So after yesterday's post I had a decent therapy session, I mentioned that hot guy who would've hooked up with me if I'd been around, and she said that if he's seen me out with friends, animated, talking, having a good time, then my personality would have shone through and it wouldn't matter to him that I'm heavy. That was good to hear. Then I went to get my mail and got a letter with a court date for the foreclosure, Oct 8. I knew it was coming, I just still couldn't help but get upset. BUT, I did something out of character and bold for me--I signed up on a plus-size dating website. So we'll see how that goes! I'm nervous and scared, but a bit excited at the same time!
Yesterday had date straight after work with my new man. I was totally panicking about my stubble (face and chest) so had to use shower room at work for a retouch before going out. Nothing like that to make a girl feel confident before she goes out ona date! At 10pm end of night was worried makeup had disappeared from stubble (muggy & raining evening) so wrapped a scarf round my neck which he asked about, had to lie and say I was cold :-(
Getting intimate is tricky and has to be pre-planned, so much shaving, craming, plucking and covering with make up before hand... I hate this disorder and will be mortified if he notices!
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I finally did it, I bit the bullet and signed up with an online dating website for plus-sized people or those who like plus-sized people. I signed up Wednesday night, my profile and pictures got approved and published sometime Thursday, and last night I had a guy contact me and say he loved my profile and asked me to please email him!!! So I did, and he wanted to IM so we did that for about half an hour last night! He called me gorgeous 3 times! It was so nice and exciting and flattering. So that was a nice, exciting boost for me, just when I was feeling lousy about everything that's happened over the last couple of weeks. I still get panicky over having to share the hair issues with a guy, but I know that I don't need to share that right away and I have a while before I have to think about doing that. I do so HATE this disease! It can be so emotionally crippling.
I had a bad day today. One of my favourite side effects of PCOS "visited" me today. Some of the cysts I have tend to get bigger, what it causes, is that they push against my colon and tend to choke it off, which causes sharp terrible headaches, it does not help to take a pain killer as the head is not the origin of the pain, and pain killers do not help to digest better. So I spent half of the day looking for a way to get my colon moving again as I could not focus on doing anything with a headache that almost blew half of my head off... After finding a way to help my colon I spent a lot of time in the bathroom...I did manage to do something, but it does not help my self esteem if I have to think about my digestion the entire day...
For most of the day I felt like I often do, unable to leave the house or even step outside for a smoke because I felt so disgusting...after I had a long shower and did something with my hair I felt a bit better but the feeling of never being good enough sticks with me always...
__________________ Dx with PCOS 1996 @ 14 y/o Dx with Major Depression Dx with Social Anxiety Possible dx of Bi-polar disorder
I wanted to give all of you ladies a bit of encouragement today! Today is the first day of the week... at least here the sun is shinning and even if you can get outside for a little bit and let some sun soak in (hopefully it's shinning where you are) you can get some vitamin D which will aide you in not feeling so blue!
Keep your chins up and smile because it makes people wonder what you're thinking! Lets be mysterious today xoxoxo
__________________ Renee (Nay) 27 & Jeff (DH) 28
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my "kids" 1 retriever Lucky; and 1 Goldendoodle Fozzie
Dx: PCOS March 13, 2000
Other Dx: PTSD, Depression/Anxiety, Fibro, Sleep Apnea, High BP
Rx:Metformin 1500mgER, Prenatal Vits, Provera 10day
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hello I'm a newbie! I'm 29 yrs old I'm lost @ this moment In time I was dx with pcos but was told by my doctor it was all my fault since I'm severly overweight! my family the lil friends I have and mu hubby don't really care about my disorder!!!! I'm so alone and to top it off I don't have insurance and the symptoms just keep getting worse!!!! I don't know what 2 do!!! if it weren't for my 6yr old son idk if I'd ever get outta bed! does someone have any advice for me?
almost 8 years ago, I had my little one. For 6 years after that I was severely depressed and gained a lot of weight. 2 years ago I had a breaking point. I was larger then I had ever been in my life. (I was 145 and gained 80lbs when I was pregnant.. And I only lost 10lbs when I had my daughter.. which the rest never left and gained another 30)
While I've been doing pretty good with keeping the weight off, and losing some the last 2 years, I've just gotten to the point I reallly don't care what other people think of me anymore. I still work on the weight thing, but It's not for what others think. It's for a better ME
Family and Friends all know my issues and all are more then ok about it. Even the Hubbies guy friends. I accidentally walked out one time with Nair on my lip and neck while the hubby had friends over, and they laughed so hard at me. All I could do was threaten to give them a hug and take half their beards off with it hehe..
