PCOS and TTC burnout

mom2kad · 02-23-2005, 03:49 PM

Is there anyone else here who can relate. I am tired of having to struggle with my weight loss every time I want to consider ttc'ing... I am tired of knowing that once I reach my weight loss goal, that I then have to face the Clomid coller coaster ride... I am tired of the whole taking my temp every morning, watching cm, wasting money on OPK's (which I will NEVER do again), dealing with that dreaded 2 week wait and that CD 24 progesterone blood test... just tired... Now I am faced with the added bonus of having an underactive thyroid - it is under control with medication... but should I get pregnant again... it "can" be an issue during pregnancy.

Some days I think that I should just count my one little blessing, my daughter and give up on ever having any more children... then the next day - I am upset for thinking that way, after seeing how well my daughter plays with other kids, how much she loves being around little babies, and hearing her ask me to get a baby in my tummy soon.

It's a constant tug-of-war... I never feel like I am winning... I just wish I could get pregnant, have another baby and have a hysterectomy so that I NEVER EVER have to deal with the whole TTC package ever again... Instead I can focus on my family, my health and enjoy life again... instead of always being faced with what I cant have - and the reasons why... ie: cant get pregnant, because of PCOS, weight issues, ect...

Needed a safe place to rant... Thanks

Chantal

Sonya_ · 02-23-2005, 04:05 PM

Chantal:

I can totally relate to you, every month I say I cant do this anymore, and again I do, Im so tired of seeing all these pregnant woman and all these new born babies, thats what I want.

The hardest part for me is that if i want a new pair of shoes, I could go buy them, if I wanted a new car I could go buy one, this is something that no matter how bad I want it, I have no control on if it will happen or not,

You are not alone. Good luck and hang in there.

Sonya

CathyWood · 02-23-2005, 05:08 PM

Been there...TTC is hard. What made me get up and do something about it was deciding how much time we wasted in 04 for various reasons. Went the doctor and checked out why nothing was happening.

So if you need a break..take one. Take you time. Contact me if you wish.

dor · 02-23-2005, 11:29 PM

hey Chantal,
I just got diagnosed, and I can't say that I've been in your position... so I feel limited in what I can say... but hang in there and good luck... I hope things work out for you

I saw on an earlier post that you mentioned a doctor who was really good at KGH (Kingston General Hosp). What type of doctor was he? (if I remember, it was a he?) I go to school in Kingston, and my doctor's in East Toronto right now (which isn't exactly home either), so it'd be amazing if I could find a doctor in one of the cities I usually stay in. I'd appreciate any information I could get on doctors in the Kingston region.

Thanks a lot!
And I really hope you're feeling better

claudia737 · 02-24-2005, 05:56 AM

i can totally relate. it can really be frustrating and emotionally draining.