This site is a godsend let me tell you..but I really wish it were around when I was a bit younger when I had NO CLUE as to what was going on with my crazy body.
I'm pretty young so I would love to tell my story in hopes that I can make some of the teenage girls out there feel better (and not make the same mistakes I did)
I'm 26 now but for as long as I can remember I never ate much..got plenty of excercise but, yet, I was still kind of chubby no matter what I did. I was never obese as a child- I just always looked like I was "milk fed". As I went through puberty I started to feel on the inside kind of boyish. I was always pretty high fem and attractive to other people but it didn't change how I felt on the inside. In about 9th grade I started to notice that I was growing little blonde hairs on my lower ab. This freaked me out and instantly I started to feel weird. As time went on, the hairs grew more and more and my pubic region went down my thigh a bit. I avoided any situation that may require me to take my clothes off in front of anyone. I became quite stealthy in gym class for sure.
I eventually became old enough where I wanted to date but like I said before, I kind of felt guyish..which in turn made me feel like I wanted to date both boys and girls. I did, however, find the most attractive boy. At 17 years old and when you first fall in love, it's like the world becomes a brighter place. Despite this, I felt as though I had to avoid anything sexual...for me that is. I had dreamed up in my mind that this guy would totally be grossed out by my hairy stomach and legs....that he would feel the stubble and just never want to be with me. As things progressed between us, he kept wanting to know why it was ok for me to do things to him but for him to never be allowed to touch me. This breaks my heart here for me to remember this. Eventually, he found someone else. I think he thought all along that I never liked him or...that something was extrememly wrong with me. I was never able to talk about it with him.
To make matters worse, I have never gotten over this. I am 26 years old now and I still think about him everyday and what it could have been like had I taken the chance to explain that I have a disorder. I was so scared of rejection but I really think now (in my more mature mind) that he would have been ok. Even worse...yes worse...he is dating my cousin and has been for 3 years now. Nothing makes me more sad and I blame this all on PCOS and the pitfalls of having this horrible disease.
On a happier note, I am trying to elevate my self esteem. 2 years ago I lost 50 pounds ( i had gained 60 after this breakup on my 5 7 frame...bad bad). I get lots of attention from both men and women but I know I lost my soulmate along the way. So my adivice to all the young girls out there....don't let something good slip away b/c you're afraid of rejection. You have to deal with what god deals to you just like anyone else with a medical problem does. Don't feel ashamed......
I only just got myself to the doctor this summer after reading this board. I knew what I had all along but of course...was afraid the doctor would look at me in horror. All she said was...you don't have a full blown case!!! Be grateful!!!
If I could have done it all over again- I would have gone to the doctor years ago and I would have been open and honest about what was going on to my friends, parents, and potential lovers.
Can anyone relate to this? I also find it fascinating that alot of lesbians suffer from PCOS. All women that I have been with seem to show a subtle symtom some way or another no matter how old or how hot they are
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Sad Story..but getting better! 
that is sad 
There is always hope 
