Please help .. what is this ?

dna · 01-13-2006, 04:01 PM

I dont know what is going on with me and I dont know if it fits here but here goes...

I am starting again to have lots of anger fits and to be mad and yell at everyone around me...

I had this problem when I first came home after adopting my son, it got really bad and I had to call my husband home from work one day becuz I put my son in his room for his own well being (I would never actually hurt him) but I was head throbbing angry...

Now for the past few days, weeks I guess its been happening again. I am ANGRY like knock down, yell, outrage ! and I am yelling at my son and he doesnt like it and I dont like it..I am not a yeller ?!?!?

My cycles of course are off but I have had spotting here or there and I am sad oh oh so sad...we are waiting to adopt our 2nd and the process has been lengthened quite past what we thought originally...I am having a hard time sleeping, I am dreaming of a past love and our lost baby...I miss my Gram who passed away almost a year ago...like the list goes on and on..

Am I stressed ? Do I need a break ? Anyone experience this ?

I dont believe I will hurt my child ever, however right now he is in his room becuz I simply cannot handle the constant whining and I was going to snap...

Help ?

THanks,
Amy

kirvygerl · 01-13-2006, 08:56 PM

Hi,
First of all, big (((HUGS))) to you. I am sorry you are having such a difficult time right now. The symptoms you are describing do sound like depression. Are you open to seeing your doctor or a therapist to get a professional opinion/diagnosis? This very well could be situational, but if it's abnormal for you, then you should see someone. You're being a good mommy by putting your son in his room when you felt you were going to snap. Is there anyone who can give you a break? Can your DH give you some time for yourself today?

I went through a time myself where I was far angrier than what was normal for me. I had to get help when my DH told me that he couldn't stand all the anger anymore. I was diagnosed with depression (which I've struggled on and off with for most of my life). I didn't chose (for many reasons) to go on medication at that time, and dealt with it by going to weekly therapy and working with an RE to get my cycles going again (they had stopped for four months). That was a good combination for me, and helped me to get back to "normal." I still see my therapist about 1-2 times per month.

Thinking of you and hoping you feel better soon~

oaktreegirl · 01-14-2006, 01:25 AM

Amy, you sound like a very loving, responsible mother.

What you're experiencing sounds like depression to me. I think getting a professional opinion would be very valuable. Has there been any sudden changes in your life recently? (medication, or diet, or anything like that?) If so, you may also want to discuss it with your doctor.

nicole47 · 01-14-2006, 03:33 AM

*hugs*
I second talking to a doctor or a counselor, and checking if there have been any changes in your medication, diet, etc.

omcv · 01-14-2006, 03:41 AM

Yes first of all big hugs!!! Drepression manifests itself in many different ways.

# Depressed mood

# Loss of appetite for food

# Difficulty sleeping or sleeping much more than usual

# A sense of helplessness and hopelessness

# Thoughts about suicide

# Loss of interest in the activities of daily living (work, play, time with family and friends)

# Unusual irritability

# Feelings of worthlessness or inappropriate guilt

# Diminished ability to think or concentrate

dna · 01-14-2006, 06:31 PM

Thanks Everyone...

I am going to see my doctor this week to see what she says...I also have the number of a councellor if my regular doctor cant help me

I appreciate it and today (back at work) I feel a little better but my job is a little off...*sigh*

Thanks again,

Amy