It's funny, before I became pregnant and while I was pregnant I avoided looking at this board like it was the plague. Well, I guess I belong here now. I got unexpectedly preggo after what we though was a failed round of Femara. I could believe our luck on our first round with the RE. I didn't allow myself to get excited after the great betas but couldn't help but feel very hopefully after seeing a strong heartbeat and measuring on time at 6 and 8 weeks. RE thought everything looked good a discharged me. After a few weeks I got into my ob of choice and did all of the pain in the butt intake only to discover that the fetus has stopped growing at 9 weeks. Missed miscarriage. It was a shock but felt like something expected at the same time. I don't think I felt a thing (emotionally) until a few days later when the bleeding began naturally. Thankfully the miscarriage itself was not very painful and completed itself within two weeks. Now.... well, I guess it's back to ttc after one cycle off. Meeting with RE in a few days. It's just so ****ty. I can't stand pregnant women and babies anymore and I think the MOST horrid things about them. Suppose it's normal at this stage. I hate all of this. Spending thousands of dollars on a baby that very well may never come, seeing my husband so sad and disappointed, having people look at my with "sad face". I don't even know why I'm posting this, commiseration I guess. I just hope that this will be my only not my first of many.