Well, it's official. I'm having another miscarriage.
I don't know what to feel, I'm so numb right now.
I've been TTC for two years now, I've only Ov'ed three times in those two years. Of those Ov's, I got pregnant twice... resulting in no babies. Just miscarriages.
Have you ever heard of the six word memoirs? Apparently, Winston Churchill did one once, "Baby shoes for sale: Never worn."
I think mine would be, "I thought I would have children."
or perhaps, "I did not ask for this."
(*sigh*)
No baby for me this year I guess.
Just more emptiness.
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First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
Third pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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Fourth pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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stephanie- im so sorry ........ does ur doc have any explanations to offer?......i pray for u - for God to give u strength to cope with this...
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i personally think it is just crappy that we have to endure m/c after m/c and they dont want to test until our 3rd one. doctors have no idea the pain and saddness that comes with each loss. how these are real babies to us and not just a blink on the screen or a # in a blood test. I am so sorry for your loss. my last loss was only last week to it is pretty fresh for me also. Have you had any more blood work or anything? after my 2nd miscarriage the doctor only wanted to sent me to a RE which i have no insurance so that is out of the question. its like beating my head against a brick wall!!!!---take care of yourself.
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I'm so sorry. I agree with the previous poster of why do the doctors want to wait until the 3rd to do testing. I had to wait until after Aric because theoretically that was my 3rd loss to m/c--had one stillbirth due to IC. I just dont understand whey we have to go through all the physical and emotional pain time and time again. It bites.
Take gentle care of yourself.
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Our 5 angels in heaven: Bailey Maya Ruth Avery Aric Alex
My doctor is going to be doing repeat loss testing on me, since it's my second and given my reproductive history. I am thankful he's not making me wait for another loss. However, I am also aware that even with testing I may not get any answers either. But, it's worth a shot.
I've already been tested for anaphospholipid syndrome once (My sister has it, it is believed to be the cause of the stillbirth of her first child.) My test came back negative though, but I may see if he'll test me again... I know that it can show up on tests and then not show up, depending on if it's active or not. It did with my sister. I know it's not hereditary, necessarily, but you never know.
After I start miscarrying I will have a repeat loss consultation appt. with my doctor.
But, even with the testing and everything... I feel helpless. My body is betraying me with every breath. I'm just... I don't know... waiting for the sky to fall maybe. None of that makes any sense, of course, but... I don't think life makes much sense right now... so it fits.
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Well, I don't think life makes sense, either, so you're not alone! I hope that something helpful is figured out for your next attempt at this business. There are lots of success stories around, though not everyone who's busy with those kiddos has time to come back here to chat. Hang in there!!
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First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Third pregnancy, Cerclage at 13w
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i hear u stephanie-after my loss.......i felt that all of wat we do day after day.....is pretty meaningless....unimportant......work , deadlines....what we huff and puff about.....really all of it doesnt matter......i wanted to ( STILL DO) take a loooooooong leave from work and just get lost somewhere......with time , im feeling stronger , but not a day goes by when i dont think about it...actually several times a day....only i dont get teary everytime now.......i pray God helps u heal.
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Second loss 
