Self-image daily thread - Page 2

Efiefi · 10-16-2003, 03:17 PM

sl,
Congrats on AF...

Hope you are feeling better today.

sunnie,
Did AF leave yet? She never shows when you want her and then when you don't want her she does show and then takes her sweet time leaving! Jeez. LOL

My self image today is cool! Despite the fact that my scale lies to me I am fine. LOL Yesterday was my first full day on the Atkins diet and I am feeling good b/c I behaved myself. LOL Oh also Dh finally agreed to take a TTC break. We originally had set May as our date to stop taking fertility meds and start adoption classes. But we have both had enough early. We have decided to put all this money into a house. And I couldn't be happier. Of course I will stay on the Metformin and temping so you never know if I may just get preg by myself, but in the meantime alot of stress will be leaving me. I'm so tired of all the hormones in these meds... LOL So I'm happy today!
Hugs to all!

slhightower · 10-16-2003, 05:04 PM

Hey Princesslandry,

This weekend my DH also said that he was ready to start focusing on adoption instead of TTC. We are still trying but with no current intervention from the medical world. We are just going to see what happens, and see where the adoption world takes us! Upon hearing him say that, a ton of stress was lifted off my shoulders!!!!

sunnieflower · 10-17-2003, 04:13 PM

AF Has finally left town!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank goodness!

Mine usually shows up monthly now that I'm on yasmine but it hurts so bad and lasts 5-14 days

which really stinks!

slhightower · 10-17-2003, 04:42 PM

Yeah......

I probably have about another 3 or 4 days to hang out with my AF. Oh well, at least she came this month!

How's everyone doing today?

pomot5 · 10-17-2003, 05:40 PM

AF finished yesterday and I feel clean. I do not need to think about it for 3 months ( I take provera every three months) Curious thing is if I were to make a trip to India, I would get my AF within hours of reaching there on my own. Itis very interesting.
I feel like a large hairy beast walking thru the corridors. I have no stability on every corner of my life. I am just a mess. I do fantastic job at work. But my organization is going thru changes. God knows how long my job lasts. My weight & sugars are out of control as I keep getting these panick attacks. Ihate myself and wish I do not have all these problems.
I just want to find that safe corner and hide away from my problems.
And I wonder what sort of a mother I am being. On the surface my kids only see a mom who cares for them and loves them to death. Inside I am just a mess. I do not want to put on weight, I do not want to have high sugars, I do not want to have any job-cuts at work. Everytime they do that, first I feel I should not be on the list. After that feels guilty for the ones who lost their jobs. I was so strong and everyone used to look up to me now I hide out things Does not want to tackle issues any more.Why does things (or life) has to be so much complex??

linny loo · 10-27-2003, 08:28 AM

HI

Today i feel UGLY AND FAT but wots different right

slhightower · 10-27-2003, 12:15 PM

Hey Linny Loo,

I'm sorry you feel that way today. I feel pretty much the same way. All bloaty and just all, well crappy!

Efiefi · 10-27-2003, 04:28 PM

Today I feel icky and depressed as all get out! I really thought I was preg this month then AF had to go and show up. And it's a really bad AF. I feel gross and disgusting and disappointed. Blah!

Ms_Peaches_01 · 10-27-2003, 07:10 PM

I had some pictures taken about a week ago and saw the proofs today. I can't believe how fat and unattractive I look. I feel awful.. I asked the photographer to do retouch after retouch after retouch. I want to crawl under a rock and stay there. I have the next three days off of work and I am SO glad that I don't have to go anywhere..

Efiefi · 10-28-2003, 02:35 PM

Oh hon,

I know exactly how you feel. My husband tries to take pictures of me but I won't let him b/c they make me feel awful. I always think I'm smaller than I turn up in the pictures. LOL Maybe it's wishful thinking. I'm feeling a bit better today than yesterday. Still a bit bummed but feeling more optimistic about the adoption thing. Still giving up on the fertility meds has been hard. I feel a bit like a quitter even though I know that isn't the case I've always been taught to stick to things. Yuck. Anyway today is decent for me. Not good not bad but in between.

Hugs to you though and don't focus on it too much if you can.

slhightower · 11-03-2003, 12:24 PM

I hate pictures too, because I have to admit that I actually look like that... I guess when I look in the mirror I see my smaller self.

One day, hopefully, I will be the smaller person in pictures too.

misscoyote · 01-08-2004, 06:35 PM

I've only called myself ugly and fat about 100 times so far this year! The best thing is that I am 10 pounds un-fatter than I was last year! Pictures? Who would DARE take a picture of me! lol

Efiefi · 01-09-2004, 03:26 PM

Hi everyone,

We really need to get this thread rolling again. It's such a good idea to have a sounding board for the way you feel. Anyone interested?

Hugs,
Heather

slhightower · 01-09-2004, 03:34 PM

I am totally in! I need this again!

I'm feeling pretty good... we got an email today (from a friend) asking for a place for high school girl and her 2 month old can stay... she is being kicked out of her home... (my DH and I volunteered for similar situation about a year ago, but a long lost relative stepped in at the last minute)... so we are just waiting to get more information and a possible meeting this weekend...

fab_apocalypse · 01-10-2004, 02:21 AM

i think this is a great idea!

dont like how i look.
i eat.

i eat.
dont like how i look.

i dont know... sometiems it's really hard to figure out which came first or at a given time what initiated the other

i need to change and i dont even know where or how to begin.