A very strange thing happened to me two years ago, the summer before last summer. Is there such a thing as being partially posessed by a demon? I just woke up one morning, and this is how it started. The thought just came to me about how angels would look in the male human form, and I started feeling intense feelings of lust and desire. And when I messed around in town doing things with my Dad, I had the same feelings for any adult male I saw. And I mean ANY. That, by itself might have just had something to do with hormones, but there is more...
I am normally a very loving, nurturing and emotionally caring person, who loves sweet innocent things like fluffy kittens and flowers and dolls. And I love daytime and I am scared of the dark. But during that time, I was scared of the daylight and I looked forward to night time. And I could not feel love for anyone. Not my parents, or anyone, except God and the holy angels. I could not feel love for any human or animal. I only felt evil emotions, like overwhelming lust, anger, or anxiety. No good emotions. I tried to but I could not.
And it felt as if a demon might have speaking to me silently. I could not hear any words with my ears, but I could feel those deliciously lustful yet evil words with my heart. It felt good yet it was scary at the same time. I loved it yet I knew it was wrong and I wanted it to stop.
I told my parents about it but they did not believe me, probably because Satan did not want them to. But I prayed about it, and a few days later, a soothing comforting, holy feeling came over me and the posession was over.
Now what was that all about? That was strange. might it have been a partial posession?
I'm not sure what I believe as far as possessions. Your story was very strange, but I don't think its as uncommon as you might think. There are things in my past that I have done and thought that were out of character for me and even when I was doing them I knew they were wrong... It was just a matter of self-gratification I guess, but I knew in my heart that it wasn't right. Now I'm ashamed that I did those things and I choose to not do them anymore.
I do believe in Satan and in evil. I believe that people can be lead by Satan to do things that are not in character and are wrong and go against personal beliefs. Where you possessed? I dunno... But I'm glad to hear you went to God in prayer and He helped you to overcome.
God bless.
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I dont mean to belittle your experience. I for one do believe in demons. I dont think that demon possession is very common, but I suppose it could happen. I just wanted to say that if something like this happens again that maybe you should see a doctor... just to rule out that it might be medical. That's all.
Peace and Love,
Deni
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You might find it helpful to check out www.ghoststudy.com and ask your question on their message board. They have a lot of information on their site and they might be able to better help you. I hope you find the answers you need.
Take care,
Mel
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Deni, you might be right. It could have been a medical thing, some kind of powersurge of hormones or something. But I did feel an evil presence. You just never know about these kind of things anymore. Where one says "Could it have been?...nahhh!" "Or could it?"
Mel, thanks for giving me the name of that ghoststudy website. I will check it out.
Take care everyone,
Jen
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For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities,
against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual
hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. NKJV
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Well, like I said, I dont mean to belittle your experience. I just believe that evil can come in many forms. And a person in that position should cover all their bases. Either way it is always good to go to your faith in times of need.
Peace and Love,
Deni
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Deni, I know you didn't meant to belittle my experience. It might have either been medical or supernatural. It is always good to turn to faith in times of need.
That does sound strange, goldNhunnE.
But I'm glad you went to the Lord in prayer.
Here's how I see it: as believers it's impossible to be possesed by demons, but it very possible to be oppressed by them. In other words, they cannot indwell us, but Satan being the master psychologist he is, can definitely do things to make us uncomfortable. This is why walking in the Spirit, not the flesh is commanded.
Let's also keep in mind what Martin Luther said, "the devil is God's devil". Satan is beneath God; he's a created being. He is NOT equal to God.
I'm glad the Lord brought you through that - whatever it was.
May God's peace be upon you.
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I am a christian (baptist) and though many people want to believe the bible on some things and not others.. i absolutely believe in demons, and Satan. It says in the bible satan got followers--other angels from heaven ..and God threw them out of heaven and onto earth. They are in a losing battle but try to take as many of us down with them as they can. HOwever, as to whether you were possessed.. I really can't know.. but comparing it to the crazed violence of the people who were possessed Jesus healed, it doesn't sound like it. I am pretty sure that believers cannot be possessed..but they cause SPIRITUAL WARFARE. I just started the bible study called that based on teh book spiritual warfare... I can't wait to continue, this is just my first week though. You can also pick up the book at LIfeway..I recommend it... Anyway, but, sometimes, I feel like I'm being particularly hounded by a demon a few times.. like, when I watch a scarey movie (like on teh sci-fi channel) and they have to put in some spooky satanic chants or real sounded witch spells, they seem to get 'stuck in my head' and I cant get them out, or from a stephen king book once.... Ithink its best to stay away from things that can cause this. Thoughts can also do the same thing-- I've had some twisted sexual thoughts on occassion that came out of no where..that were hard to get rid of..sometimes they can be prompted by tv/movies..that maybe wasnt the best choice to watch..its hard to find anything good to watch without having stuff that can effect us in someway...it maybe that it was particularly evil feeling, thinking of angels in such a way-- and satan used it against you, and it kept playing in your mind. I doubt you were possessed.. I would personally be embarrassed to disguss it with my parents, but absolutely you did what you should have and prayed about it.. I think praying to God for help would get rid of any demonic influence anyway..also help you to not think of those thoughts again. I would try not to think about it, but not blame yourself, but pray about it. If you need to now, or anything similar happens again, I would make an appointment to talk to my pastor as in counselling...most any pastor would be happy to see you privately in their office about a question--and it would be in confidence...to help you more about this subject.
I am going to tell you about the experience that my friend had starting from age 13.
She would wake up in the middle of the night to a demon on top of her (this is how she described the being). She would be brought to a climax and then would feel guilty and ashamed. This happened countless times.
She is from a strict Christian household - it was not a good Christian household. It was mostly about rules and judgement rather than love and understanding. In some ways I think this made her vulnerable to things.
She confided this to me and so I researched it. I came up with similar accounts - this particular experience has been named Incubus Succubus.
Incidentally, I was reading an interview with a high profile actress and she relayed the exact same experience. I bet it happens to a lot of people but they never admit it because it sounds crazy!
I know that I have felt strange things happen to me (not sexual) in a sleep paralysis state where there was a presence that I definitely did not like and I felt like I had to fend it off. I realized that it only happens to me when I am lying on my back.
I don't know if this refers to your experience at all but I thought that I would share.
I wish you all the best and hope that you don't have to experience something so strange again.
partial posession by a demon 
