denise26

OK, I feel like such a freak -- my best friend got married last Saturday, and my sister 2 weeks before that. I was the maid of honor in both weddings, and my best friends was really wonderful -- it was lots of fun, and totally beautiful, and she married a really great guy. I should be happy, right? Except I'm not. I am in this funk I can't seem to shake. Today I went over the house they just bought to leave them a welcome home banner and some groceries (they just closed on the house the day before the wedding and had not moved anything in yet, and were due back from their honeymoon this afternoon). I was totally fine while I was there, but then as soon as I left to go home I started crying and cried most of the way home, I almost pulled over becasue I was afraid I would not be able to drive. This has been happening on and off all week, I actually cried at work one day this week, and I can't seem to work up the energy to care about anything, and I constantly feel like I have swallowed a rock the size of a bowling ball. Is this normal after a wedding? I feel like such a schmuck, like I should be happy for her but instead I am wrapped up in misery. I think the worst thing is that normally I would talk to her about all this, but I don't feel like I can because it would ruin her happiness (she has been floating for weeks). Help!

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SheriKCMO

Denise,
We often as human beings get enjoyment from our loved ones' special joys, but there is a limit. You need some joy of your own.
I think you're doing great on your diet and getting your health together, but maybe right now what you really need is to feel special like your friend did on her wedding day or as she steps into her new home. It's time to treat yourself or ask those around you to lend a hand.
Are you single? Do you feel interested in a certain guy you might ask out? [I know that this is the world's hardest thing to do, but imagine how great it feels when they say "yes".]
After one or more big events finally come to pass, the letdown from all of that excitement can also trigger depression. I think the next big event should be in your honor or your favorite activity.
Once I had been on metformin for a couple of months, my moods really leveled out. I think insulin was messing up whichever hormone made me crash like that. I hope that your treatment is the right thing for you. It really helped me feel like a worthwhile human being, something that I could not always agree to before.
Please take care of yourself, and get a little help from those around you whose joy you've shared. You can tell your friend about your sadness, but just warn her that it might not sound polite. You need her. You've been there for her, so it's time to get the comfort you deserve.
Your cyster,
Sheri

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