Praying for Today

STORMIEYES73 · 05-25-2005, 08:33 PM

Hi,
I'm seeking any and all prayers for the needed tools to advance and achieve my career goals. It's getting depressing because I've had interest from several prospective employers, but the problem is they are located in the surrounding cities. I don't had any transportation. Like today, they like my resume, want to know more, great fit for the company, decent pay, nice hours.... Problem, no car to get to that city.
Which hurts equally when it's a company that I forwarded my resume, word of mouth about my skills, or they sought my resume out from a listing. The offers from those in Dallas have been spread out to areas where it would take nearly 2 hours one-way commute. I can't afford to move; yet, I sought out reasonable apartments in those areas. The public city bus commute is nearly the same from where I am currently. I'm on the outskirts of Dallas and the city bus routes are less frequent and well-known for their quirks.
The few remaining local retail stores are minimum wage. Today, just seems like it's going to take forever to save, get a car, house and home, adopt some kids, and make an upward move. I feel so alone and lonely, which is rare for me. I don't mind being alone most of the time, but lately, more and more, I feel both alone and lonely. Which makes me feel bad and guilty, b/c I know that God has not and will not forsake me or leave me. But, *yes but, that very human word "but"* I feel alone from other Christians, esp. mature, wise Christian singles, family, and friends. I know it's just a passing phase, but that is how I feel. I also know that I miss my late mama more and more around this time of year with her passing, mother's day, and all the many mothers I encounter daily. This is today and tomorrow is still hopeful for me, but I need help for "today". :o
So, please pray for and with me regarding "TODAY"
Thankful in Advance,
Linda S.

ahydock · 05-25-2005, 08:37 PM

I often feel "stuck", but always something comes along.

don't let life stop you from living!!

sometimes it seems like nothing is possible, but there is always a way.

I will pray that you will find a brighter day very soon

STORMIEYES73 · 05-25-2005, 08:45 PM

thank you so very much

STORMIEYES73 · 06-18-2005, 03:46 PM

Ughhhhh, why do people *family & friends* continue to think that I'm their personal concierge or caretaker or nursemaid or therapist or bank loan officier?????

Okay, that's a rhetorical question.
Here I am, single with child-raising dreams & unemployed without a car in an unfamiliar state, & the same *family & friends* continue to call *not as everyday friends calling to say hi, what's up, let me tell about cousin jane*, but calling b/c they want something ---
"The I'm calling b/c I want/need money, look up something for me, do this or do that, I messed up AGAIN, don't tell anybody, one more favor, okay talk to you later when I have another want/need or bragging about something call".
I hate that call. Seriously, if one more person tells me I need a man/boyfriend/sugardaddy/husband to take care of me financially, I may scream & not be so civil.

I do have carpal tunnel, but I'm not an invalid who needs taking care of financially NOR a call-girl smiling for tricks. It's unsolicited advice, disrespectful, annoying, aggrativating, & some more adjectives & adverbs.

Sure, I would love to be taken care, but not the way it's being suggested. I've never given the impression that I wanted to live like that. I've also worked & worked hard without asking for or receiving handouts.
I'm having a bad day. I was supposed to be at a women's conference all day, but a "friend" didn't return my call yesterday nor pick me up this morning as agreed. I need prayers b/c I'm obviously not displaying a Jesus-like attitude. Maybe this post should have went under the rant forum. Thank you for reading this post & forgive me for long vent, I'll recover after I've read a good book & pray for myself.
Later,
Linda S.

his_angel · 06-18-2005, 04:06 PM

Aww Stormie - hugs are coming your way!

Yes, it can be frustraing, upsetting, difficult to deal w/ people at times, esp those who are "Christian". There are a few in our church w/ whom we feel that way - some we would like to just go up to & smak! But how Christian-like would that be? I believe that too many people (myself included) don't remember that Christians are people - w/ feelings, etc. We have a battle going on inside that at times is difficult to fight. We sometimes have too high of expectations, whether of ourselves or others, and forget. The thing that makes us different is how we react to worldly problems. It's okay to vent - we need to, or else we'd go totally nuts! That's what friends are for, hopefully true "seasoned" Christians who understand this battle & are wise in giving advice (w/out judgement or ridicule. Christ said He would never leave us nor forsake us, yes. He also never said that life would be smooth sailing, but we are to remain faithful, no matter what (paraphrasing, of course). This is where we need to hang on, be strong, & trust Him.

