New and looking for help!!!

[bratdreamer1]

Hi I'm new to this I've never talked to anyone about my problem before, but I was diagnosed with PCOS 3 years ago and have been beside myself ever since.

I just went through a trial at university of Pennsylvania for women with PCOS trying to get pregnant and I didn't ovulate until they put me on 3 pills so I only got to ovulate 3 times and the trial was over. I've been trying to get pregnant for 6 years now.

I don't know what to do or where to turn all I know is I'm depressed and it seems like everyone who knows I'm trying so hard and depressed about it is getting pregnant themselves including my own sister.

My biggest problem started 2 months ago when my sister told me she was pregnant with a baby girl for some reason my chest just felt like it was on fire and I just felt so much anger and hate I don't know what to do I'm always crying, I can't lose this weight, and I've pretty much locked myself in the house only talking through the phone or computer..

I feel so lost

[Trujillo25]

hey sweeite...im sorry that you are feeling this way..i know about the depression thing i have my days...the only thing that i can suggest is to take it day by day and breathe and also this site is awesome a bunch of great women on here you can talk to...i have been trying only for two years but there are options..there is metformin to regulate your periods..there is clomid a fertility pill and there are iui and ivf...to help you get pregnant...now i cant afford them so i have to do it the old fashion way with just the metformin..so if you need anyone to talk to i am here for you...i also got mad when i found out my best friend and room mate was pregnant..cause she didnt want it and those of us that do want one cant have one or its harder..that is normal to feel and you shouldnt feel bad for it..anyways so anytime you need to talk i am here for you...goodluck and best wishes..

[bratdreamer1]

thank you so much, wow your lucky you have kids already I wish that I had been diagnosed with PCOS after I had atleast one kid. My cousin/sister in law is pregnant with her 2nd kid she doesn't want her. In the beginning she said she wanted us to adopt her and I was all for it.. especially since she is due on my birthday December 14th, well she just recently told me she changed her mind and wants this lady in London to adopt her it is breaking my heart.. we can't afford to adopt a child regularly, or have and IVF done I don't know what and IUI is could you explain.. but I just don't know how much more stress I am supposed to deal with .. it's not fair to watch all these kids have kids so easy and me I would give my world to have just one.

I have no one here to that understands and I can't take it.. My husband tells me it will be ok but he's not the one with the problem I am and I feel like I'm missing a part of me.

thank you for wanting to be my friend your the first person that knows some what of how I feel..

[Trujillo25]

yeah it would make me mad...especially if it were my sister...you should talk to her about it...explain that you can't afford to do it that way...that the only way you could is if she gave you the baby..tell her that if she wanted she could be actively there or not depending on what she wants..i hope that you can have a baby but we all know that there is a chance none of us may...the best advice i can give is to stay positive but don't let your hopes get up that is what hurts the most..trust me i know...i'm a little stressed out right now...my period was suppose to start today and well it hasn't and i don't think it's going to i don't even feel like i'm gonna start...i really do wish you the best and i hope things work out the way you want them too...i will pray for you..and about the ivf and iui i am not sure what they are but a lot of women on here have gotten pregnant from them...maybe something you can bring up to your doctor..i will talk to you soon sweetie...keep your head up...

[butterfly3861]

I haven't been trying as long as you, but I can imagine a piece of it, as I have been trying for 1 1/2. I have only ovulated for the past 6 months due to being on medication and have yet to get pregnant. It sometimes seems that everyone around me is preg and I keep wondering when it will be my turn. If you are able, I suggest that you see a reproductive endocrinologist. I didn't know there was such a thing until a year ago when my OB finally referred me ( I have known I had PCOS since I was 18-19). When I went to see the RE he upped my metformin to 3000mg and I lost 60 lbs, which has been very needed and I continue to lose more. If you wanna talk I am here.