i'm so glad to know i'm not the only person here that is depressed.
my dr's keep telling me i have PCOS because i'm overweight.....but right up until puberty i was skinny...solid...but skinny...and that leads me to think that i got PCOS as a result of mangled hormones at puberty. i'm the first born in my family...and my mum was the first girl...the same with her mum...apprently that affects the levels of testosterone in the womb...i dunno tho.
but it really depresses me beig this weight...im 17 and 259lbs...and no matter what diet i go on, i'll love about 7lbs...then end up putting over 14 back on. for every step forward...i take 2 back. i have depression issues without this on top....i self harm...cut my thigh with blades picked out of disposeable razors...they don't cut deep...but they get the pain out...it's the only time i cry.
but people think i have bi-polar...coz although i put a bubbly front on all the time...those who know me well...know when it is just a front...and i'm usually feeling low...with the occasional happy time...and more frequent suicidal patches...and at 17 i think 'i shouldn't be going through this....' but i am too scared to see a dr...i don't like being on tablets that mess with my head...i like to be in control...and i DO feel in control...plus i don't want my parents to find out i STILL cut...and i don't want to cause them more pain.
mand x
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I can understand what your going through.But please get help immediately if your injuring yourself!You must not hide that fact.Please tell a counselor,doctor,or some
adult you trust that you need help right away!Cutting yourself is a serious thing which must be addressed today.
PCOS and birth rank,I have heard of absolutely no scientific studies about testosterone and the womb in first borns. I am the youngest of 4 girls in my family,
my mother had some hormone issues,but never PCOS,all of my 3 sisters never had
any problems.And I ended up PCOS.My mother was the 4th or 5th born in her family as well.
That said,PCOS is a difficult and frustrating thing to deal with,we are all here to support you.Depression on the other hand is serious.
I am so sorry! I do though encourage you to talk to a doctor! Meds don't mess with your head, they help you feel more like your REAL self!
I have some good articles on bi-polar and self harmers on my website if you want to check it out! The link is in my sig! I encourage you to sign up!
(((((hugs)))))
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iam so sorry to hear how sad you feel, i know how you feel about the weight issues its a big problem for me too.
I really think you should go and talk to someone about ur problems hun, your parents will understand you just need someone to talk too, dont be afraid you will be fine, and you have the support from everyone here
my dr's keep telling me i have PCOS because i'm overweight.....
but it really depresses me beig this weight...im 17 and 259lbs...and no matter what diet i go on, i'll love about 7lbs...then end up putting over 14 back on. for every step forward...i take 2 back. i have depression issues without this on top....i self harm...cut my thigh with blades picked out of disposeable razors...they don't cut deep...but they get the pain out...it's the only time i cry.
but people think i have bi-polar...coz although i put a bubbly front on all the time...those who know me well...know when it is just a front...and i'm usually feeling low...with the occasional happy time...and more frequent suicidal patches...and at 17 i think 'i shouldn't be going through this....' but i am too scared to see a dr...i don't like being on tablets that mess with my head...i like to be in control...and i DO feel in control...plus i don't want my parents to find out i STILL cut...and i don't want to cause them more pain.
mand x
Hi Mand,
You know, doctors are very wrong to blame the PCOS on you being overweight... it's the PCOS that contributes towards us gaining weight!! It also makes it very hard to lose weight once you have put it on. However, there are cysters who are not overweight and some who are underweight, so to say that you have this syndrome because you are overweight is just plain WRONG. Please don't let them demean you or make you feel worse about yourself. I have had that happen a lot in my past and it really hurts and makes the situation worse.... they are not helping matters by coming out with comments such as that... just understand that they are not right and try and educate yourself by reading books and researching online... so that when the doctors come out with cr*p like that you can argue back and even produce the evidence to show them that they are wrong!!
I understand how hard it is to lose weight and also... I think that when you are feeling low it is very difficult to motivate yourself to keep going or to even start losing weight in the first place! I really go through phases of being mentally well enough to do that. Also, the kind of diet that will help you to lose weight is often not the one that your doctor would necessarily point you in the direction of... take a look on this site and see what you can learn... perhaps a different approach to eating would help you?
Do you do any exercise? I find that some exercise can really help to lift my depression and mood. Even just a walk outside or dancing to some music!
I struggled (and struggle) with depression, low self-esteem and suicidal feelings... the worst part is to be alone with no one to talk to about it... so it's good that you can come here and talk to us. I was always seen as the bubbly fat girl... so I can relate to how people view you.
What country are you in? Is it possible for you to talk to a school counsellor or to your doctor about your feelings and your self-harming?
Take care,
Vicky-Louise
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I wish I could just hug you in real life right now and let you cry all your pains away!
It is very wrong for the dr to say what he said about having PCOS because you are overweight! I had a medium sized very athletic-toned body before PCOS took hold and messed with my hormones! He shouldn't be demeaning you like that! That's so totally wrong!
PLEASE get help! If you are self-harming yourself, it's so not good and very un-healthy. You really do need to get professional help. Because it can turn into suicide. You are very special and you deserve to live! I understand that you don't want to hurt your parents again if they found out, but they can help you get the help that you need.
The right therapist can help you in so many ways and not mess with your head. To be put on medication, doesn't mess with your head either, it actually helps to relieve the depression and help you be you again.
Please talk to someone about this. I am very concerned to hear about this and just want you to be healthy. I am going to keep you in my thoughts and prayers everyday and hope that you find the strength to get the help you so desperately need.
Please feel free to PM or email me at phoenixravenwolf@yahoo.ca ANYTIME if you ever need someone to talk too.
relieved 
i have depression issues without this on top....i self harm...cut my thigh with blades picked out of disposeable razors...they don't cut deep...but they get the pain out...it's the only time i cry.
