Self-image daily thread - Page 94

sarabara · 07-10-2007, 01:48 PM

Deanna,
I know what you mean!! My BF came home from being in Florida for work. When I started up his laptop, this super skinny super blonde naked chick is starting back at me from his desktop. I must've been having a really bad day because I started in on him about "that must be what you want." We grew up in different towns and I never knew much about the girls he dated except one. And she sure as hell didnt look like that picture anymore than I do!

deanna_brown · 07-10-2007, 06:22 PM

haha. I know what you mean sara. I get like that sometimes and dont even mean to. i guess its when Im having one of those really low self-esteem days. I feel good today tho. Im pretty much happy. I feel pretty and not ugly and fat(even tho AF has got me bloated and retaining water), which is something thats new to me. Im going home to see my family this afternoon. my mom is having back surgery at MUSC tomorrow.everyone pray that everything goes well!!! thanks! hope everyone is having a great day!!!

MamaBecs · 07-12-2007, 05:26 AM

Well, I am a rainbowed cyster, so you'd not be surprised that I am some kind of deviant. In fact, I am the worst kind of deviant: the kind that doesn't get any. I'm confident, outgoing, popular and well-liked, but biologically, I am not appropriately shaped to be sexy. Science has proven that you need a narrow waist for that, and no matter how thin I am, I can never get one because of damn PCOS.

Please don't tell me it's just 'confidence' or 'social skills' because none of my many friends know why I am not physically desirable either. I am sure it is evolution's way of sorting out the infertile, and that a fertile appearance matters even in same-sex attractions.

despinaki · 07-22-2007, 12:21 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by veggiechick120

im feeling miserable about myself.
i went from being 120 lbs size 4 to 151 lbs size 8/10 in a little over a year and had no idea why
now it makes sense. but i hate myself sometimes because of how i look. because i cant seem to control it.

I can completely relate to you. Same situation here...

Today I made my self-criticism. I decided to get back to my previous appearance, exercise routine, mood. This is enough. After all, I'm 20. Isn't it time to live life the way I want to? I'm gonna fight PCOS. I hope to win!

despinaki · 07-22-2007, 12:24 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by MamaBecs

Well, I am a rainbowed cyster, so you'd not be surprised that I am some kind of deviant. In fact, I am the worst kind of deviant: the kind that doesn't get any. I'm confident, outgoing, popular and well-liked, but biologically, I am not appropriately shaped to be sexy. Science has proven that you need a narrow waist for that, and no matter how thin I am, I can never get one because of damn PCOS.

Please don't tell me it's just 'confidence' or 'social skills' because none of my many friends know why I am not physically desirable either. I am sure it is evolution's way of sorting out the infertile, and that a fertile appearance matters even in same-sex attractions.

Does that mean that we cannot get a narrow waist? Do specific meds cause that? Or is it a general characteristic of PCOS? Oh, and is a narrow waist a sign of fertility?
Ok, lots of questions!...

melanie1422 · 07-23-2007, 03:16 AM

Today I feel like hell. I've done nothing but sit and cry all day. I can't find a single reason to keep going. I try... but I'm getting nothing.

preesh · 07-25-2007, 07:58 AM

Today was a mixture of feelings. Joy because of my little one. Immense sadness because my husband wants me to leave.

lush · 07-25-2007, 08:18 AM

Ive had depression ever since i was 13, diagnosed with PCOS when 17, and now im 20. Been through alot since i was 11 (even conteplated suicide) and now im at this point in my life.

I hate the way i look, i cant look in the mirror, if i do its only to check my face or if i gone shopping (the worse depressing thing i could ever do). I hate being hairy and big and hate PCOS.

I got admirers i know that, guys tell me they fancy me and stuff. I get told i got a really good personality - down to earth, bubbly, modest, and i care loads about those close to me. I would give my life for those who mean alot to me and stuck by me.

I just have my fat days, i got to go to town today to buy some new clothes because i seem to be having none. And not looking forward to it at all. All the clothes that are out all make you look pregnant, bigger than you are or stick to you so all my flaws are on show.

why cant clothing people make clothes to suit everyone, we dont wana look pregnant. PLEASEEEE make clothes that jus look ok.

Thing is i only put weight on my tummy, so my bum isnt big, neither is my waist.. its just my stomach (and thighs).. why does it all go to those places?!?!!?

Also i fought to get this far through everything, im not gonna give it up just like that. We all got to be strong and carry on, just because we arnt happy doesnt mean your story hasnt got a happy ending - you have, you just got to be strong and patient.

be strong and fight against the bad thoughts!!! x

Lucky2BaMotherOf3 · 07-25-2007, 11:30 PM

great idea

AngelCOH · 07-26-2007, 10:26 AM

I cannot do today. Feel so bad about myself that can't face leaving the house so am 'working from home'. Am a rainbowed cyster and fed up of trying to meet women to hang with. I have no love life as lack confidence in my looks. All the women in the clubs look trendy and toned, I just cannot compete. It really does not matter if you have a nice personality, what it comes down to is attractiveness. It is that which gets you noticed unfortunately, as superficial as that seems. I am destined to be permanently a 'friend' and totally unfanciable by women. If only I liked cats

I would not have to live out my days alone.

montana_in_la · 08-07-2007, 02:55 PM

I feel like I'm never going to get my body working right again.