Most days I feel the "old me" is back, but I do have my low days too. I think the breaking point was when my Mom asked me what my daughter thinks when she sees her Mommy so upset and depressed over how I look. I don't want her growing up being obsessed with her looks and such.
I do carry my weight pretty well, wide hips and shoulders with a narrower waist (Ah yes the classic hourglass figure.. why couldn't I have been born in a different era.. people would of craved for my figure )
I have a new motto in life "Nair is my new best friend" and live by it. These things can be fixed even if it's just slightly.
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I feel like crap I tried to start losing weight only to find myself getting sick... lovely flu that's been going around. All I can say is ISH. I'm hoping that as soon as I get better I'll be able to jump back on the weight loss band wagon. I have, however, since I've been sick lost a few pounds... not much but I guess it's a start. I'm hoping to be able to go back to school tomorrow and to not be sent home. I need to stay on top of things or I'll not make it!
Oh, and I just had 2 more "friends" tell me that they are pregnant... yipee skipee... If they had been trying for a while or they had difficulties I wouldn't take it to heart so bad... but seriously, c'mon!
__________________ Renee (Nay) 27 & Jeff (DH) 28
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my "kids" 1 retriever Lucky; and 1 Goldendoodle Fozzie
Dx: PCOS March 13, 2000
Other Dx: PTSD, Depression/Anxiety, Fibro, Sleep Apnea, High BP
Rx:Metformin 1500mgER, Prenatal Vits, Provera 10day
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This is a great idea as I'm sure my other half is seriously getting p****d off with my being in ugly mode most of the time !!!!!!! At last I can release my feelings here with other girlies in the same boat PHEW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE IS A GOD XXXXXX
I have suffered real feelings of no self worth for years and had just put it down to bad relationships but i think really it's been the pcos all along.Are there any medications or help available to help with these bouts of worthlessness. Sometimes I feel like I am just crazy and I'm sure my bf does too!!!!!! What can I do ????
This site has just been depressing and sad every day.... my appearance is ugly, my insides are ugly, but why mourn about it on a daily thread... I'm going through the steps to get the gastric bypass... and if it doesn't work, that's it. I'm done with life and it's over for me. *shrug*... so how's everyone else's appearance days been? Looks sad and dreary so far with a few chances of sunshine spotted throughout.
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This site has a lot of the same kinda stories on it,just goes to prove that none of us are alone with feeling depressed about how we look or feel!!!!! Today I actually feel not too bad about myself spose it helps that I have the most fantastic , loving and caring bf in the world.Still have no meds so, sometimes Danny my bf is the only thing that can get me through my ugbug days . Love you with all my heart Dan xxxxxxx
I feel awful today. I feel awful almost every day, though. I hate how I look because of my weight. Almost everything I've tried hasn't worked, so I plan on trying Medifast or Optifast soon. I am praying it will help me. I am so ashamed of myself right now. :[
I always feel fat and miserable. When I diet can't seem to lose weight even when following low cal diet and exercising... I hesitate about weight loss surgeries because of the conflicting opinions... I am not motivated when it doesn't seem to work (the ieting and exercise) but when I am losing I am very motivated.. I would like for everyone to remember it is not only the outward beauty that matters... the beauty on the inside will shine through... have a great day!
I signed up Wednesday night, my profile and pictures got approved and published sometime Thursday, and last night I had a guy contact me and say he loved my profile and asked me to please email him!!! So I did, and he wanted to IM so we did that for about half an hour last night! He called me gorgeous 3 times!
It was so nice and exciting and flattering. So that was a nice, exciting boost for me, just when I was feeling lousy about everything that's happened over the last couple of weeks. I still get panicky over having to share the hair issues with a guy, but I know that I don't need to share that right away and I have a while before I have to think about doing that. I do so HATE this disease! It can be so emotionally crippling.
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I tried to start losing weight only to find myself getting sick... lovely flu that's been going around. All I can say is ISH. I'm hoping that as soon as I get better I'll be able to jump back on the weight loss band wagon. I have, however, since I've been sick lost a few pounds... not much but I guess it's a start. I'm hoping to be able to go back to school tomorrow and to not be sent home. I need to stay on top of things or I'll not make it! 
