Self-image daily thread - Page 23

dedepcos · 03-22-2004, 12:12 PM

sl, sorry to hear about your stomach bug. That to me is one of the worse things a person came come down with (also sinus stuff)
I was wondering if you had heard yet from the social worker. Crossing my fingers fro that phone call today. THe nerve of your social worker going on vacation. lol

Lori, if your heart is saying go to England I think you should. I am with Sl on this one you may never get a chance to do it again. I battle with depression too. Somedays are so hard. Like Today. I am feeling better at the moment. I personally love living in America but have always (in my adult years ) wanted to go to England and work and live. I always wanted to experience soemthing like that. A change may due you some good. As far as a significant other they can be in England.

hugs
de

Stormy77 · 03-22-2004, 02:00 PM

I'm back and crazier then ever. I'm in a funk today. I'm wore out from having DSD. I love my DSD but I want my own children. Someone who will call me mom other than when she wants something. I miss DSD when she leaves but sometimes I;m glad. She is soooooooo high strung. She is hard to deal with at times. She thinks someone has to be entertaining her at all times. She follows me every where. Even to the bathroom. She stands outside the door and talks. Sooy I'm ranting.

Stephanie- I am so sorry you got sick with that stupid stomach bug. I totally understand. That is horrible.

Miss- I'm glad your back. We missed you.

Denise- I'm glad you finally got a paycheck. The rest are on their way. I know it. You will be rich soon LOL

Well, I hope everyone is doing good. BYE

fitness_chick · 03-22-2004, 09:38 PM

Hi Everyone,

Hope everyone is doing well.

Missy - sounds like your trip worked out well overall!

Ohmercyme, GO TO ENGLAND if that's what you are thinking you might like. I'm not one to talk about feeling 'stuck', but... go!!!

princess.. house???

de... hope you feel better soon. feeling depressed is the worst. I can't say I have kids or totally know what that feels like but I know it must be hard for you.

As for me, classes started again today. I didn't get much of a break but ran my first half marathon since my bad asthma attack last fall. It was wonderful since I didn't think I would ever run again when that happened! My mom went with me and we had a nice day, though today we're in another fight. Such a rollercoaster ride it's so frustrating.

We didn't have cycling classes last week because it was spring break, but we started up again today. The cute guy was in my class again today. We talked a bit in the weight room after class. I'm not sure that he is interested more than being nice though. I know that in class at one point, I was talking about how this new low-carb diet was killing me, etc, and he is an endurance athlete too and he said 'you've got no energy, right?' I said "Yeah" he said why are you doing that? I said 'insulin resistant' and he said... "Yeah, low-carb doesn't make that much sense for somebody like you who doesn't have a lot of fat for that to build up with."
THAT made me feel good. because I wore a red sports bra, since all my tank tops were dirty, and felt subconscious. I had a long sleeved tshirt on but got hot after a while so just took it off. I am PMSing again and gained 5 pounds in two days and most of it went to my waist I swear. and I felt that way and he STILL made that comment. he is CUTE and has a total biker bod. I think lifeguarding is part time too because he works a lot of hours working with the mentally disabled. But I don't know, he hasn't made any super great efforts to go out of his way to talk or anything. Maybe he has a girlfriend. He didn't mention it but you never know.

ok i've got to get back to work. i've got to work really hard if i'm going to stay in this semester after getting so far behind. my professors are good about it... but anyway, I intend on getting all As this semester and it's going to feel so good when it's all over with and i know I did that even with all this other stuff going on!! Only six more weeks left. I am glad because I don't want to be in class much longer, not so glad because it's a lot to do in those six weeks. Wish me luck.

Oh I forgot the next four weeks I am teaching pilates for someone on Tuesdays. I don't know why I said I would do that on top of everything else, but maybe it will feel good and help me relax a bit too.

Hope everyone has a great evening!

--Amie

slhightower · 03-23-2004, 10:59 AM

I'M PISSED... (sorry)... no FREAKIN PHONE CALL. I mean, I paid my money, I went to the stupid classes (well, it wasn't stupid, I'm just mad)... they wouldn't even let you in the freakin class unless you paid your money... AND NOW THEY WON'T EVEN GIVE ME A FREAKIN COURTESY CALL! SO THEY TAKE MY MONEY AND THEN NOTHING... And on top of all of this, when she calls I will have to be nice, because she has to like me if she is going to work hard for me and be MY ADVOCATE! Sorry guys, I'm just so frustrated... with PCOS it just seems like everything is against you from the get-go, no matter what avenue you try to persue to have a family. Okay, enough whining from me!