There's a friend of mine at Church who is going thru one heck of a time.... She lost her job b/c of a jerk of a supervisor. The place where she living (she's renting a room) is a den of lions. When she first moved in everything seemed like an answer to prayer - then the truth came out! There is all kinds of stuff going on. Needless to say, she'll be moving out at the end of this month. She still hasn't found a job yet. Plus, right before she lost her job, she found out she has a terminal illness (which she still hasn't been able to share yet). She called me on the phone last night to see how I was doing w/ all my stress & during the conversation, she started crying. With everything that she's doing & w/ time running out, depression, anxiety & frustration is setting in. She knows God is in control & He's got something great planned for her, she's starting to lose her "grip".

You are definitely in my prayers...

Blessings & hugs....

STORMIEYES73 · 06-18-2005, 04:27 PM

Thank you so much for your Godly reminders & thoughtfulness!!! Sometimes, a Cyster/Sister just needs a shoulder for a moment. I should journal. Enough of me, myself, & I tv show is already in syndication..... Oh my drama.

May God bless you with all His best.
Your friend is definitely going through a dark valley. And, no doubt, so are you-- being her friend & she's in distress. Well, pray in agreement for her, okay.

Dear Father in Heaven, in your son & Our Saviour's name Jesus Christ *The Annointed One & His Annointing*, watch over, guide, comfort, heal, & protect Nadine's friend in this time of her life. Continue to be faithful in your love & wisdom for her life & the lives that touch hers. Thank you & bless you, Amen.
Peaceful Journeys,
Linda S.

his_angel · 06-18-2005, 04:31 PM

Thank you so much Linda...

STORMIEYES73 · 07-08-2005, 04:08 PM

Okay, deep breath & I'm letting it all out. Forgive me for the long rant. I'm still unemployed. My former employer is a demon. I received my last unemployment check on June 8th. My unemployment did not last a full 6 months, after over 6 years of dedicated service. That's just wrong, corporate greed. I used my savings for medical situations. I still have medical situations that are going unanswered. Last month, I made the decision to move to a nearby town with my cousin & former best friend. I haven't moved yet. After all, I let her move into my place when she was going thru her divorce. She became another person; it was a lot of passive aggressive character change going on. I lost trust in her & some more stuff. That was 2002. She has been trying to be my friend again for the past 9 months. I prayed about it & will take it one day at a time. She paid back some of the money, phrased as "care package". Yeah, whatever, it's been almost 3 years. I had emotionally written it off as a "glad you're moving out with a job & a starting place".
She wanted me to move in with her earlier this year. I told her I would think about it, prayed about it, & God did not (imo) give me any answer to do so. Well, a lot of the prospective employers are in this city, but no overall public city buses. I would have to depend on her sharing her car & my God-given healthy legs & feet. I've been trying for weeks to move, but everything keeps coming up roadblocks. Things kept happening to spend a lil money here & there for necessities, etc. Now, I'm with $17 & haven't paid July rent & water bill.

A friend's truck was totaled by a city truck hours before helping me move. Another friend with a truck is out of state. Several people I helped with money are claiming to be broke. I need either cash to rent a truck & mover *3rd floor apartment* or a friend with a truck to help with the move. My family just says why don't you have a car or next time you're working get a car *id theft & a low pay at former employer* or a boyfriend/husband with a car or I don't loan out money, but I'll pray for you.
Gee, thanks, but I'm reminded of Matthew 7: 9 Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone? 10 Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent?
Last night, I discovered a close relative was arrested for drug paraphelia on Tuesday & the family is already looking for ways to bail or bond him out or whatever to save him. He's been arrested for a crime, we must save him cries the family. Whatever! happened to personal responsibility? He's a very grown man. It's twisted how those who act out, behave badly, commit crimes, etc are constantly assisted by others. I so want to get off this runaway train. I believe it's a generational curse. Okay, I've vented & exhaled & now I can recieve good counsel from Christian Cysters. Sorry for the "drama- party of 1". double sigh

his_angel · 07-09-2005, 06:30 PM

Stormy... If we lived closer, we'd help ya! (We're good at that!)

