flamingoprincess

I am having a bad night and just need to share with people who understand...
My closest friend had her third baby tonight and while I am happy for her I am so sad for myself. I hate that I feel so depressed over her happy news. I just want it to be my turn. All I ever wanted in life was to be a wife and mother. I'm 31 still single and haven't had a date in years so of course no children in sight even if I could get pregnant. I love kids, (especially all of my nieces and nephews) but I'm tired of watching everyone elses. I'm tired of being alone and lonely. I feel like such a hairy, fat, depressed little troll. I hate PCOS!!!! I wish my dreams would come true for once. My friends think my life is so easy because I'm not "tied down". They can't begin to understand how hard it can be to be alone. I know I'm whining and feeling sorry for myself right now, but there isn't anyone I can tell about how sad I am. I just feel overwhelmed and just need to sit and cry awhile I guess.
Thanks for letting me whine........
Flamingo Princess

Lendi

I'm really sorry you are feeling so bad. I know that the night is really hard. Seems like everything is magnified during this time. I'm sending {hugs} and hoping you will feel better today. Hang in there, that special someone might be just around the corner. But for now, learn to love yourself. Lendi

jlucy

I understand. While I am not TTC, I understand how hard it is when you want something so badly and see others who have it. You want to be happy for them and then it's sickening when you realize how you envy them. I feel like everyone is in a relationship and has a sex life but me. I know this isnt' true, but it just gets so damned frustrating. I'm never hardly even attracted to anyone, and then when I am, they are always taken or not interested or something. Wish you lucky girl. Try to keep your head up and think that everything happens for a reason, even if you can't see it now!