Self-image daily thread

[dedepcos]

Princess, mine does the same thing. He acts like he such a bad ass. Then he turns into a baby. thank goodness not as bad as my ex-husband. My x creates things wrong with him. I sometimes waited on him to tell me his hoo hoo hurt. lol.
My fiance has 2 children and they live with us there mother doesnt have anything to do with them. they are so beautiful not only physically but inside as well. I am lucky in that department bc I dont have any of my own so they fill a little of the void in my life. My fiance wants us to try to have one or adopt. He is so supportive when it comes to that. We have known each other 4ever and he watch all the heart ache I went thru when I tried for many years with my x to have a baby.

Today is better then yesterday. I took the kids to school then I was watching some tv. I thought to myself what am I doing. SO I got off my but and got in the shower. Although i Have not fixed my hair or put on my makeup yet I know I will do it later. I feel a bit more positive. Maybe its cause a part of me really hopes we get paid this weekend. I dont know what we will do if we dont cause all of our savings are gone and we have 50 bucks left in the bank. But I am hopefull and maybe I shouldn't be. Hopefully his boss will come thru for us. My fiance is in a better mood today. He stressed again that the only reason he is staying til friday is bc he knows there is about 10,000 coming into the company either Friday or saturday and he wants to atleast get some of his money. So hopefully. Last night my fiance's son told me that he wants to call me mom. I almost started to cry. He said he did not know if he wanted to start today or in two weeks. (isn't that cute). He asked me if that was ok. I told him it was but only if thats what he wants. I also said that I love him like I gave birth to him no matter what he calls me. He is going to be 12 in a couple of weeks and his sister is 10.

ok, I hope everyone has a good day. I hope I can stay in my good mood.

hugs
denise

[misscoyote]

Congrats dede on making it to the shower! I hate fixing my hair but feel very lucky that I have a lot considering many with PCOS are losing theirs. I just loved reading your post about "your" kids. I am kinda going thru the same thing with my bf's kids. They are so great and I fell in love with them when I fell in love with my man. It just breaks my heart when their mother comes into town and put the guilt trip on them about their lives with their dad. They end up having behaviors for a few days after she's gone. It makes me so angry knowing that her selfish words and actions hurt these innocent little guys.

Anyway, I still continue to be very emotionally in the dumps but am looking forward to these happy pills to kick in.

[slhightower]

Oh Denise,

That is so sweet.... I got all teary eyed just reading that!

Well, my MIL and SIL get to go home today. She finally got everything resolved with the IRS... they owe HER 12K plus interest because of THEIR mistake, and we took care of her electricity bill so that will be turned on today!

[dedepcos]

missy, I am counting the days til your happy pills kick in. As soon as i can get a job and some insurance I am going to see if I can get some too.

sl, I am so glad that your MIL resolved her problem with the IRS and that she is owed a refund. I am also so glad that you guys were able to get her power turned on for her and your sil.

hugs
denise

[sunnieflower]

And I thought I was the only one that called them happy pills LOL. Dr. just bumped my dosage up to 150 mg on mine (effexor XR)

[sunnieflower]

Is it a bad sign when your favorite song is "Unwell" by matchbox 20?

[slhightower]

Oh Sunnie... that is so sad!

I'm doing okay today, we talked with a social worker last night about a high school girl who is being evicted Saturday and she needs a place to stay... and it looks like something that we are open to right now... so she can finish out the semester for school.

On a happy note, we have our adoption classes setup - Feb 7 & Feb 21. So that we will be out of the way soon. But now we have to come up with the $600 homestudy fee... which is kind of tight right now! But we always seem to pull the rabbit out of the hat at the last minute.

How is everyone else doing today... ????

[Efiefi]

Dede,

LOL That is too funny him to tell you his hoo hoo hurt. LMAO I think they all are like that. Big and tough acting and then fall to pieces. Oh you are so lucky to have your fiances children living with you. I love children. I actually am in the process of getting all the paperwork and everything done to foster/adopt. I am actually waiting on the classes. I am glad that today was better than yesterday. Who needs makeup? LOL That is so awesome about your fiances son asking if he could call you mom. How sweet!

Miss,

How many kids does your bf have? That is so sad about how their other treats them. How old are they? Sounds like a situation my uncle is dealing with. I'm going to the dr. to ask for happy pills! Wed of next week! LOL

Sl,

So glad that MIL and SIL's probs are resolved. That is great! Big congrats on knowing when the classes are starting. Ummm who are you adopting through? I'm not going to have to pay for the homestudy. I'm going through the state. Here's to hoping you pull the rabbit out of the hat!!!