It is certainly tough going thru stuff while not knowing 'definites'...

From what I've gathered, there are 2 possibilities...
1 - Moving in w/ your cousin may be the needed stepping stone for all of you to make all right.
2 - God is fixin' to open a door to a glorious opportunity that's better than you've hoped for.

Something that I've learned over the past several yrs... definitely don't proceed w/ "whatever step" if my spirit is unsettled - that's God saying 'NO!'

A friend of mine (that I had mentioned in an earlier post) STILL has not found a job, the place where she's living (den of lions) is STILL a living nightmare, & she doesn't have enough money for next month's rent (even tho she's looking @ moving in w/ a couple from Church).

God's got something planned - it will be in His time, so hang in there & look for those opps.

Blessings & hugs...

cheribcool · 07-09-2005, 09:03 PM

Linda,
my thoughts and prayers are with you!

STORMIEYES73 · 07-18-2005, 08:48 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by his_angel

Stormy... If we lived closer, we'd help ya! (We're good at that!)

It is certainly tough going thru stuff while not knowing 'definites'...

From what I've gathered, there are 2 possibilities...
1 - Moving in w/ your cousin may be the needed stepping stone for all of you to make all right.
2 - God is fixin' to open a door to a glorious opportunity that's better than you've hoped for.

Something that I've learned over the past several yrs... definitely don't proceed w/ "whatever step" if my spirit is unsettled - that's God saying 'NO!'

A friend of mine (that I had mentioned in an earlier post) STILL has not found a job, the place where she's living (den of lions) is STILL a living nightmare, & she doesn't have enough money for next month's rent (even tho she's looking @ moving in w/ a couple from Church).

God's got something planned - it will be in His time, so hang in there & look for those opps.

Blessings & hugs...

Thank you very much. Nadine, I think it's probably another of those "crawl before you walk" phases that I'm going thru. I never crawled as a baby, my foster sisters carried me like a new doll when I arrived, malnutritioned at 4 mths old, in the family home & then I was healthy & walking at 7 mths old. That's how I've always been either sit on my butt or go, go, go.... Mama always, repeatively told me I have crawl before I walk. I always wanted to sit & watch, then take off running like the wind. I hate growing pains. They take too long in my impatient world.
Well, I've been in Richardson for a little over a week now. I'm trying to find my way around this limited bus routes. I'm doing okay. I miss my personal space, trying not to be so prideful about needing help from somebody else. I've always been independent for myself & people have found me dependable, so now it's an altered path. I'm going to stop whining, behave, & do what needs to be done. I'm working on my control issues, b/c God is nobody's co-pilot, as much as we like to think that we are controlling the aircraft, wind, gravity, etc. God bless your family & friends. I'm praying for a good report for your son & friend. Hugs all around!!!
Cheribcool, thank you for your thoughts & prayers. It is greatly appreciated.
Peaceful Journeys,
Linda S.

his_angel · 07-19-2005, 01:31 PM

Thanks Stormie...

Just to give you an update on a couple of things...

MJ is done w/ the testing & the only meeting we have left (@ this time) is the eligibility meeting at the end of this month. It looks as tho (coming from the psychologist) that he will be able to get services b/c of ADD & depression.

Remember that friend I had mentioned earlier?.... Well, she & I just finished yesterday getting her stuff out of the "liars den" & now we're working on getting it into storage. She's staying w/ us until she can find another place (which is fun, but we can get a bit 'slap-happy' sometimes, esp when it's getting late - aggravates hubby when he's tired, tho). She's been on a couple of interviews - one looks real promising.

Hang in there dear....

Blessings & hugs...