Gees I don't know where to start or who wants to read this but I know writing helps me feel much better.
First, we lost our precious baby, we wanted so badly on Feb 10. I was so strong through the whole process, I even surprised myself. I handled everything emotionally well, and DH has been my rock. Sometimes I feel like I am real clingy to him lately, I don't want to be away from him for a second, and sometimes I am in fear of losing him. Not him actually leaving me because or love is so strong, but by death or something taking him away. I have had recurring nightmares that he dies, or I wake up in my dream and he is no where to be found and I search our entire house for him, screaming for him.
Secondly, We have lived in our home for 2 years, renting, from a friend, he has decided to claim bankruptcy on the house because he can no longer afford his second mortgage on it. So we decided to start looking for another home, to buy for the first time. With the market being so well, the choices are endless. UNTIL....... My DH got laid off..... CAN you believe it!!!! We are trying to move forward in our lives, and boooooom all this happens. So we now have to rent again, seeing that DH lost his job. I just can't believe all this happening to us. I know people have it worse but I feel like everything we have worked for is being taken from us.
Lastly, With DH being laid off, we also lose our health insurance. Which means we have to put our TTC on hold. Seems so unfair, feels like we are in a twilight zone.....
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11-4-08 Clomid 50mg- No O
12-5-08 Clomid 100mg- O'd
1-4-09 BFP!!
2-10-09, Our Angel baby has gone to heaven. 8.5 weeks. (No heartbeat) To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 0 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
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((((HUGS))) Merc--I am so sorry for all that you are going through! I wish there was something I could do to help!!! Just let it out and write about it we are all here to listen.
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Me~29/DH~30/Married 2000
TTC~5 yrs.
1 Angel baby in the arms of Jesus!
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11-4-08 Clomid 50mg- No O
12-5-08 Clomid 100mg- O'd
1-4-09 BFP!!
2-10-09, Our Angel baby has gone to heaven. 8.5 weeks. (No heartbeat) To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 0 or greater. You currently have 0 posts.
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I'm so sorry about your loss and now the rough financial times! Hang in there, sweetie. Rant anytime.
__________________ Metformin 1500mg, Yasmin, managing IR/pcos with lower carbs
First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 0 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. Mary Catherine will be in our hearts forever, November 28, 2003.
Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
Third pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
To view links or images in signatures your post count must be 0 or greater. You currently have 0 posts. Duncan 2/11/05, 9lb 3oz
Fourth pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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Rant and Sadness 
