I've got my endo appointment next Thursday and I'm dreading it so much so that I feel like crying all the time. (I'm not officially DX yet) I've been waiting for this appointment 3 months now, so the build up has been huge. I've been okay until last Friday when I had to have another prolactin blood test for the Endo. I just felt so emotional and every since I've cried my eyes out ever night. Hate waking in the morning.
I'm also dreading just going to the hospital as I have a big phobia about the place. when I was in my teens I spent a lot of the time in one seeing my Mum who was in one until I was 25 when she finally passed away. At the moment I could do with my Mum!
There's alot going on that's really knocking me down at the moment. So coping with that plus Endo is really getting me down.
I've chatted to friends and they've been supportive. My ex boyfriend (he's been a star) is taking me to the hospital, at this rate it will be kicking and screaming. God knows what I'm going to be like with the Endo. The anxiety of it all is getting unbearable.
I'm sorry you're feeling so much pressure. Change is hard, no matter what kind it is. But, try to remember that you are taking the first step toward making a better life. I wish I could be there to be your support system. Take care and try not to worry, too much. Hugs, Lendi
Thank you Baby Jade and Lendi for being supportive. I had to have some serious chats to myself to pull myself together over the weekend. Now I'm feeling much stronger and less worried than last week. I have to say things like this makes you realize that all you want is your Mum which in return makes me feel how much I miss her. As I said my ex boyfriend is going to be there through out, he's been by my side since It was first suggested that I've PCOS.
Thank's again
Mary Cherry
Mary Cherry, you are very welcome. Holler at me anytime. I know how you feel. I'm glad you are feeling a little better. You'll feel even better after your appt. not matter what the outcome, because it will be over. Wishing you lots of luck and sending special good wishes your way. I'm glad you have such a good friend in your ex. Good friends can be hard to come by. And, I bet your Mom is with you, too. Just have to feel her instead of seeing her. She sounds as though she was specia. Hugs, Lendi
Yesterdays appointment was such a farce, I've gone through such a stressful time over the past 10 months when all along the answer was there in the tests that were done last October. If you want to read the full story check out UK forum under 'Offically DX the stressful way!' thread.
Cheers
Mary Cherry
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