Today was ok, except for the headache I had all day. I talked to a woman about infertility, she told me about her 2 daughters with severe endrometrosis
I was sad talking about it...I hope this month is my month!
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Chrystal (29) ~ DF (35)
TTC #1 with Hypothyroid, PCOS w/ IR & Endometriosis
Many rounds of Clomid without success, surgery to remove Endometriosis 2/09
feeling preety good so far - justwaxed my face and plucked the brows ,i m on spiro now for a month n kinda notice my hairs are thinner .i slept great last night - the only major issue is my vag is completly N I MEAN COMPLETLY DRY and for the past three days i had a watery liquid n now nothin
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Today was hot and so I feel ten times worse about myself. Women in vests and shorts looking lovely and me pasty, in flat sandals and loose shirt trying not to sweat. Everytime sunlights gets on my face I worry as I know it is highlighting my stubble, no matter how much make-up I use it is impossible to cover.
I hate thinking about it but I wish I were dead, I hate trying to live my life with absolutely no confidence. I am waiting to see if I can have gastric band surgery which scares the hell outta me and I know some people die. As I am my life is not worth living so I should just go for it. I cannot imagine being a normal size and not spending half an hour shaving and plucking every morning before putting on my cosmetics. It seems to out of reach. I sometimes think I was bad in a past life and deserve this torture. What if the surgery is OK but I cannot living off a few mouthfuls of food. I just want to hide under my duvet but have to pack for a business trip where I have to look smart and face people ugh!
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I keep hopeing that the next test is our lucky miracle... our life is finally starting to come back together now but it feels like I'm on that rollercoaster again; this is a place that I seem to be finding myself a lot lately. And finding out that I've not much chance left ... makes it all that much harder. He tells me he's trying to understand and it isn't that it doesn't hurt him it is just that he deals with it differently. He doesn't get his hopes up like I do I guess. It is soo hard to get out of bed some days and others when I do get out of bed I just sit around. I am starting a new job and I have a hundered billion things to get done before I don't have the time... but I just can't bring myself to do it anymore.
Tomorrow is another day...
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my "kids" 1 retriever Lucky; and 1 Goldendoodle Fozzie
Dx: PCOS March 13, 2000
Other Dx: PTSD, Depression/Anxiety, Fibro, Sleep Apnea, High BP
Rx:Metformin 1500mgER, Prenatal Vits, Provera 10day
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Today seems like to be it will be another crappy day. I've lost a lot of weight recently and have been living on cloud 9 (given that I ignore my hairiness) Summer is around the corner and I just don't want it to come. I feel horrible thinking about how it is the best time of the year for the rest of world and it's the worst for me.
It just seems like everything is falling apart for me...
I normally don't care too much about how I look, but now that I work I have to keep up appearances. ugh....
I really like this guy ( i know he likes me too) and PCOS makes me feel like no matter what things can never work out between us. I think about him 24/7. I'm completely losing my mind... I know he likes me just as much but little does he know about my PCOS and I don't know how it would impact him...
Let alone everything else that has happened that could impact a relationship if we ever have one.
I just feel so miserable. I feel like I have no control over my life whatsoever. No matter what I do to make things right, they always manage to fall apart. I don't what I ever did to deserve a life like the one I'm living. I just wish I could be normal like other girls.
I remember when I was I in high school I would wake up every morning thinking I was living a nightmare. (I spent 4 years of my life like that, I didn't know I had PCOS and I was constantly teased and made fun of at school). I feel just like that today.
I have no clue what the future holds and it seems there's nothing I can do to make it better.
My life is pretty difficult as it is and then PCOS comes along to multiply my difficulties by infinity.
I'm feeling pretty depressed today.. had a long weekend.. I just finished writing down a bunch of names of doctors in my area. Hopefully I'll get around to scheduling some kind of appointment soon. I feel so fat today.. None of my clothes fit me anymore.. I woke up this morning with a horrible head ache.. and fever. I didn't think I was going to make it to work. I'm so tired.
Our family went out to dinner last night to celebrate Mothers day and my Dad's Birthday at a Chinese restaurant. It was pretty fun, my parents had a great time. My fortune cookie said " Your most memorable dream will come true" and my husbands said "A small lucky package is on its way to you soon"
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Is anyone allowed to join? I would love a place to download my thoughts...
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i think this is wonderful.i feel deppressed most of the time ive just had my results with the news of pcos and d type 2 and i realy wonder how am going to go on i look in the mirror and now with the news i feel doomed about will i ever lose weight will i ever be healthy ,so i think its great we can come togetha and have a moan .
Just wanna say, I love this thread. I have self esteem issues most days. Get really sick of seeing the hair on my face and having to constantly tweeze or wax. Fed up with leg hair that looks more like a man's leg hair and have to shave daily or it's really really bad. Most of all just wish I didn't have to try so hard to look normal. On a positive note, it's good to know I can come here with these thoughts. Thanks!
I too feel depressed
No matter what I do I gain weight.
I am just so tired all the time and can't get all the things done I want to, no one seems to understand.It makes me feel like a failure.
I too feel depressed
No matter what I do I gain weight.
I am just so tired all the time and can't get all the things done I want to, no one seems to understand.It makes me feel like a failure.
Me too, I am exactly like this. I was starving this evening and so ate too much pasta. I was planning to do my exercise DVD but I'm so tired I cannot get my ass off the sofa. I am completely useless...
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I too am a bit upset today. I have finally decided that I'm not going to invest any money in any "aides" to help me get preggo. So in turn dh thinks I'm giving up on him. And no matter how many times I say it he doesn't listen - and that puts me in a "fine whatever" mood! I went to the Foster Parent Orientation last night and learned a ton!!! And I thought that for sure he'd be like okay; lets look into it more and talk with the chick more. But he's coming back with this - I'm too much of a personal person and don't want people in and out of my life all the time. I even told him we could do respite if that would make it easier to handle for a while. I guess I'll have to wait and see what his final decission is.
I feel as though I'm trying to learn how to live with out fulfilling my dreams; and this is not how I want it to be!
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my "kids" 1 retriever Lucky; and 1 Goldendoodle Fozzie
Dx: PCOS March 13, 2000
Other Dx: PTSD, Depression/Anxiety, Fibro, Sleep Apnea, High BP
Rx:Metformin 1500mgER, Prenatal Vits, Provera 10day
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hello everyone I don't know if ya'll would mind me joining ya'll. I haven't been dx with depression but I know I have suffered from depression on and off again. I don't know if my depression is strong enough to get a dx. But for the past couple of weeks I've been myself but not really. And especially lately I've been such a ***** to my DH and myself. I can't be happy about anything. I get mad and angry about little things that normally don't bother me. Today I feel like I'm nothing and I'm just sitting in a corner like i use to when I was a little girl and just watching everyone else enjoy life. I don't know why I can't enjoy life right now. DH is having a hard time because he wants to help me out, but I don't know what he can do. I don't even know why I'm feeling so sad. Sometimes I do have depressing days but it normally last a day but I've been like this for 3 days and I don't know if it was something that DH said or did and if he did say or do something I don't know what it was. It's like I'm blacking out parts of my day. I just want to lay in the dark and look at tv and not watch anything. I want to be happy and content. But I don't know how. I don't want to start taking medicine i just don't know what to do at this point. I hope it's okay that I post my feelings on here every once in awhile.
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So so down... 
