 FIrst post-depressed
Ok, here it goes...this is my first post. I feel horrible, just found out I have IR and PCOS-lovely! I gained 32 pounds in about 4-5 weeks, weigh more than I ever have. My friends do not understand my frustrations. I feel fat- I feel ugly and unattractive. I have NEVER cried about my weight, I now have cried in a dressing room and in my closet. I am not considered "over weight" by conventional means. But, even when I weighed 125#'s I felt ugly and over weight. I have never had a good body complex. I have thought about purging for a long time now, but never have done it- I do nto want to die. After reading all teh info on PCOS, I feel like I am fighting a loosing battle. I worry about hair growth, and on the other end of the spectrum I worry about hair loss. But mostly I fear the weight- I have alwyas feared being heavy. I never judged those that were heavy, most of my friends are heavier than me and I think they are all beautiful I worry too much about what others think. I am sad. My children told me I have a big Hiney- (we do not say butt in front of our children). I feel miserable. Thanks for letting me vent. I am still so new to this "syndrome" it might as well be a freaking disease- it is nto technically curable from anything I have read- might as well be called disease- it feels like a disease. No one in my family takes time to learn about it- everyone wants me to get over it. How do I make them get it? I have children, I should be happy- I am , but I am still sad. I do not mean to sound ungrateful to those of you having trouble conceiving- I am sorry if I sound selfish- this is just me dealing with my own issues. Thank you again! | 
