is no good time for a body to desert it's mind, but really now is sooo NOT the time. I'm going on holiday friday, starting a new job when I go back and have JUST started a new relationship. This is just... evil.

Rant over. I think. I reserve the right to come back and rant more at a later time if I so choose.

Future Doc Cyster · 10-16-2007, 03:32 PM

I'm really sorry for all that you are going through.

Unfortunately I don't have much advice except for get into your doctor as soon as possible. I understand what it's like to have your body go nuts, especially what it's like to be in a new relationship and deal with such chaos.

I met my boyfriend in June, and in July/August, I bled for 5 weeks. Not only that, but my skin started breaking out. Once that was under control, I discovered I had a big ole cyst on my right ovary. After 2 1/2 weeks of BCPs, I had horrible pelvic pain and started bleeding (while still taking BCPs!). Knock on wood, these bleeds seem to be under control (thanks Yaz!). Now if I could just get the hair to stop falling out of my head at such a rapid rate, I'd be ok!!! Lol.

I try to exercise away my stress when my body goes nuts. This has helped me to keep my weight in check. Also, I try to keep an eye on what I'm eating, especially carbs. At least diet and exercise are two things I can control. You're up six pounds from where you were, and if you try your best to control that right now, you won't go up more. I gained a total of 10 pounds throughout my craziness, and I'm finally back to where I was before it all began.

Don't give up. I know it's rough, but hang in there. It's ok to be upset, afraid, etc., but use that energy positively. Keep doing your part with diet and exercise, call your doctor, and start meds and/or supplements to get your body under control.

eww · 10-18-2007, 04:13 PM

Thanks for the support. Sometimes it's just nice to know that someone else has been through the same thing. And reinforcement that I'm not crazy is always good too.