Scared

oreo75 · 01-23-2006, 09:03 PM

I'm finally going to see a dr. on Thursday. After a really bad night yesterday, I was really dreadful to everyone last night, I was so irriated no matter what anyone said or did. I just curled up on the bed & cried like i never cried before. I hated myself so much for being like this to everyone. I even thought of ending everything but it was just a passing thought. The bloke I'm now living with has given me an ultimatum, that I need to get sorted (as he can't cope with me when I'm being like this) or we need to live seperately. I'm not like this all the time I only start being like this about a week before my period.

So this morning still feeling awful, it took me an hour to get out of bed before I got dressed, I had to drive around & find a doctor willing to accept me (dr. here in the UK only work in a little area). The first appointment wasn't till Thursday morning, I'm so scared about what is going to happen, I'm worried they won't give me any treatment or it doesn't work & I'll lose my best friend cause I'll never get better.

MiWolverineMommie · 01-23-2006, 09:07 PM

(((hugs))) I am right there with you. I go the my first doc visit on Feb 2nd.

isenephthys · 01-24-2006, 08:03 AM

oreo, *hugs* i don't know what to say, except i understand your feelings. i know that nursing school is very stressful all by itself. and the depression and irritablity... it's scary and i know you probably feel like there isn't a lot of hope, but there is. you've got your doctor's visit coming up, and depression is very treatable with medications and therapy. also, you might want to see if your university offers any counseling services; sometimes it just really helps to have a sympathetic ear.

sleepydumpling · 01-24-2006, 12:05 PM

Oreo - I know how you feel honey. I think you're doing the right thing about going to get some help. It's made the world of difference to me.