So tomorrow would have been my 12 year wedding anniversary. And we've been divorced for almost 3 years - he's been remarried, but not really married (a long story) for almost 4 years. I woke up this morning really sad and anxious and I'm very sad that tomorrow should be our anniversary, but it isn't. And then I get mad at myself because it really shouldn't matter. We're over. Now that we aren't married, we're best friends and communicate with and support each other better than we ever did. It's better than it was and I know that we aren't meant to be married -- just friends. I don't think I want him back, so why am I so sad about the date? I don't get it.
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I think when most of us get married we truly believe it's happily ever after for us... and maybe that's what you're mourning, that happily ever after didn't turn out to be what you'd envisioned... even though you're friends and know you're not right romantically for each other and you're fine with that, it's still ok to be a little unhappy when life didn't turn out quite as expected (even if life now is great).
*hugs* it's normal to feel a little blue around anniversary dates, even when things are over and you know it's really best that way. i agree w/nicole- we're raised to believe in "happily ever after" and when reality falls short, there is still that little part of us inside that wants it to be otherwise.
don't be angry at yourself. take some "you" time tomorrow and do something nice for yourelf. buy a new book, go out for lunch w/some girlfriends, go for a drive... just get out and try not to focus on it.
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I stayed in my jammies all day, which was a nice indulgence. Didn't help things that my ex called to make sure I was okay -- we had talked about my sadness the night before. But life goes on now. Thanks chicks.
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Rhis shouldn't matter, but it does. 