Sunnie,

How are you doing on the Effexor? My mom just got put on that and I was wondering about any side effects? Hey I happen to like that song! LMAO

Update on Me:

Okay today officially sucks big hairy balls! LMAO I am sorry I have to laugh or I'll cry it is my two year TTC anniversary and NO BABY. Life sucks. I need to go see the Dr. bad. I only have a few more days left until the appt. I am so depressed. Yucky.

[misscoyote]

Its great that you are doing foster care. I did it for five years as a single parent...mostly taking kids that were in transition or for respite. I quit doing it after my brother died in September but would definately consider it again in the future. Adoption home studies are so expensive, but sometimes reimbursed by the state if you adopt a special needs child.

I'm feeling kinda bummed for my bf because he received child support papers yesterday for a child he probably will never get to know. He says the mother is pyscho and the short time they were together was awful. Anyway, he already pays over $400 for his other two kids that HE KEEPS! He doesn't mind paying the child support but the amount is $420 for this third kid so the total is over $800. It just sucks when there's nothing you can do to make things better for someone else.

My car hasn't started for the past two days because its been -20 to -30 degrees. Didn't even get to 0 degrees yesterday. I hate catching rides. Have been crying much of the morning here at work. Its a good thing I don't have to share an office. I hope everyone else is doing better than me.

[slhightower]

Hey Princess... Sorry you are having such a sucky day!

We are working with a place called, Children and Family Institute, which works with the state to place 'hard to place minorities'. We pay the homestudy fee, then once a child is placed with us it is reimbursed! So we are only out that money for a few months basically.

misscoyote,

I'm sorry you are so sad today. And I can't even imagine how cold that is... I live in Texas... and it has been in the 20's - 30's this week and everyone has been complaining, but that is nothing compared to you guys. And that sucks about BF's child support... maybe things will change and he might get to know that child (someway, somehow).

[misscoyote]

Princess,

His kids are 6 & 8 and are so funny. The older one is the little caretaker and the younger one is the king of manners. They actually enjoy doing dishes and say thank you to their dad when he lets them help with laundry. haha

Yeah, their mother is evil as far as I'm concerned. She even gave them a picture of her and the boys to put up in his living room!

Crazy people annoy me. lol

[dedepcos]

missy, some parents can be so spiteful. I cant believe that she gave a picture to hang in the living room. Thats awesome that the kids are so well behaved. I often am surprised by bf kids cause they have been thru so much and still mind their manners. Their teachers are always complimenting them about their behavior and telling us what a joy they are. I am also sorry to hear about the child support. That sucks that he is having to pay the support when you guys have them.

sl, I was in the middle of of my adoption classes with my x when we split up. I am so excited for everyone who is going thru it

Princess, I am so sorry to hear about your day sucking hairy balls.lmao.

my day is back to sucking too. I think I overheard my fiance talking to his boss this morning about picking up material for them. This means he has to pay for it off his business account. His boss is terrible about putting the money in the checking account to cover the checks. I asked him not to do that anymore bc I am on the checking account and if a check bounces I am responsible for it too. I sort of feel its like disrespecting me by not listening to my wishes. Things are so crappy. Not to mention My insurance got drafted today and there was not enough money to cover it cause he hasnt got paid. SO no my personal checking account is overdrawn. I hate all this drama. He also seems sometimes that he is getting frustrated cause I dont want to set a wedding date yet. but I told him over and over that I want to wait a long while b4 I get married again. Evan b4 he asked me to marry him I told him that it would be a long while b4 I get married again. When He asked me I said that I wanted to marry him but I wasnt ready to do it right away. I just really want to make sure that I am not going to end up in a situation like I did with my x. Not to mention I still have got no calls on a job situation. GRRR. My frustration leval is sky high. And he said to me that our room needs cleaning. But he has had a deer in a cooler that has gone bad and its sitting in our garage. It stinks so bad. ok, sorry this kind of turned into a rant.

i hope everyone has a good day and if stinks big hairy balls that it gets better.

hugs
denise

[oohmercyme]

today is the first day in 12 i haven't expereinced pain (ovary, af, migraine), i emotionally feel like puppy poo, but at least i'm not in pain.

hope the day is looking better for you girls

[sunnieflower]

Hey all! It's Friday which means that it's almost the WEEKEND!!! That makes me feel OK!

[slhightower]

It's Friday, it's Friday.... *doing the HAPPY FRIDAY DANCE*