I wish I felt attractive. I'd like to think I'm attractive, but I really just wish I had clear skin.

My boyfriend moved out after living with me for a month. It was a big deal for me to live with him (I was very clear about my feelings regarding living together) and he moved in knowing that it would be a temporary situation and that it was just convenient for him. Now he's moved into a house with two women and they're fussing over how furniture should be arranged and I just can't stand being over there.

I feel like no one cares that he really wounded me; everyone is acting like it's OK that he doesn't want to live with me and that it's OK that he pretty much took advantage of the situation.

I feel like I can never get my relationships to work and that it's not worth being nice or being a good person because it doesn't matter anyway.

ashie · 08-08-2007, 12:42 AM

im having a really bad day, no make that a really bad month! i feel so unatractive and fat and not at all sexy, everytime my df touches me i cringe and feel worse, he always says im so damn sexy but i cant feel sexy when im so fat! he meet me when i was 15kg less fat and since i went off the pill about 1 year ago, i just keep gaining weight cuz of damn pcos! its around my tummy mostly, but its not just that, its everything about me, pimples, hair, FATNESSS! arrrghrr its so annoying, its effecting our sex life cuz i just dont feel like i should be loved for what i am.
people never beleive when i say i hate the way i feel and look and gets me sad when people comment on it (good or bad) i am so confident when im with me friends and family, but its just an act, i dont want pity from them. and i guess it doesnt help when my mum and dad and brother are contintly saying im fat and that i shouldnt eat. when they say that, i get in car and just cry all the way home and climb into bed, i try to talk to my fiance about the sex thing and how i feel, but he thinks its him and it just frustrates me and i get so angry at him cuz he gets upset! ok im going to go for a walk as im trying to lose weight to feel sexy again! lets just hope it works as ive just started today!
take care!

Naymarie · 08-09-2007, 01:34 AM

Today brings a mix of feelings... happiness because we were just barely approved for our mortgage; but we were approved! Sadness because my best friend (dh) barely spends any time with me. And in some ways relief! My life has been sooo crazy for a while now and hopefully it will start to calm down. I finally got hired in my temp to hire job (been there 122 days) and so I am not having that issue of uncertainty. I am also going to have health insurence so I will be returning to the doctors office for the first time since December of 05. I haven't had a period of any sort since Oct of 05...and am kinda nurvous to go back in there! We were kinda hoping that an angel would bless us w/ a little miracle but things happen, or don't happy for a reason. That doesn't leave me with much some days though... is this as good as it gets?!

toocute2b4gtn · 08-21-2007, 03:11 AM

WOW!! I thought I was just losing myself half of the time. I feel as if I'm suffering for something I done wrong in the past. Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed with school, work and my home life. I just want to run so far away and hope I ran fast enough to drop all my problems in my life. I'm upset I'm sick, but it's more I'm upset I didn't find out sooner. I feel a relief that I do know I'm sick more than anything. But at the same time I'm so tired, I want just sleep a lot of my life away. But I can't let anything win. I'm better than this!! Thanks for listening!

AimStar · 08-24-2007, 11:51 AM

New here.....

sunday I had a full blown panic attack. very scary for me, and the first one in a about 10 months. I've suffered with depression and anxiety among other things since highschool. with my worst bouts after my car accident. I have never felt so low in my life during those times.

the panic attack scared me to death. I made an appt, only to find out my recent bloodwork shows I have PCOS. This is overwhelming, but settling at the same time. It can be treated, and most of my medical history can now be accounted for, and MAYBE FINALLY, i can gain control of my health after trying for so long but consistantly going up and down.

Weight gain. I have always been very tiny. Never had problems with weight, until I hit around 22. at 19 I was around 115 pounds, which was normal for me. I have gained 23 pounds in the past 2 months. This happends often, I gain a lot, then I lose alot. But right now I feel extremely fat, my clothes don't fit, I'm wearing my boyfriends clothes, who is now smaller than I am. I Just have a hard time with it. People keep telling me I look "healthy" and I say no, I really have a huge ass stomach and thighs. Im sure this is nothing compared to what some of you go through on a daily basis. But this is all new to me. esp when all of my friends are skinny and can pull off the best outfits of all time. When I start feeling like this, I just let my appearance go and my punk rock happy fasad fades away. and I wear tight undershirts to try and hold my belly in. I can go from a size 9 to a size 2 in about 3 months, with no change in eating habits, or exercise. BUt at the moment my pants don't fit, and that's REALLY pissing me off. I'm normally fairly confident and don't care much about my appearance, except when I start to notice things happening...random hair, weight gain, acne, etc. WTF.

End rant....glad I got that out.