I was at the grocery store Sat night...seen a gal from profile...and it looked like a gal that had a son about 5 months before I had Ryanne...and she was VERY pregnant and I had such anger soar through me I felt like I'd been let down and so jealous!!! *sigh* Then, she turned and said hi to some gals in front of me, and I realized it wasn't the gal I thought it was............and INSTANTLY the feeling of anger/jealousy was gone!!!!!!!
I felt terrible that I had those feelings.....guess I'm not completely over miscarrying, afterall.
I hate feeling that low.
I hadn't shared that with anyone except my Mom and when I told her, I had huge croc tears in my eyes!!!
I just felt the "desire" to share with friends....and now, maybe I'll feel better and let go!!!
Thanks for "listening" ladies!!
~Dee
(although did share this with the gals off the ttc board I have been active on)
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You're not the only one hun. I saw a gf I played softball with in Target the other day, bigger than a house! Second baby got preg 3 months after her first and she was talking chatting with me about how easy it was and she just couldn't believe it and yadda yeadda and i seriously didn't wanna to talk to her I was so angry and jealous to see her.
Plus with my husbands cousin having the same due date that mine was is terrible and to have to watch her belly grow and hear how wonderful this is and that is and I seriously think sometimes I hate her for it. I feel like she did it to me...
Just stupid and childish but I think its natural for us to feel that way. Its okay to feel that way I think, its our way of moving through this and its our own way of dealing with the loss
[b][color=#9932cc]I was at the grocery store Sat night...seen a gal from profile...and it looked like a gal that had a son about 5 months before I had Ryanne...and she was VERY pregnant and I had such anger soar through me I felt like I'd been let down and so jealous!!! *sigh* Then, she turned and said hi to some gals in front of me, and I realized it wasn't the gal I thought it was............and INSTANTLY the feeling of anger/jealousy was gone!!!!!!!
I was out somewhere once, walking... and ahead of me I saw this big baby belly. I don't know if it was after one of my mc's or just one of my failed treatment cycles but you know the drill. You b****, it's not fair, why are you pregnant, why not me, it's probably your 4th kid, yada yada yada.
Then I looked up and discovered that the baby bump belonged to some old dude with a beer belly.
So, umm, I've been there...
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"We've tried to wash our hands of all of this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt-stricken, sobbing, with our heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip..."
- the verve pipe
RunnerDuck...OMG thank you sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much for the laugh today!
Yeah...exactly, sometimes it IS like a slap in the face...even when an old chubby man is the pregnant one! ohhhh gosh, that really helped me out this AM!!!
Bless us ALL!!!
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"We've tried to wash our hands of all of this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt-stricken, sobbing, with our heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip..."
- the verve pipe
I was out somewhere once, walking... and ahead of me I saw this big baby belly. I don't know if it was after one of my mc's or just one of my failed treatment cycles but you know the drill. You b****, it's not fair, why are you pregnant, why not me, it's probably your 4th kid, yada yada yada.
Then I looked up and discovered that the baby bump belonged to some old dude with a beer belly.
So, umm, I've been there...
you made me smile for the first time in days. thank you for that...
Silliness... 
I felt like I'd been let down and so jealous!!! *sigh* Then, she turned and said hi to some gals in front of me, and I realized it wasn't the gal I thought it was............and INSTANTLY the feeling of anger/jealousy was gone!!!!!!! 
