Self-image daily thread - Page 105

PuppyLove · 09-26-2008, 12:22 AM

((((hugs)))) Natalie

I'm 38 and single hun, I know how hard it is to find someone that loves you "just as you are". There IS a man out there who will do that.

You're blessed to have your little girl, and may I say, what a cutie pie!!!

Hang in there darlin, thing will get better

Lou x

Boongeylove · 10-02-2008, 06:02 PM

So, today's a really bad for me...I'm totally stressed about so many things in life & on top of all that i have a lot of pain in my ovaries! I have a lot of black stuff coming out. I'm so stressed about my bf who for lack of a better term is being a total loser!! I love him but geez. Then I look in the mirror or at pics and think when did this happen to me? when did i gain 40 extra pounds & oily skin?? & psorasis on my hands & ear. i'm so tired latley, i think it's major depression. & to top it all off, everyday at work, my co-workers say "man, you look like you got hit by a mack truck! (sorry for the tmi ladies, but i needed to vent.)

i have faith in God & i know that it will get better. but when??

KittyKatMom · 10-11-2008, 07:32 PM

I'm usually not much for support groups and such, but I'm at that point where I have to be honest with myself. I am depressed. I can forget about it when I really keep myself busy, but I'm never completely okay. And pair that with the constant "Guess what I'm pregnant!" crap that floats around, and I feel pretty much completely worthless most of the time. I'm feeling better today than yesterday, but yesterday all I could do was cry. It doesn't look like this thread is getting a whole lot of attention right now, but I'm glad to see it exists. Thanks.

{ohjoy} · 10-13-2008, 03:11 PM

I feel like I'm living a lie. I sometimes act as though it's easy for me to conceive just to feel "normal" like everyone else who's getting pregnant left and right. I know deep down that it's not though but I try to be optimistic. I feel empty and alot of times depressed. Today right now is no different.

degrees0freedom · 10-14-2008, 08:14 AM

I gained 25 lbs in the past 10 (?) months. I weighed 141 around the new year (my lowest weight since middle school) and came back up to 165. It's remarkable to see the differences in how i'm treated by strangers. I'm paranoid about how the weight gain is perceived at work and if (how?) it affects the perception of others that i'm capable and intelligent.

i wish i had more space in my head to be thinking something more noble or beautiful than these worries.

Cheryl1974 · 10-14-2008, 09:17 AM

Hello everyone!!! My name is Cheryl. Im somewhat new to these message boards and wanted to introduce myself. Im not sure if this is a private group only or can I post my thoughts in here as well?

Thanks!!
Cheryl

Naymarie · 10-14-2008, 10:29 AM

Everyone is welcome to post in here!!! Pretty much the only thing private here is the private messages you leave for other users. Welcome to the site!!

So... I feel like a failure... I've missed 2 days last week and 2 days this week from school because of my anxiety. The teachers are okay with it because I explain the issue via email or phone. But... why am I like this?! Dang it! I'm even on anti anxiety meds but they don't seem to help as I'd like them to

KittyKatMom · 10-14-2008, 09:38 PM

So I felt terrible and lonely and depressed all weekend, but Monday came and I had to go back to work. I felt so bad about being worthless that I started up my low-carb diet again to pretend to have some control. I always fail, partially because I can't find very many cheap or quick low-carb foods, but mostly because I'm weak. I'm feeling a little better, but one of my co-workers just told us on Friday that she's pregnant and she's already making excuses about not pulling her load. I get mad, first of all because I have more work to do, but more because I want to be that pregnant person. And as I write, a First Response commercial just came on TV. It never ends!!!!

Mrs Diane Boerstler · 10-19-2008, 09:02 PM

I am a highly successful, finally pregnant, well educated individual with an incredibly emotional IQ, and knowledge base who is a specialist in her field at my young age. However, my husband does not want to sleep with me..almost ever...this started well before I was pregnant, and he does not connect with me on an emotional, intimate, or intellectual level, which is very frustrating. I did not realize how much his constant rejection of my desire (ie. I wanted to have sex and he did not want to have sex with me) hurt my self-image. This has been going on for five years, but I have not found anyone else of interest along the way (I'm married, so it's not like I'm looking) but all of the sudden this man walks into my life six months ago who makes me feel the things my husband does not, but he is fit, and gorgeous, and highly intelligent, and I feel as though he could never be interested in me in that way, which is so weird because before I met my husband and began to be rejected sexually all of the time, I would have NEVER felt this way about myself, and I am far more educated and successful now. I did not realize how much he hurt my mental image of myself until recently...wow..what an eye opening experience..!

Mrs Diane Boerstler · 10-19-2008, 09:04 PM

I'm so sorry you feel this way.. I have been swamping myself with work for who knows how many years in order to stay out of denial about how my life has not turned out the way I expected...I understand; life is frustrating sometimes...

Mrs Diane Boerstler · 10-19-2008, 09:18 PM

Hi! I have sooo been there before. I'm the oldest of seven children and everyone kept asking my hubby and I when we were going to have children, not understanding that we had wanted to for years and had suffered multiple miscarriages. Keep your chin up! Focus on the things that make you you without having to produce a child..

Mrs Diane Boerstler · 10-19-2008, 09:23 PM

Low Carb dieting is usually pretty difficult. I tried several low carb diets and two programs worked well for me, even if it meant that I would "cheat" on occassion. First of all, Winsor Pilates comes with a diet program which I found to be both filling and amazing for losing weight, and the exercise program could be done from home, and was really cool. The other was South Beach, which had some tasty recipes. One of my faves for a quick low carb snack was to take roast beef sandwich meat and put a trail of mustard down the inside, wrap cheese inside of the beef, and then nuke it..very very tasty...helped me to lose weight quickly. Another motivator...I'm the one who use to be depressed about everyone else getting preggo...I went off of all meds, and went on only South Beach phase 1 and sometimes phase 2 and conceived without trying (focused on getting my masters degree) a few months later. I think positive manifestation helps a lot as well (The Secret).

KittyKatMom · 10-21-2008, 10:21 PM

Thanks, Diane! Knowing there are others out there who are also throwing themselves into their work and pushing ahead help me. Congratulations, though, on finally being pregnant! How far along are you? I am wondering, though, why it is your DH isn't interested in sex. Has he been tested, too (I'm guessing probably since you have tried for so long)? My husband was tested and found that his testosterone level is very low, keeping his sex drive pretty low, too.
And I'll look into the South Beach diet. I don't know much about it, but maybe that's a better option for me.

Mrs.George · 10-23-2008, 06:26 PM

i feel, huge today, i just weighted and yelled at the scale...

5'2 and 185lbs... im only 17! this is CRAZY... and i cant seem to get full... i am always SO hungry...

californiastars · 10-23-2008, 07:30 PM

Today I just feel so blah. I didn't go to the gym today. I have been trying to be good about going and missing it makes me feel crapy. This morning I was actually feeling pretty good so I thought I would go out and buy some new jeans since I need a new pair. I went to 3 different stores and finally gave up. I almost broke down in the middle of the Levi's store as the lady looks at me and said "16 is the biggest size we sell I think"...yeah thanks alot. So I went and bought shoes instead.

I was feeling so good the last few weeks. My confidence was up, I was eating healthy and working out. All of a sudden this week I just feel like I am the fattest person on earth and I know that it must be my fault. I wasn't always like this. I was cute in high school. Now I am a fat, acne faced, giant (5'10" 260lbs)

Thanks for letting me vent