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[michelle2002]

hey gals i just wanted to let everyone that knows me know that i'm still alive. i've been having prob with my pancreas again and i'm consentrating on that right now i'm actually about to have pancreatic surgery the week of may 10th to see if it will help. intill then i've put on hold my pcos. i really have nothing but my pancreas going on in my life right now i'm trying to stay in a relationship but between mypancreas and pcos and the fact that every girl i meet is so far off i really don't have a relationship but i'm trying. but i just wanted to let yall all know i'm alive and kicking as hard as i can and will start coming back as soon as i'm well again

michelle

[bazsmommy]

Best of luck with the surgery and woman. LOL!! They can be tricky. I'll send you my girlfriend right now she is driving me crazy. LOL!! love Holly

[michelle2002]

thanks i really need someone right now but also i'm screaming WOMEN!!! because my ex's are coming out of the wood work and i am trying to find a texas woman and they are either psycho or they turn me down. ahhh oh wel thanks again

michelle

[michelle2002]

ok this jsut about sucks... i went to the doc today to find out when i'm going to have my surgery well first off i get a student doc to come ask me a lot of questions you know how that goes. well he kept smiling and me and **** i was like hey goofy i'm a lesbian but i didn't because for real he reminded me of goofy they way he was smiling. well i have to go back down there sometime soon and get an mri on my pancreas and i'm having surgery on the 28th i was sooo hoping i would get it this week but i'm not on a bright side though i have a g/f and i'm hoping we will last but you know how that goes sometimes it doesn't work out how you hope it will. if only my family would start treating me like i'm a human and not there slave and **** i would be fine you guys just don't wanna knwo what all i'm going through with them right now i owuld be typing for for ever but i will tell you this my brothers aren't going to come see me when i have my surgery instead there going to whats called the river rats and its where people gather to go mudding on 4-wheelers and **** and thats more important than i am and thats just something small......thanks ladies for listening to me though i will be on and off of here after i have my surgery so feel free to pm me or something

michelle

[Krystina]

Im so sorry about your health and your brothers. I know how that is. When ihad my laperoscopy my mom went to diner with friends and left me alone during surgery. It hurts like hell to come out and be alone.You'll will be in my thoughts sweetheart. This will make you stronger. SOmetimes people do things not to hurt you but because there not like us dont dont think that there actions are really going to hurt someone else.
Sorry, If you were in Chgo I would take care of you...that's what cysters are for
Best of luck sweetie..
Please keep us updated.
When your all better then you can worry about the ladies

[michelle2002]

i found out today what the mri that i had on the 18th to see what surgery i was going to have showed and it wasn't good news. i have to see a liver specialest because my liver is to fatty and that it would be a high rick to do the surgery with out knowing why it is so fatty and intill it regovenates its self and we don't know when that will be. he also told me that when i do have my surgery that i will be in the hospital for 14 to 21 days and part of that in icu because they can't do the simple surgery that they thought that they could do i will also be incelent dependent and i will have to take the pills that i just got off of and that i will be taped out on the highest pain medication that they can give me because i've been on it for so long. it was very depressing because i thought i was going to have my surgery on the 28th and now we have no idea when i'm going to have it it all depends on this new doc as to what the next step will be and from what i was told i'm going to have to go through a lot of test before we know anything and i'm not looking forward to it but i'm told that i'm going to the best doctors posable so maybe they can do something soon so that i can have a normal life again.

michelle

[bazsmommy]

Michelle,
I'm sorry you are going through so much right now. It must be hard. I will keep you in my thoughts. Best of luck. Keep us up to date. Love Holly

[michelle2002]

well mom called today to see when i go to see the new doctor but when she called they told her that my doctor didn't write the consult papers so they were suposed to get them to the new doctor today so that they will call us tomorrow to get me in. i'm not sleeping at night because of the pain and its starting to get old and fast its starting to have an effect on my mental state but i'm refusing to take anything for my depression. but as soon as i find out something i assure yall that yall will be the first to know.
michelle

[bazsmommy]

Keep us up to date. I am so sorry that you are in such pain. I wish i lived near i would come over and give you a big old hug!! Hugs and Kisses Love Holly

[michelle2002]

well mom called the doctor this week and they said that my doctor was faxing my consult to the wrong office and that they were going to get it that day and she asked them when we would know something and they said it would be a week mom told them that it has already been two and that i'm in pain and having to take showers 2 and 3 times a night to be able to be able to sleep and they told her sorry. we are both not happy she hates seeing me in pain and i want to get on with my life. i will let yall know more when i know myself whats going on.

michelle

[Galeshka]

Michelle, my thoughts are with you.......I hope this is resolved for you very very soon.

[bazsmommy]

Michelle,
Just wanted to let you know that i am here for you. If you just want to talk i am here. I am a great listner. Email me any time at bazsmommy2000@yahoo.com Love Holly