New Here and Frustrated

[Lizard227]

Hi Everyone,

I am not new to PCOS I went through several years and several doctors before being diagnosed in 2005. We moved to San Antonio, TX about a year and a half ago and it has taken me a while to find a new doc.

I am currently not taking any medications and have been feeling down and out. I don't have the energy or motivation to get my butt off the couch and start exercising. My eating habits are very bad!!!

I have a tendency to go full force for 3 or 4 months then for whatever reason I just quit. I think I mainly get discouraged because I don't see the results I want or fast enough.

I have tried so many things from Atkins to Weight Watchers and NutriSystems and spent a LOT! of money in the process. I have a treadmill that primarily collects dust. I have read a ton of books on PCOS and I know what I need to do, I just can't seem to find the motivation to stick with something. Eventhough, I would love nothing more to get pregnant and have a baby, that has not helped me to stick with a program.

I saw a new doctor last week that is a reproductive endocrinology specialist and I go back next week for a fasting glucose test and a biopsy because I haven't had a cycle since October and it was a year before that for my last cycle.

Sorry for venting! I am hoping that you all will have some good advice and I can find the support and tools to keep trying.

Thanks for listening

[Sweetheb]

I hear ya, I hear ya, I hear ya!!! I know that's how many of us cysters feel day in and day out. I was dx with PCOS in 2001 and have seen several doctors, been on several meds, and there are just days that I feel I can't go on! I hate my weight and feel that NO matter what I do, good or bad, nothing helps!

My DH and I started TTC #1 7 months ago so I was then willing to try meds. again to see what would happen. I know we aren't going to see a BFP w/o meds. I started provera 17 days ago. Took it for 14 days and now waiting for AF. Haven't had a AF in 135 days. I also started taking Met. and I'm telling you the SE's are NASTY but I feel sooooo much better. I feel like I have control again. My appetite isn't near what it was. I eat because I'm hungry not because the clock says it's time to eat. I'm down 7 lbs. I would recommend, depending upon what your gluscose test says, to start Met. I feel like a new girl! I know after I get AF I'll feel even better too.

Best of luck to you. Don't let this get you down....FIGHT!

[Lizard227]

Thank you! I can't believe how much better I feel surfing around the posts and finding that I am not alone.

I am fairly confident that metformin and provera are in my near future. I didn't realize until today that those nasty side effects were just part of the drug and not just me! I am a very bad record keeper and because my AF rarely makes an appearance it is hard for me know even remember the last time it came to visit.

When I have been on Metformin before it didn't help with the AF but I bet I just wasn't patient enough and I need to put diet and exercise in the mix. I am looking at ediets, anyone else use it?

[michellezearing]

Welcome to the site!

[SunnyInSeattle1]

Welcome Lizard227 to SC.

[Eva37]

welcome to sc, there is a link to the newbie roadmap in my siggie for you

[starsshineforyou]

welcome! good luck with sticking with the diet and exercise...I defintely hear ya on being difficult and giving up after the initial motivation doesn't seem to produce any results...argh.

[Coze381]

Lizard-

First of all, please know that you are not alone in this boat. i can come up with a hundred and ten different excuses why i don't have time or energy to exercise (see my blog for today for proof). i can come up with a hundred and ten difference excuses as to why i'm eating fast food for lunch instead of something healthy... i am sure there isn't a cyster here that would keep her hand raised with any of these issues... you are definately not alone.

Keep in mind though, that changes to both diet and exercise do not come overnight and first and foremost you have to WANT to make those changes. In August, i stopped drinking Diet Coke and eating chocolate cold turkey. i made that decision and started eating a little healthier... and since then i've lost 20lbs, but now i'm at a standstill (which is where i've been for able a month). my Endo told me if i keep eating a bit more healthy and start exercising, the weight would start coming off more. But again... with the excuses... i think about it this way though... do i want to lose the weight or don't i? What is my final goal with losing the weight? To get myself closer to 'normal', to not have to shop at the plus size store ALL the time, to conceive the one goal that i have had for myself since i was a young child. Am i going to achieve these goals if i sit around feeling sorry for myself and not do anything further to better myself? Absolutely not... in fact, my situation can tend to get worse, i can gain all that weight that i've work so very hard to get off back AND there is always the 'my grandmother died at 60 something of a massive heart attack' card... i really don't want to go that way...

It doesn't come overnight... i couldn't quit everything at once... i didn't wake up one morning and say 'okay, today i'm going to start working out 2 hours a day, drinking 2 gallons of water and not eat anything that comes in a paper bag or that i have to order from a funny clown face'... that doesn't work... what does work is finding that one step at a time... Today... i choose to... drink 5 bottles of water. Tomorrow... heck, i might choose to drink 5 bottles of water... it's the little goals. This week... i choose to... do yoga on Monday, Wednesday and Friday evenings between the time i get home and dinnertime. Make sure your goals are specific though... not today i choose to drink more water or this week i choose to work out more... more is not definative... more is not something that you can measure...

Perhaps i've gone off in a rant in your post, but something tells me that someone out there needed to hear it... perhaps not you, but someone...

[Lizard227]

Coze381,

You hit me right on the head!! I tend to get all excited for a week, month or maybe a few months then I just give up because I go all out and then burn out and feel deprived.

I started eDiets yesterday and am just focusing on managing a new diet. I picked the GI diet they have. Aside from a huge grocery bill and having to cook a lot more, it seems to be ok. But then again, its only day two.

I haven't drank Diet Coke for over a year and drink water and some Iced Tea but not very often. I still don't drink enough water, though.

Last week, someone at work said something to me about work. "We need to take baby steps, to work up to the ultimate goal" It is not just diet and exercised that I go all out in. LOL. I am not the most paitent person on earth and I like to get things done, but find myself frustrated when things don't go my way (I guess you could say).

So, I am taking baby steps and working on the food. Then I will add the exercises and so forth. My fiance' wants to get up at the crack of dawn and walk every morning. It is great that he is supportive but I am so not a morning person. I know it would be good for us and our dogs but man its hard for me to wake up.

I went to the doctor today and had a fasting glucose test and an endocrine biopsy. So, it will be another week or so before I find out if I am going on Metformin or what the plans are...I am worried about the biopsy, though.

Thanks for the support!!

[smcwhorter901]

Hi Lizard 27!

Welcome to SC... I can definitely understand your frustation... In fact, I share them! I did look at myself in the mirror the other day and get highly upset and frustrated... I have got to lose some weight, but it's sooooooo hard for me! I have noticed that fad diets don't work for me... I have to go back to the good old fasioned, but miserable no sugar, little salt diet... limiting carbs is the most helpful to pcos women who are insulin resistant and trying to lose weight, but no matter what you do... it's always a rough start... It's hard, but not impossible... hang in ther girlfriend!

[harleymaggiemae]

My doctor recommended South Beach. I thought it would be impossible and the first couple of days are miserable -- but it gets easier. I've lost about 10 lbs in less than a month. The first two weeks is when I dropped it all and I've held steady the last couple of weeks trying to figure out what I can eat and still lose while I reintroduce food into my diet. He encouraged this because it helps with insulin resistance.

Good luck!