I am so sorry that you are going through this. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I know how it feels to think that you are not going to be there to raise you children. I had a large ovarian tumor (13 lbs. when it was removed) and by every account the doctor said it was probably cancer. I can say that it was the hardest thing I have ever been through in my life! My grief totally consumed me, and I had a very hard time dealing with it. At the time, my twin boys were seven, and I know the thought of leaving them is what devastated me the most too. What ended up helping me was talking to someone else who had been in a similar situation, and survived. Although I don't know you, if you need a shoulder to cry on, by all means I will try to help you as best I can. | 
