said goobye again.

[ReneeBeth]

Ari Lev was born on May 21st at 7:54am.
I got to hold him and talk to him. And again, say goodbye to him. Just leave the room, with him there laying in a blanket, never to see him again.

I lost another son. I still think Ari was a gift from Daniel, and I'm still thankful for having him, but why did i have to lost him?
My body just went into full labor. The contractions never stopped, the membranes just kept on slipping out, eventually my water broke, and that was it. I was able to see Ari on a Ultrasound one last time a little before he was born. He looked so alive, but i knew he wasn't going to be here much longer.
I guess it always hits me hardest when I come home, alone, to a no longer happy home. Before I'd come home, and yay, plan the future nursery and babyproofing of the house. Now I just come home...to nothing.
I got the same memory box for Ari that I got from Daniel. I have the boxes on the fireplace together. My boys, I hope, are now together so they'll never be alone.

I really don't know how i'm going to handle this...again.
Ari's funeral should me Monday or tuesday, and he'll be buried next to Daneil. I just thought I'd never have to bury a baby of mine again.

I just really hate this

[georgy]

I read your post on the other thread and just wanted to send you lots more hugs ((((((hugs)))))

please don't hesitate to contact me if you need a chat.

[NickOfTime]

I am so sorry for your loss.

[tariana]

I'm so sorry, Renee. I know that it's the most generic comment you can hear, but know that I really do mean it. I'm so sorry you had to go through this again.

[kwannabee]

Renee...we were all so hopeful for you, and praying like mad, and if what i feel right now is just a fraction of what i know youre feeling...i can only hope you know that we're here for you

I'm so deflated right now...please know my prayers are with you and your little boys...please take care

so many hugs coming your way...

Kim

[Cregger 1997]

I am soo sorry renee. I can't imangine what you are going through. if you need to talk you can send me a pm too. you and your boys are in my prayers. ((((hugs))))

[Fairyflies]

Renee, my heart is breaking for you right now. I can't fathom how you are feeling or thinking, but I do want you to know that I am praying for you and that myself and my sweetie Scot are so sorry for your not having Ari with you.

Love Angela

[missyanne]

Words can't express what we feel for you. We will all be here for you. I am so sorry for your loss.

[saluki_fan]

Renee, I am SO sorry for your loss. You are NOT alone; we are all here, thinking of you and your sons. Words can't say what I want to say right now.

Your friend,
Meghan (saluki_fan)

[*Clarissa*]

Renee, I am so sorry. Words just aren't good enough at a time like this. I pray that you are able to find the strength to make it through this. Again.

[GabrielsMom]

Renee, I wish there was something I could do for you. I'm so sorry.

Lots of hugs and prayers,
Adrianne

[tnade]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. You and your family will be in our prayers.

tnade

[VivC]

Renee,

I sent you an e-mail. I don't have anything else to say, except that I now have a picture in my head of Ari and Daniel (and Rivi and all of our other lost little ones) playing together in Heaven. I know that's not much comfort, but it's a beautiful picture.

((HUGS)),

[Pamela]

Renee, I am so very sorry.
There just are no words to express my sorrow.
(((hugs)))))
Pam

[Blessed is Me]

Renee, my heart is breaking for you. I am so very sorry!