Fitness... way to talk to the cutie... a friendship is a good way to start things. Sorry to hear that after a nice day with your mom, it has turned back into fighting.

dedepcos · 03-23-2004, 11:55 AM

Sl, I cant believe that she did not call yesterday. i would be frustrated tooo. I know you would just love to blast them but unfortuneately your right... If she gets mad then she might not work as hard. I would be pissed too. You paid your money for a service not you want it. Just hang in there all this frustration will pay off when you are holding your child(ren).

fitness, I am so happy that you got to run your first half marathon. Glad to hear that cutie was back for some more cycling. Just take it one day at a time. Sorry to hear about you and your mom fighting again.

as for me, I am better today. I did not get as much working out done yesterday as I planned but I did get an hour in for my aerobics class. My mom called yesterday and she is coming for a couple of days. Tommorrow is report card day and both kids are nervous. I am sure (or hope) it will be fine.I am on a laundry mission today. I hate doing the laundry.

hugs
de

dedepcos · 03-24-2004, 12:21 PM

Sl, any news yet from the social worker?

Missy, How are you? what is going on with ya

Fitness, how is your day going

Princess, Are you settled in your house yet any other news......

Stormy, Are you all rested up from DSD...lol I am still playing catch up from when the kids were out last week

oohmercyme, How are you feeling? Any decicion on England?

Well as far as me. Fiance was late getting home yesterday which ticked me off cause I told him I would be at the gym late and he said he was heading home at 5 whch would of put him at the house about 6. at 7;30 I left the gym and called him and he was just leaving. complained the whole time I talked to him. So he was once again crabby when he got hom. So after we ate he said he was going to straighten the basement up and it would take hours. I told him I would do it today but that was not good enough... SO i went upstairs to our room and folded laundry and left him to do the basement. About 30 minutes later I came down to the basement. and guess what it was done..... Hours my butt. however he was in a better mood I guess he knew I was not going to listen to his crap yesterday.lol

Today is going good so far. It is a crazy day for me and my mom is coming today.

hugs
de

Stormy77 · 03-24-2004, 04:26 PM

I am totally depressed today. My life sucks, my marriage sucks, and having PCOS sucks. I don't know how muck longer I will be posting on SC. I am about to leave my DH.(Right now is not DEAR)
All we do is fight over EVERTHING. I can't stand it anymore. This sucks. I won't rant anymore.

sl- I am so sorry you haven't got the call. I will be praying for you. Stay strong. It's coming. I know it won't be long.

Hope everyone is doing better than me.

Shay

slhightower · 03-24-2004, 04:29 PM

I'M STILL PISSED!!! No call. So I called and left ANOTHER message again today. Oh well. I told DH that he was going to have to start calling... obviously they aren't taking ME seriously!

Stormy, if you are around, your in my thoughts!

Denise... sorry he was in a crappy mood... MEN = Pooppiles

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Girls RULE!

Where's everyone else today?

misscoyote · 03-24-2004, 07:48 PM

Hi gals! Sorry I haven't been able to keep in touch much this week. I have been so terribly busy since I got back from my trip. Lots to do here at work and busy in the evenings too.

Let's see...gosh, I last posted Friday! Okay, well, Friday we (Pooppile and I) talked during the day a little bit. He didn't have much to say. I could sense he was crabby so I didn't want to push. Anyway, I was feeling like he was blowing me off so I went with a GUYfriend out for supper Sunday evening. Well, as luck would have it, he just happened to drive by when my friend was picking me up. He's met this guy before but probably didn't recognize his new Jeep. Anyway, he had to drive by AGAIN just to see what was going on and he caught us leaving. It was classic. Anyway, Monday and yesterday he just kept flirting with me online and on the phone when he conveniently called about work. He finally asked me to lunch and he just let it all spill out. He finally admitted that his ex threatened to take the kids away if he continued to see me. She is severely jealous of the that he was so happy with me. Being the man he is, he didn't want to say anything and just tried to keep me out of sight from her spy across the street. Thats why he wasn't calling until very late at night, blah blah blah. Anyway, he wants us to work this out and loves me and is willing to take the risk of pissing her off. Of course the sad part is that she actually has custody of the kids and WILL take them just to spite him. He wants to file for custody but she will come get them immediately once he does. So until this whole custody thing is squared away, we've agreed to sneak around. lol At least he finally told me what was going on, not like I didn't suspect it all along. I think he feels much better and I know I sure do. Little did I know all I had to do was have a date with someone else. :-)

Sorry this is so long but had to share.
sl, I hope the social worker calls you back very soon. I hate waiting.
dede, when you clean something or do housework, he tends to get in a better mood. haha
Stormy, omg girl! what's going on? Don't leave until you try counseling, it just might help.
fitness, will you be running in the Chicago marathon? I have a friend in cali going there to run it.

