Returning Cyster

wulfin · 11-03-2009, 04:27 PM

Hey all,

I kind of lurked around the site and posted here or there back in 2005, but now it's time for me to come back full time.

Because it's been so long...

I'm now 30 (going to be 31 by the end of this week) and was diagnosed back in 2003. I was 24 and finding out was a huge blow to the psyche. For someone that always had self esteem and image issues, it just made things a lot worse. At the time I was also told that statistically I would never be able to have kids. When all I wanted was to be a stay at home mom, you can imagine the depression I was feeling (since then, I've done much research and found that the stats were completely off).

Fast forward to 2009.

I've somehow managed to put on weight, the nemesis of PCOS... I lost about 40lbs in 2008, but have slowly gained that back and more besides to be at the heaviest weight iI've ever been at and sporting that 5 months preggerz belly, even though I'm not preggo.

I recently got engaged to a man that knows all about my PCOS and is willing to deal with any issues with it (weight, diabetes, fertility issues, etc) and loves me for who I am, not what I look like (good thing I met him when I was about 180 pounds and not at my lower point!).

So.. now I'm getting married in May and want to lose basically as much weight as I can (healthily). My ideal weight is 140, I'm currently sitting at 210, so I will be living in the diet/exercise forums for the next few months.

My outlook on life is the best it's ever been, and instead of wallowing in my misery of having PCOS and doing nothing about it.. it's time for me to step up and take action. I'm much more mature and mentally/emotionally able to deal with everything that having PCOS entails and hope that I can overcome the looming challenges ahead.

Yes, having PCOS has definitely changed my life.. but it's time for me to make those changes positive rather than negative.

(hahaha, just reread that and realized.... that sounds SO incredibly corny)