Sorry again this ended up being a book.

dedepcos · 03-24-2004, 09:50 PM

Missy, I am glad that pooppile finally told you what was going on with all that. I am so sorry that kyles ex wife said that she would take the kids from him if he continued to see you. Well, hopefully things will work out for you guys. Atleast things are starting to look a bit brighter.

Sl, I cant believe the social worker has not called you back. I know you want just to blast them. sending you )))))calling back vibes(((((((((((

Stormy, I am so sorry that things are so rough at home. I know the heartache of going thru a divorce. At times things suck so bad that nothing feels right. Just keep in mind that eventually things will get better (even if you get divorced) Please dont give up on posting on sc. If you need to talk more privately just know that you can email me.

as for me today was better

hugs
de

fitness_chick · 03-25-2004, 02:13 AM

haven't posted much lately. been really busy trying to catch up with school, life, etc. it's coming along.

sl - I would be PISSED too if they didn't call. What the hell??

misscoyote - what a strange situation you are in. well, i guess that's what makes life interesting, and at least you know now. I swear with men, treat them as bad as you can and they come back for more. treat them well and they run away. what's up with that??

Stormy - I'm sorry you're feeling so badly. I wish there was more I could do for you. I've not been through a divorce, never even been close to being married really, but I know from when my parents went through things, it is so stressful. And dealing with PCOS on top of everything else is hard too. Well hang in there!!

de - i'm glad your day is going better today. how was your mom's visit?

As for me, I taught cycling today, did a round of weights (since I build muscle SUPER easily I just do one set of my own circuit workout and that's enough), core conditioning, and then ran 7.75 miles later in the day. I was so tired before my run i almost didn't go, but a friend of mine asked if I wanted to go and it got me out there. I'm glad she did I felt so good afterwards.

Yesterday I ran six miles and taugh Pilates. I have not taught Pilates since last fall. It was semi-embarrassing as it was obvious I could not do the exercises as well as I could before! But it's something to work on.

The cute guy was not in the cycling class today, but the cute personal trainer that usually flirts with me was working this morning. He put on this sad face when I walked by him today and opened his arms really big like he wanted a hug. So I gave him a hug and asked, "What's wrong?" and he just smiled and said "nothing..." I said, "I thought you weren't working Weds mornings anymore??" and he just smiled and said, "Well I don't have enough clients right now to stop."

He is really cute, not sure why he doesn't ask me out, but maybe there is something like you can't date coworkers or something. I don't know. I see him looking at me sometimes when I'm teaching or whatever, too. Too bad I only see him once a week.

I am on the more carbs diet now, the dietitian increased my carbs by 30 more per day and I am doing better. I am not eating as many calories as she wants me to though. I guess I am paranoid I will get fat, or also, feel like I would lose faster if i ate less. I am not eating below the minimum that she recommended though (she gave me a range to stay in). Also I am not weighing myself daily anymore. She said my hormones are probably getting adjusted to the new eating plan so the scale is going to play mind games with me for a while. Still, I'm curious. The first week I ended up gaining 2 1/2 pounds which was really discouraging, but I'm almost positive it is PMS. I had lost two and then gained almost five pounds in like two days. I'm weighing on Saturday just as a check-in (Saturday is my weighing day).

I am supposed to go to a surprise bachelorette party type thing for my friend tomorrow. But i am so busy I don't know that I will go. I don't want to be a party pooper though. The other thing is that they are eating at this small, greasy-type, Mexican restaurant and I'm going to feel all weird because I won't be able to eat anything probably. Because I am still getting used to what is valid and not valid, and I didn't like eating unhealthy restaurant food anyway!!

well i've said enough. better get to bed. i have a paper due tomorrow but the professor is letting me turn it in late due to health circustances. I could have worked on it this evening but chose to clean my room and do laundry and organize my desk instead. it was looking like a bomb exploded, seriously. it's bad enough having the rest of the house in construction without my own room being a super mess! But it's better now.

have a good night,
Amie

dedepcos · 03-25-2004, 01:24 PM

My x husband called this morning to tell me he would be late making one of the payments he has to make per our divorce agreemnet. He then told me that he had not forgotten but he had a massive heart attack Sunday morning at 4 am.

I cant stop crying because even though we are divorced we are still close. To make matters worse my supposely best friend lives at the house with him and she did not call me . NO one did. On top of that I wish so bad I could of been there for him. For some reason I always still feel like I should be the one taking care of him. He told me about his head aches and stuff like that but then the doctor told him it was probably the blood pressure medicine.

I called my fiance and I was crying and told him and he said call your mom and tell her to turn around to take you to augusta. His tone of voice was like he was disgusted that I was so upset. Then he told me that maybe I should take some insurance out on him. (i told him a couple of weeks ago I was thinking about it). Then he said he had to go and get some work done and he would call me later. I mean **** (sorry) he could of been a bit more compasionite. Oh well, i told my mom and she said she would turn around but I told her not too. I think my fiance truely would of been pissed if I went plus my ex is going to his moms house for a couple of days. I am so sad. I cant believe it. He is only 34.

hugs
de

fitness_chick · 03-25-2004, 01:38 PM

De- That is sad, and stressful, when someone you are close to gets really sick. And if no one told you about it, that is bad too. I think your fiancee should leave his jealousy or whatever behind and think about how YOU are feeling instead. That is kind of a lousy way to act. Sorry don't mean to be judgemental.

-Amie

slhightower · 03-25-2004, 02:32 PM

Denise, I'm so sorry to hear about your ex. That is just so sad, and for him to be so young, and I can totally understand you still having that connection with him. You had a life with him, and that isn't something that you can just turn off! And, jeez, your fiancee needs to take a chill pill... he doesn't have a steller record with emotions and needs to be more supportive of you in this case! Shame on him!!!!!

Miss, I'm so happy that you and pooppile Kyle are working thru this... I guess he isn't such a pile after all (but still kind of because he didn't come clean in the beginning). But hey, at the very least it might be kind of fun to sneak around... it might add a little spark here and there

Fitness.... I gotta hand it to you... you are an amazing athlete... when I grow up, can I be like you

No, seriously I'm getting better and people like yourself really inspire me to push a little harder each time!

Oohmercy, how's it goin? Had any break thru ideas, any decisions?????

Princess, I guess you not being around means that you are in fact moving... enjoy and sorry about the reading you are going to have to do... this has been a very talkative group lately!

Stormy, hang in there girl, we are all here for you!

Nothing new with me really. I had this huge undertaking... for the last 3 weeks I have created a catalog of our children's books for the store I manage (from scratch)! I finally finished it yesterday and got it to the printers! I am so thrilled it is done, and I've gotten rave reviews from the owners, they had no idea how well it would turn out... needless to say I'm highly impressed with it myself, and didn't realize I could do something like that!

Oh, yeah, no phone call yet... oh well, they will call eventually, RIGHT??????

dedepcos · 03-25-2004, 02:45 PM

ok, for the moment I am a tad bit better.

Fitness, I too admire your work outs. I think that is so awesome, your dedication. I am glad they upped your carbs and I am glad that you are feeling better.

sl, I cant believe they still have not called. That is so cruddy.

Well, my fiance calle back and still sounded irrated that I was so upset. He just kept saying if your going go now before it gets to late. But the tone in his voice was not simpathetic. I guess I was kind of looking for I am sorry your so upset it will be ok, Y dont you go and see him. In a nice caring voice something like that. Even my mom was more sympathetic about him and had some concern. My fiance knows my exhusband, you would think he would care just a little bit.
he got off the phone with me and then called back a bit later and he sounded a little bit nicer.
The weird thing about me and my ex is that we dont hate each other. Dont get me wrong we still have our moments. My fiance knows this too. He knows that we are friends now. I know its not my place anymore I guess i just feel like I should of been the one there to help him thru this. He said he barely remembers asking if someone had called me and he said he knows he did he just cant remember what they said. I still cant believe no one called me. I am so scared if this can happen now it can happen again. It can happen to any of us. I am just so sad.

anywho chat with you ladies later
hugs
de